** oh to clear things up, this trainer is not associated with my gym. She is someone that I hired on the side and paid a fee for her to train me at my gym **
Today I met with my trainer to hash things out and decide where to go next. I know alot of people have said that there are many trainers out there so if one is not working move on to the next. I actually clicked with trainer on many levels, it was just communcation that wasn't fitting. I was/am loving the body that is coming from the workouts, I just don't like (emotionally/mentally) being left in the dark about what is going on. This is a personality thing with me.
We had a nice 1.5 hour meeting away from the gym. I shared with her many thing, including my frustrations. She finally got the fact that my asking was about me and something I need to feel comfortable and is not about her. I think now she's going to be giving me more research style homework in addition to workout stuff. This is fine with me and good for me.
She said that she had never worked with anyone that wanted to know stuff at the level I do - I know I'm special
We also agreed that we need to meet periodically in a more relaxed manor. I offered it to be a paid session and she suggested that we adjust our schedule so that it is on a day that we can just have an extended session.
All in all, a good meeting.
Thanks for all that listened and gave advice. Hopefully the drama is over and I can get back to working on losing weight.