Hey
Cactusgirl you are in the right place
I have felt the way you have and who knows I could be there again at any point! I have known for some time that I needed to make a change in my lifestyle but I would start eating healthy and get discouraged somehow and then make excuses and down that slippery slope I went. So where do you go from there..?
Maybe try to set smaller goals that can be met faster, this may give you the drive and will power to stay on track for longer periods of time instead of having one goal weight that seems so far from where you're starting.
The most important thing is to believe in yourself and to have only positive self-talk. Also think of the reasons why you want to do this in the first place. For me its about health and getting to the first time I will feel comfortable in a bathing suit or shorts. Those are 2 of my motivations, what are yours??
This is an incredibly difficult process but everyday I feel more energized, I say no to something I shouldn't eat, I find everyday tasks less of a strain because I am dedicated to being in shape and eating healthy. These are all great accomplishments for me and that's what keeps me going.
I hope this can help you because you are worth it cactusgirl and I will share a quote I saw on someone's signature because it has helped me!! Just remember that everyday is a new day to be the person you want to be you just have to live it!
"If you don't sacrifice for what you want, then what you want becomes the sacrifice."