So I'm re-committing. Unfortunately, I decided to recommit AFTER breakfast, but oh well. My goals are to stay between 1200 and 1700 cal per day (hopefully averaging around 1500 daily for the week) and get at least some exercise in, even if it's just walking a mile or two a day. The exercise is a little bit of a challenge because I'm working full time and starting a part-time job (so my weeks are going to look like 70-75 hour work weeks for a while, until I get moved and my car paid down), but I'm going to count walking to work and home as exercise (about 3 miles a day).
I re-started a fitday account. If it goes in my mouth, I'm logging it. I'm going to drink my water and cut out the diet soda completely -- I had gotten down to 1 can every couple of days, and now I'm back up to drinking 3-4 cans a day within a month or so time.
And honestly, the more I drink of it, the more my other habits seems to fly out the window. I know for sure that I'm not drinking the water I need to when I'm drinking diet soda.I can do this. I know I can. I'm just angry with myself that I haven't been -- three months down the drain for no good reason. Well, it's time to get it together again, and start taking care of myself. No one else can do it for me.


....yesterday I was bored and snacking too much....so I went to Kohl's for their 80% off clearance. I found some ADORABLE skirts and tops ranging from $2.00 -$5.00. I had a blast trying on some 14's !!!
woohooo..... can't believe it anyways, I came home and promptly had a candy bar.
Old habits die hard....I guess I thought that I had 'earned' it somehow. Now that made me mad.!!!
I journaled it but it really pissed me off. I had gone to the gym and worked damn hard on the treadmill for a 760 calorie burn just to throw it away with a 300 calorie choc. bar!!! TOTAL WASTE OF TIME AND EFFORT!!!
I still evened out with 1547 calories for the day, but?? TODAY IS A NEW DAY....and I'm feeling better. Just moving on to a better frame of mind. Sometimes I can justify almost anything. Today I'm wearing a really nice sweater that I'm embarrassed to say I've never even worn. I bought it about 5 years ago.....and it never fit...BUT IT DOES NOW!!! So thats my reminder today to eat OP and to think positive thoughts.
We can all just turn that downward spiral around.....THINK GOOD THOUGHTS AND TAKE SMALL BABY STEPS!!!
