My surgery is tomorrow at 6 am. It's currently 8pm and I know I should be asleep as I will be getting up at 4 am to shower and to make it to the hospital on time. However; I can't sleep. My nerves are haywire.. Nausea has become me and I keep looking at my son and asking myself, "Is this the right choice?" I'm doing it for him, but I fear the risk of death from the surgery more than words can describe. At this point, I'm trying to remind myself that it will be okay, and I have an excellent surgeon, but I'm just so shaken. Did this happen with any of my fellow WLS chicks? My therapist keeps telling me it's normal, but I guess I'd rather hear it from a post-op WLS patient. Sorry it's so last minute, and thank you for any responses.
I was a terrified mess up until I was in the operating room. The only thing that helped me was thinking "I'm in control, I can stop this any time". Honestly, I was a huge mess the day before surgery. I was having panic attacks, crying, the whole ball of wax. I had to travel 200 miles to the hospital, stay overnight by myself in a hotel, and then go to the hospital the morning of my surgery by myself. My sister met me there, thankfully, and that helped me. Do you have people there with you, and someone to go with you to the hospital?
My mother and my fiance are with me. I'm in the hospital bed as I type this. I'm still in tears, and still scared more than words can describe. I don't think it would be as hard if I didn't have a child to think about. But I'm here.. And I'm trying to get through this as calmly as possible. Thank you for responding to my post. =)
waiting to hear how it went - and what you were thinking is COMPLETELY normal. i hope the anesthesiologist showed up and gave you something to help you calm down.
Thank you everyone! My surgery was over at 12:30pm and I've been spending a lot of time sleeping. I'm in a good amount of pain, but it's not intolerable. I've opted not to take anymore morphine because of the intense nausea, however I am taking another pain medicine and an anti-nausea medication. I can't say I'm happy with my decision at this point in time because I feel like I got hit by a truck, haha, but I'm sure I will be very happy with my decision in the long run. I really appreciate the support everyone's given me. It helped me to realize that I'd be okay, despite what my anxiety kept telling me. Thank you all very much again!
hurray! Glad it all come out ok. hehehe Now just heal, sip sip sip and get to walkin as soon as the dr. gives you the go-ahead. There is the key! Do exactly what your dr. and support staff tell you. Come here often...ask questions...help other people with what ever experience you have.
Happy, Healthy Recovery!
Angela
Last edited by missangelaks; 01-03-2011 at 09:43 PM.
Thank you! I intend to stick around and answer other people's questions who are as fearful as I was. And as always, I'll definitely be needing support from my fellow Chickies. Juliemarie, I know you were nervous about having the surgery because of your daughter.. And I was very nervous about having it because I didn't want to leave my son behind. I cried to my nurses in the OR and they were all so understanding and supportive. They will help calm you down and remind you that you're doing this FOR your baby. And now that I have gone through it, I feel confident in telling you.. It will be okay! Especially if you carefully picked your hospital/surgeon. I wish you the best of luck and we can both be excited about the results together!
BigM - these next few days will be the toughest - but you CAN and WILL get through them. and please give yourself a chance to heal - it takes energy, and you will be tired. this too shall pass.
I'm definitely feeling it. =( My surgeon came in to check on me about an hour ago and he was pushing the liquids and walking. I'm dizzy, exhausted and nauseous, but I'm trying to just suck it up and make it through this without much whining. I'm lucky to have my fiance by my side, and they let him spend the night with me so he has been helping me out. I just wish I could get comfortable and have the pain stop for a while. =(
A handful of hours away from surgery..
