I am about a 5/10. I am feeling bad about myself because I had a hard weekend, ate too much and drank too much. It was fun to be with friends, but I am worried I am going to fall back into that behavior in a more permanent way. I also feel guilty and that makes me want to eat sweets.
I ate cake for lunch, but now I am going on a bike ride and I am going to try to get the right attitude and commitment back on the ride.
Update: After my bike ride, I was still feeling a little down emotionally, but my body felt good. My husband had a chocolate muffin waiting for me that he got at Perkins to be nice. I looked at it when I sat down and thought, "I am going to eat this whole thing." and I felt resigned to do it. While I was eating the muffin, I thought about how I what I wrote on here, and how I would feel after I ate the whole thing. I decided that my changes could start again and that I didn't have to keep eating just to eat. I ate half the muffin, felt satisfied, and decided to call a win for my small victory.





