It fells good to go from wearing the largest size you could find (and it was tight) to trying on something in a smaller size and its too big.
Even tonight I had to step away from the guacamole and chips and let me hubby have them. Because the last time I didn't step away I gained two pounds.
I am really looking forward to being smaller. I would love to sit on a plastic chair and not be afraid that I will not fit, or that it will break. I would love to go to an amusement park...I don't go because I am too fat, and know the bar will not click. I would love to walk in public and know they are looking at me because I am cute and not fat.
Just some insecurities I need to overcome. Most of my adult fat life I was insecure but when my boyfriend once told me "I love big women, but I would never want to be with somebody that is over 300 lbs" Little did I or he know at that time I was 330. I didn't think it was a problem until I started noticing people treating me different then before when I was thinner.
I need to start a thread about discrimination, and how to get over it.
Off the subject...oh well...Tanya

