Ok, they say confession is good for the soul....so let's give it a whirl.....
I confess I am VERY nervous about going back to WW today. Not nervous about looking like an idiot going back for the umpteenth time.

Not nervous about trying to get back into the swing of things.

I'm nervous about the way I'm going to feel when I see how much I've gained back.
I am among friends here, so if we're going to talk, let's talk all the way. When I re-joined last February, I weighed an all time high of 346.5. Through series of ups and downs, good weeks and not so good weeks, I eventually got down to 269.8. That's actually the lowest I'd weighed in a long time.
So, here I am today: I remember when I got out of the "3's", I swore to myself that I would never get back into them again. Yet, here I am. So you say, "Tina, how do you know that you're back in the 3's if you've not weighed yourself?" Well, if you remember, I went to the doctor a little over a month ago with a UTI, well.....they weighed me and even though I didn't
verbally ask them how much I weighed, I did peek at the scale and I know it was over the 300 mark. I am so agrivated by this.

#1. I hate being back in the 3's again. #2. I hate losing the same weight I have already lost. I am scared that when I see that
number today, that I will feel like such a huge failure that it will overshadow the fact that I am actually re-joining WW and doing something good for myself.
I know..... I preach and preach and preach to not let the scale be your reward.....to let the fact that you are doing something good for yourself be your reward. Let the fact that you are eating better and striving to be healthy be your reward. I do believe that and I will try my best to strive for that when I get rolling on the program. What I'm concerned with is that initial jolt I'm going to get when I see that number today.
Oh well...... keep your fingers crossed for me. Just coming here and letting you know about my fears and knowing that you will be sending me good wishes while I'm there does make me feel better.
Here are my promises to you this week:
#1. I will only allow myself 1 cup (8 oz) of diet coke per day. Everything else I drink will be water.
#2. I will exercise no less than three days this week.
#3. I will stay within my points every single day.
I love you all and I will see you later this evening. I'm not sure how late it will be because I'm going to Walmart after I get out of my meeting to get some healthy stuff in the house!
I do want to say to
Sandy though.... I can't say anything any better than what 2cute said earlier. MIL's drive me crazy sometime too, but take comfort in the fact that because of her age, she really probably didn't realize what was going on, but I'm sure it doesn't make you feel any better.
Oh well

on MIL's!!
