Wow all this talk about kids really gets me thinking. I know I am really young (22) but I really do want kids, and for some reason I think my biological clock is ticking REALLY early. I can't afford to have kids, and I won't have any until I have a house and have money saved up, but I always think about it lately. A lot of people around us have had kids in the past year or so (some good friends and Jay's sister...I've officially been an aunt for the past 5 months) and that has just made it worse! Oh well..just gotta get over it and plan for the future! I know if I wait to have kids their lives will be much better than if I had them now.
Ok, before I go any further I have to let you all know that I have a history of bulemia. In high school, and in college. I got over it both times on my own. It has been coming back lately and I think its becuase I haven't been losing weight on WW (well yeah, a couple weeks ago I did but before that I hadn't in like 6 months and the week I lost I decided to try to be REALLY GOOD and follow the plan strictly for the whole week). I finally decided to go see a counsellor about it. They have counselling at work and I am going today at noon. I will let you know how it goes. Its coming back and it isn't as bad as it could be but I certainly don't want it to get any worse and I want to overcome this for good so that it won't come back later on either. Oh and I just want to say that I lost all my weight following the program. This problem didn't start until about 4-5 months ago and I lost all my weight BEFORE the problem came back, just incase some of you are worried about that.
Ok, I feel like I've shared enough for one post! If anyone wants to email me personally on that subject or send me a message, I think it would help. Otherwise, I will check back in later and after my session and let you all know how it goes.
Not too much new to report here, I had a horrible sleep & now I'm stuck with a massive headache. The day will get better....
Lori, THanks for sharing something so personal. I think it is a good idea to see a counsellor. I have no experience with eating disorders. I really hope you work this through so you are in healthy state again. We're always here to listen.
Hi to everyone else. Pretty quiet in here so far. I'll pop back later.
WOW, have things been slow around here or what!!!!
Lori, the only eating disorder I have is overeating. So I don't think I am much help. I didn't seek counseling tho, I think you are very wise to do it. Especially since this is reaccuring and you are thinking of your child bearing future. Bulimia can cause horrible things to your body! I had some major binging problems in Jr-High/HS. A little in college. But I see the errors of my ways now and know that food is not that good (OK, yes it is, but that ruins my point). All I can say is good for you for trying to get this under control. Also think about this. Maybe you aren't losing because your body is comfortable where you are at. You have lost a lot of weight and should be proud of that!
HI Rina... I made an appt for a massage/facial on the 20th. Need to have a PG massage tho since my belly gets in the way!
Other Lori... Congrats on the baby. I know you probably know this already, but don't tell too many people yet until you know it all OK. When is your Due Date??? OK, and who does a doctor go to for a doctor???
Had my doc appt this morning. Finally only gained 2 pounds, so that is a good thing! I was gaining so fast at first, but my belly was also popping out so fast with this PG. That's about it!
Hi-where is everyone! I found a really great diet-first trimester of pregnancy. I am either really hungry or nauseated all the time. If I eat when i am hungry, i get nauseated and then throw up!
But, it's all for a good cause, right! And I've already lost 2 pounds this week-I know i shouldn't be excited about that, but hey, with all of my body fat, this kid certainly won't starve, and I know I'll make up for it later on...
Lori-Wow-that is a really hard thing to admit-congratulations on going for counselling-many people don't even make it that far. It takes a lot of courage to face up to something like that.
Jen-I have a doctor She is a family practice doctor, actually one of my colleagues on staff, but we are in different practices and don't know each other socially. She actually takes care of a few of the women in my group. i guess the answer is that you find out who is good and trustworthy via word of mouth...often you work in a community other than the one you live in so finding a doctor in your community is not a problem.
Yeah-we've only told family, and i told the scheduling person at work-my due date is August 15th...so i am really early!
Does the nausea get better with the second pregnancy?
Hi guys. Lots of boredom today. My boss is back though so hopefully I'll get some stuff to do.
Lori - check your PMs
Dr Lori - I'd get pregnant for the diet but you know, not really interested the rest of it...yet
Jen - enjoy your massage, pampering time sounds so good
Rina - Hope your headache is gone.
