Oh Leah, I'm so sorry to hear that! Take care hun, that's so sad.

Leah, my heart just breaks for you! It just puts a lump in my throat. I am such a cat lover and I know exactly how you feel. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet kitty. :hug:

Bonnie, great job on getting all the temptations out of your kitchen! :cp:

Mars, I have faith in you to stay committed when you get home from work, even if you don't feel like it, lol! You can do it! :dancer:

Ami, I'm sorry you didn't sleep well. That's a challenging way to start the day! I hope eating breakfast helped. Just remember splurging will NOT HELP you feel less sleepy! I hope you can build on that 3/10 as the day goes by! :cheer:

Buckeyegal, great job on staying out of the kitchen last night! :trampo: I hope to see the same update tomorrow! I am about 25 minutes below Columbus, and I love my Buckeyes! :D

I am a 10/10 today. I've been dragging the past 2 days, but today I woke up with more energy, so I plan to stick to good eating and getting out and exercising! :carrot:

Leah: So sorry! That's never good. Hang in there.

I'm probably at 6/10 commitment. Still getting over whatever this grumpy mood is. I stayed on track yesterday, so I'll force the commitment today too!!

Feeling better now, more like a 6/10 now. Had lunch with my brother at a local place. Had a ribeye stir fry (ribeye with onions and bell peppers). Steak was tender and juicy...yum. Side of steamed veggies, took one bite of the bread (a small one), and some water w/ lemon. It really hit the spot.

Low carb not so bad lol!

Lol, Ami, your lunch sounds wonderful! I'm glad your commitment level is going up! Are you on a low-carb diet or another type of plan?

I feel I am 10 of 10. Why? Because I know I am stronger than my cravings, though I must admit I am not really craving much today thankfully. Lately my weight has been going up, up, up and making me sad, but determined. My lowest was 222.4, I think there was a binge or 2 after that, but then PMS kicked in, and now even staying on tracking I am gaining weight daily *grrr*. I know in about a week or less it will go away, and hopefully take a couple of EXTRA pounds with it lol, that is usually what happens. I thought about getting some pineapple upside down cake from Whole Foods today, but I can wait another week or so, I'd rather see 80 lbs. down on the scale (221.6 for me ;) ) than eat cake.

Jacqui I don't do anything specific really but I do try to keep my carbs under 100 grams a day, and eat smaller meals and snacks more frequently. I have been diagnosed with impaired glucose tolerance /insulin resistance so if I bring the carbs too low I feel ill and get hypoglycemic. Too much and I gain like crazy. I just try to eat good food in moderate portions, lots of veggies, no processed crap.

Candid, good for you resisting your craving. It's never worth the guilt you feel when you give in. You are so close to your 80 lb goal!

Slashnl, I hope your grumpy mood improves and didn't derail you today! :hug:

Candid, 80 lbs! Wow!!! You're so right, the pineapple upside-down cake can wait! Go for the 80 lbs down! :woohoo:

Ami, sounds like a good and healthy weight loss plan! :cp:

Thank you everyone for your kind words. The painful shock has kind of dissipated into a disbelieving numbness. It just doesn't seem real. He was fine yesterday afternoon and then got really sick last evening. We took him to the ER vet and they said it looked like a UTI but they caught it early. Then they went to unblock his bladder and he had a rare complication that's too horrifying to share. They thought there was a chance to repair the damage but it would have been too expensive, too painful, and a low chance of success. So we decided to put him down. Luckily he was under anesthesia at the time of the complication so he didn't feel any of that pain and then he just faded away.

But anyways as far as food goes I did okay. I'm a huge emotional eater and today was not the day to try and test my resolve. So instead I went with wiser decisions. I really wanted to just mindlessly eat a whole bag of chips so instead I made myself a large batch of air popped popcorn and drizzled it with a little butter and then a lot of salt. It satiated the desire to mindlessly munch without all the extra calories and fat. Okay, well less fat since I used real butter but it's popcorn and it's almost a requirement! All-in-all I stayed within my daily range so I'm counting it a success.

Leah, you showed great restraint under such extremely difficult circumstances. :hug:

Today I am a 10/10, even though the scale is still playing with me, going up and down over the same numbers. :dizzy:

At 6/10 today, better than yesterday, but my mood still down in the dumps. Been having some anxiety issues and getting worse, I just posted about some of my fears. Good thing is yesterday I didn't have any setbacks, just stuck to good foods all day. I had been have these small little binges where once a day I'd just eat something really bad. Not enough to derail me but I had actually put a couple lbs back on (water weight really). this morning I'm back to 254 so I can start going down again hopefully.

9/10 I have work to distract and keep me busy today. I also was able to get most of cravings out yesterday.

10/10 day off and sun is shining. Yesterday's commitment remained strong as I was busy busy busy right up until bedtime. I'll need to be especially careful when I'm more idle.

Leah and Mars, keeping busy really is great for distracting you from cravings. I wasn't in a great mood this morning, then got to work and was so busy I forgot to even eat breakfast. I don't like to do that cause it can set me up for bingeing later, but I went home and had a nice taco salad and a wyler's italian ice pop, and I feel I am back on track today.

I've found since my anxiety has resurfaced my mood is invariably bad when I wake up, so I can't really measure my commitment level then. It always gets better as the day goes on. Gonna keep on track today, no exercise except walking the dog but my house does need a good top to bottom cleaning so I won't be vegging out in front of the tv.

aml your rhythm is the opposite of mine, which means I am 10/10 right now. I hope your mood lifts. It sounds like you are keeping it in perspective-WTG!