Hi again!

I have spent the afternoon thinking. I know I have said this, what 8 million times, but I am going to get back on plan, start over. You know the drill LOL. As I type I am printing a journal, I've laid out a plan for myself with some mini goals and rewards for each. I also have two bottles of water (a litter each) chilling in the firdge along with a couple gallons in the brita thing ready to go also. In short I am going to allow myself some room to ease back on plan by allowing my self 30 points a day. If I find I am not losing I will lower that. But I feel I can stick to 30, and that has to be less than what I have been eating, right? I am also going to aim for 8 activity points a week, and two liters of water a day.

Since I am doing this on my own I can choose when to start my points and when they renew and when I weigh in. I think I will stick with Tuesday weigh ins, probably mornings, but I am starting my points at 5 pm today. So my points will renew each Friday. I think that will be best for my schedule and with weekends and all.

I wanted to go grocery shopping tonight, but we litterally have $0.00 in our checking account and everything we've bought the last couple of days and some checks I wrote earlier this week will be coming out of our savings account. So I will ahve to make due with what is in the house. I really should challenge myself to only buy eggs, milk and bread for the next couple of weeks in order to clear the fridge, freezer and cupboards of all the stuff we don't feel like eating. We have alot of random meat from a half cow we really should use up.

Well, I'm off to cook dinner. Then I am planning on exercising this evening. Have a great holiday weekend!

Hello all!

Well I stayed on my plan for one day!!!!! I didn't exercise, but I have more time for that this weekend. Dh came home from Pittsburgh last night, and I got stuck on the phone with my mom for like an hour so it was hard to squeeze it in, especially since I was in bed and alseep by 8:45.

Funny thing is though...I allowed myself 30 points. I had every intention of eating 30 points. Instead I ate 26, which is my points target LOL. The same 26 points I couldn't stick with before. I also drank my 2 liters of water.

Tonight will be a challenge. It's pizza, chips, cake and fire works at DH's uncle's house. I am planning to bring water so I can avoid the pop. If I can just do that I will feel the night was successful.

I talked wth DH this morning. He's kind of been sabotaging me alot latley. One morning he left a cream filled chocolate frosted doughnut in my car, before he left for Pittsburgh he left me a HUGE PB no bake cookie on the table. We eat out ALOT, and sometimes my choices are eat high points junk or nothing at all. Like this morning he stopped for breakfast sandwhiches, they were all warm and melty and cheesey. He also bought the kids bagels. We had several errands to run, so I ate nothing for a long while. Once the kids were done eating and it was apporaching 11:30 (I though we'd be home before that) I ate the last half of DD's bagel. I told him it's really hard to watch people eat this stuff, and the weekends are killing me b/c we eat quick stuff, we eat at his parents' house and we eat out. He said he would try to help me by changing his attitude with my changes.

So we'll see. I have to get back on track. I don't even have underwear that fit right now b/c I threw away all my bigger sizes. All my new clothes I just bought are too tight. I guess throwing out all the bigger stuff was a good thing though. I can't just dig into the back of my closet for fat pants. It's a big reality check for me.