OK - see, now I have work. I'll check in later.
KT
hey girls I havent fallen off the face of the Earth just in end of the semester insanity thank god for paxil
ModLori-- that takes alot of courage! andwe are here for you
Lori!!! HI MOM!! CONGRATSSSS I'm so happy for you
hi to everyone else i'lltry to post properly later
Love
Kier
PG Lori... I know you will want to hit me, but I never had the morning sickness with either PG. Never had the vomitting or anything. Sometimes I would get a little nauseous in the 1st trimester, but nothing major. I was super lucky. My problem, I get super tired and sometimes a little achey. That is the worst for me. In bed very early. The 1st trimester yuck gets better for most at about 14+ weeks, but comes back in the 3rd sometimes!!! Good luck!
I am 19 weeks now, so really the only problems are being TIRED! Last night I was up watching TV and dreading it today. Had to watch the Osbournes, then after that they had this Fat Camp show I watched, but fell asleep before they made it to camp. Maybe I'll catch that on a re-run.
I don't have time to properly respond as I am at home with god knows what. I have had diarreah (SP?) for 3 days now. It started on Monday and was so bad (and the cramping so painful) I didn't go to the Yukon. Today I stayed home again but I am doing some work from home. I am starting to get really worried, as it has not subsided and is dehydrating me quite badly. I am seeing a doctor today, just in case I am seriously dehydrated. I have a fever an I haven't had normal pees. I thinkthat is a sign of dehydration....ah!
Anyway, on a "Lighter" note I was down 2 lbs this week, pre-diarrhea! Yay! 3 lbs to my Dec 31 goal!!
OK I gotta go, take care all and hopefully I will be back tomorrow in full swing (If I don't become a living prune).
Hello everyone!! I have to take just a second to whine, then I'll move on to more pleasant things...
This morning, WorkBoy was over talking to the girl who sits next to me in our cube farm. He had a crush on her for a long time and part of me feels like he's still waiting for her to become single. That caused me to think back to when I was heavier and how I never felt like I was good enough and how he makes me feel the same way. I started crying, and practically sprinted to the bathroom, where I sat on the floor and bawled my eyes out. I should never feel that way, and ESPECIALLY not now that I've lost this much weight. That really did not make my day...
Thank you all for being so supportive and offering me a whole bunch of shoulders during all of this WorkBoy stress...
On the brighter side, Josh (from Saturday) called me and came over last night. We watched Coyote Ugly and it was nice. I was super-shy because he's even hotter than I remember him, so I hope he doesn't think I'm not interested... I was kind of thinking about calling him tonight, but am not sure if I should. I might just hold off until tomorrow night and maybe bump into him at the bar... WorkBoy is having a party on Saturday night and I was invited prior to all the BS happened, I was thinking about taking Josh. I know it's childish and maybe mean, but WorkBoy is being a total prick, so I shouldn't even feel bad.
Lori--I'm going to send you a PM, OK?
Rina--I was reviewing some posts and you said that you cringe when people talk about sleeping on their stomachs and about some other stuff. Could I ask your opinion? I'm very (ahem) chesty, and have been having back pain. I don't want to become dependent on pain medication for it, I'm not sure that my insurance would cover a breast reduction, but I've got to do something. Any suggestions?
Jen--It's so interesting watching you get further and further into your pregnancy, especially since it's such a mystery to me.
LoriD--Congratulations on your pregnancy!! Will you be finding out ahead of time if it's a boy or a girl? Do you have some names in mind?
KT--Hello!
Kier--Hope all is going well for you tying up your semester!
OK, that's all I know. I'll probably stop back in later!!
Hey Jess, just one word of advice about the WB and bringing Josh to the party. Don't make Josh uncomfortable, because that can cause problems. I think that is so awesome that he is hot, You deserve a hot guy. Heck we all do.
Belle, hubby just got over intestinal distress. Get ye to the doctor!!!! He had a bacterial infection in his colon, no clue where he got it because neither Emma nor I got it!!! He was out of commission for a week, even tho he dragged himself into work most days.
