Today I am calm and at peace with my life as I look at the last week of my battle to
get surgery. now I am just trying to avoid getting a cold or twisting an ankle so I don't have to push it back until I recover.
I realize that this feeling of calm could shatter with a single thought if I let it but right now, I am enjoying it.
In counseling yesterday I saw in myself a new thing...seems I have said goodbye to an old way of looking at myself and am ready to fight through the first few obsticles to get to the "well adjusted post-op patient." Also, fully aware that there are battles to be won over the next hill.
Wow, that's Big! I was an emotional wreck most of my life! Childhood trauma, abusive now ex husband, and a illness that blew my world apart put me into downward spin that has taken me 41 years to 1. recognize 2. begin to heal and 3. see hope that it is starting head in the upward direction!
Again...WOW.
Thanks for listening,
Angela
one battle at ending...another in a long line of battles begins.
