Princess: Congrats on the weight loss. I used to love to bike ride everywhere when I lived on campus -- my bike and my computer were my most valuable material assets for those four years (computer for school and entertainment, bike to get EVERYWHERE.)
On my program, I cannot weigh every day. With the Wendie plan, your weight is expected to go up for a day or two after your super high day, and that's normal. It's worked so far. Except this weekend. I went home and went nuts. For some reason, I can control my eating behavior when I'm here in Tucson, but when I go home to see my family...I don't know, it's like I just sort of regress into my old eating habits. I eat, compulsively, all sorts of junk and in large volume. Afterwards, I feel unwell and guilty, and then I do it again. I actually gained .8 pounds this week, and I have been losing or maintaining since March!!!
I wish I could say that I was on my way to the gym to work on losing that weight again, but I'm still at work. One of my projects imploded, and I'm here fixing things. No one is putting pressure on me to do so, but I can feel myself panicking about all of the things that have to get done, so here I am, working on a Thursday night instead of working out. I know that I have to manage my stress better, but as yet, I don't know *how*. I do my best to work out 4x per week. I save the last two hours of every sunday for sewing and pizza (2 pieces, 8 points), my version of stress relief therapy. Part of my problem recently is that I've been given increased responsibility, which means more work, and we have several new people, so I spend a larger percentage of my time helping the new people and doing node management, while I still have the same heavy workload as before. On top of that, ALL of my current projects are priority 1, it's only a question of 1A vs 1C vs 1B. <sigh> It's making me a bit nuts. If I can catch up today, maybe I won't have to work Saturday, but it's unlikely. Plus, I get SO MUCH done when it's quiet here. (I'm waiting for a patch to run while I write this email, but other than that, there are no real distractions. It's just me in the office.) I used to be able to work like that when I had fewer responsibilities, but lately, I feel like I only spend 50% of my time working on my regular job responsibilities, and the other 50% doing management tasks and training. <sigh> Anyway, I guess I'm all wigged out and I needed to rant. The truth is, after this week, I WILL get my butt back on track. If I work late tomorrow night, I can most likely skip Saturday altogether, although I should come in anyway. It would reduce my stress level a lot if I could get caught up. Our problem here at this company is that we have more work than we can handle (and not enough people to do it.) We keep hiring, but it takes months for a person to become truly skilled at this job. Oi. Anyway, I'm hoping to get a lot done tonight (the darn patch is STILL running) and if I put in some extra work over the next few days, I should be able to catch up.
Anyway, I repeat myself, I babbleth, but I am just so stressed out I needed to rant. Thanks for listening, ladies.