1st I have to say I thought I was going to gain. I had many struggles this week but after writing it all down and counting the points I was so below my points that I realized I was hungry and grabbing the wrong things then the guilt would make me not eat the rest of the day.
SOOOO Goal this week is to refocus. I want to get back into the habit of writing my food down daily, I think this is the first week I've had this problem and thats why I've felt like I was so out of control!
I rode my bike 3 times this week. I plan on making it 3-4 times a week. I really like it alot. Its embarrassing at first. I had an audience one day and of course I couldn't peddle up hill and felt dumb but you know it was my butt on the bike and they were just sitting on their front porch watching me. I felt empowered then and I've been riding over a mile. Which is good considering my lack of movement before!!
So my weight loss was 1.2 lbs, this is 14.2 lbs in 7 weeks, or an avg 2.03 lbs a week. Which is right where I want to be!
We talked today about identities and how we have inner voices when we look in the mirror. She wanted to name off what we thought of our selves when we looked in the mirror. I realized I literally hate myself! people saying stuff like Fluffy and bubble butt and amazon, I was thinking wow they sure are considerate! My inner voice is pretty bad. I hear myself really beating myself up. I'm gonna work on that. I am getting healthy, all my clothes fit so much better, I feel like I really am motivated and I am succeeding and it is one day at a time. I've even felt better intimately. So its working and I'm doing it!!!
I'm gonna stop myself from saying those things and concentrate on my great hair, my green big green eyes, my cute dimples. I think I'm gonna get a manicure and pedicure this week- just because my feet are horrible and it makes me feel so pretty and that'll be one more thing I can add to the list! 


This is so not cool!