That's it for me. I am frustrated at work. Actually it is lack of people working. No motivation by people that get paid a ton more than me. And they get away with it. It only hurts the company and that concerns me. Things are not getting done. UGhhhhhh...
ugh! DH & I ate at McDonald's for lunch! Why why why? I guess I'll really have to take it easy for supper. We ran out of time before we were supposed to be places so we just went through the drive-thru. Of course I never manage to make healthy choices there either. Argh argh argh!
Anyway enough venting.
LoriD hope you feel better soon. Aug 15th seems like forever away!
Belle, hope you're feeling better. Too bad you had to miss your trip. Have you been to the Yukon before? One of my friends is from Whitehorse & her pictures of home are beautiful. DH & I want to go there someday.
KT, Amazing Race is on tonight-are you going to watch? I love that show. I really get annoyed with Ian & Flo on that show though. Who were you referring to that annoys you?
Jess, I'll PM you later. Personally I woulnd't take Josh to the party. Its more of an insult to WB if you don't even go to his party b/c you have plans with Josh than by taking Josh there & possibly screwing things up with him. Just my opinion.
Jen, Yay for getting a massage I love treating pg ladies-they are usually so greatful & so excited. I have a few that come almost every week. We also do infant massage at our clinic so then they bring their babies back after Too fun!
Anyway should go get ready for work. It is so warm here that my work is really slow. Today I only have one patient!!! Sucks for the budget let me tell you. I love warm winter but I really would like it to cool off so work can get back to normal. Its really weird but weather always affects our business. Anybody else in a profession where that happens? Too weird.
ARGH!!!!!!! Sorry, I am stressed out about school and such and then discover that my roomate didn't take a message for an important telephone call!!!!!!!! He's not working right now and I don't know, but it was for a job... They called me back today thank god! but I am just furious... Luckily he did tell me about another job interview that I got! Actually I want the second job more, it's in my field, I'd get to keep in contact with my current co-workers and it pays about 4K more a year.
Modlori: I'll try to write ya a PM soon!
Jess: ya, I think I'd hold off on inviting Josh to the party... You're also at a stage where you're just getting to know each other.. Heck why not blow off work boy's party and go and do something fun with Josh or with your girlfriends or something. Any guy who makes you feel bad is not worth your effort... The fact that work boy made such a comment shows he's not worth your time and effort.... I mean this guy I was dating last month told me "yeah my ex was really beautiful, I usually end up with not great looking girls".... I knew I deserved better than that... but yeah I didn't listen to my advice and guess what, I got hurt and pretty much have no respect for him now. My current friend though keeps making me want to be with him... it's strange how to describe why, he just does.... I think the fact is, he respects me as a person and yes he does see me as a girl, but he also sees me as an equal.
Belle: There's a nasty tummy bug in Ottawa right now... maybe it's travelled to Calgary, but regardless it's making people really sick right now.
Kierie! Hi! I am glad your semester is done
LoriD: my mom always ended up being thinner after giving birth due to being sick all through her pregnancy. I hope the nausea will stop fairly soon.
KT: I wish I had internet access at work sometimes... Occasionally there is like no work to do at all.
Thanks everyone for your support. I almost feel like I need to tell people so that I am not hiding this...need to admit it to someone else in order to admit it to myself and get over this hurdle. That's what I am thinking of. A temporary hurdle. Today has been really well for me eating-wise...I have been extremely good. Just one day at a time
Jess, I too think taking Josh to WB's party is a bad idea! Things could go horribly wrong! Instead I would suggest making a date with Josh and then if WB asks say "Oh is that THIS Saturday? I'm sorry, but I have a date...we have tickets so we can't break it. Maybe next time" but don't bring it up if he doesn't ask. Just let him go...he sounds like a total a**hole. I don't think he's worth all you are going through!
About tummy sleeping ... when Jay and I moved in together, his parents gave us a bed and mattress. It is so hard, I can't sleep on my side. Its impossible. And I get a stiff neck if I sleep on my back so tummy sleeping is the only possibility. I want to get a new mattress by the summer.
Again everyone, thank you thank you thank you. I really appreciate the support!
Wednesday - hard topic
, and I know I'll make up for it later on...
Hope you're feeling 100% again soon!
Thanks everyone
