Non Scale Victory
 

So, I got my first weight loss reward. The goal had been 30 lbs and either a mani/pedi or a facial. My gym has a spa and my skin needed more attention than my nails, so I got a facial yesterday. A few pounds early, but 5 1/2 months in the making.

Here's the hitch. I was worried the robes they offer wouldn't fit me, so I talked with a friend who works there and she took me back and had me try one on. They only went as large as an XL and I was worried. Remember, I'm used to XXXL. My friend thought I was nuts and confirmed it when the XL fit around me with room to spare.

Yeah me! An XL. All 293 lbs of me and an XL fits me (as does a 14/16 tshirt because of weight lifting! (and core, and endurance, etc.)

That robe is a great NSV!! Good for you!

I used to wonder how people could weigh more than me and wear a smaller size. Now I am understanding so much better that there is more to it than the number on the scale.

Congratulations!

:D

Congrats!!

Congrats! That's just great!!

Yeah, it's funny. I have a friend who had WLS, a type I considered. She and I are both 293 right now (ironically). I was 320, she was 450. Anyway, she's a tight 26/28. I'm a 14/16 top, sometimes 18, or an XL and my bottom's a 22 (sometimes 18, sometimes 24, all depends on cut).

I've had a real hard time accepting my new size. About six weeks ago I got into an 18 top and it was my small shirt, something I wore at 269. That was a victory. Now it's too big. A 2xl sweater I bought should now be an XL. I've even fit in an 18 skirt and an 18 pair of workout pants.

But I don't think of myself as an XL.

I guess I'm not seeing myself accurately. Even my friend at the spa thought I was silly thinking the robe wouldn't fit. She's this beautiful fit but zaftig black woman with skin like dark chocolate (I think she's gorgeous, and yes, I'm very straight, LOL). She's probably a size 14 or 16. I just don't see us as the same size in anyway, shape or form.

Anyway, as "tight" as I've become, I no longer limit what size I'll be at goal, or even what weight.

Originally, I hoped to be a size 10 or 12 and felt I would always be zaftig. I hoped to be 160-180 and believed I would always weigh more.

Now, I know I may not end up at 140 (I'm 5'6). I might find the original weight was good. I might also find it's a 6 or an 8. I mean, if I'm now in 14/16 tops...maybe I'll be smaller than I can imagine.

Blows my mind.