Thank you so very much! I will indeed post here again if I get those thoughts of starving! Again thank you so very much! Your so nice! :)

I've decided when my app starts telling me to go under 1200 calories to adjust it. :) I debated it with myself but I remember when I first got down under 1200 before and how my hair started falling out all day and got so thin. So I am not going under :D

Wolfgirl, we are here to support you being the best, happiest, healthiest you that you can be. Thanks for your honest and don't be afraid to reach out for help here on these boards and in "real life", too. Hugs!

Thank you so much! And I'm glad because I want to be the best, happiest, healthiest me I can be. And I'm not afraid anymore thanks to all of you! :)

Also the starving may have made me lose more weight... but it was in secret-it caused me to bloat EVEN MORE and me so sad and stressed. It went away when I ate normally again (Diet normal) and the weight loss was no longer a secret. And I was happy and stress free.

I realize something. Starving myself didn't just cause even worse bloating it fed an obsession. It was a win lose situation and the negatives (Both health related and the ones I have stated definitely outweigh the one positive. Seriously all those negatives. Dying, muscle loss, organ failure, malnutrition, hair loss, yellow nails, stress, depression, an obsession, never happy, never good enough, and all the things I stated early for what? A lower number? It's not worth it.

It's hard to remember that though at moments when the number feels like everything. But you can guys can help remind me that it's not :)

Hugs, just hang in & keep reaching out whenever you need to.

Thank you so much! :) And I will!

I battled anorexia and bulimia a long long time ago and even now, 10 years later, it can be hard to lose weight in a healthy way and to avoid becoming obsessed. But it's so worth it to do it right. I'm losing slowly but I'm so much happier than I was when I was starving myself. Hang in there, you can do it!

You owe us strangers nothing - there's nothing for us to forgive because you didn't and can't 'wrong' us with your habits. It is forgiving YOURSELF that is the hard part, and you absolutely deserve that kindness.

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Thank you so much! And I am so sorry you went through that. And your right. When I starve myself I am MISERABLE. When I do it right I feel like I have won a prize every day. I want to it to stay that way-positive :)

Thanks so very much! I guess I just felt like I let you guys down. I'm going to talk to my therapist about it :)

Hey WolfGirl--it's OK, and you are doing good. Just like you have, make a plan, follow it, and let time pass.

Aw!!! Maybe it is really more of you feeling like you let yourself down instead of us? IDK. But I wanted to say that I am so proud of you for coming on here and asking for help. That is huge and not easy to do! :grouphug: Like others said, we are here to support you always.

I agree with others, forgive yourself and I really like HungryHungryHippo's recent post- make a plan, follow it and let time pass. I actually need to follow that advice as I am struggling right now.

Thank you very much! :) Means a lot to me! I follow HungryHungryHippo's advice :)

You have a smart mother for suggesting that you come on here and reach for support. The posters on here are very kind people, so keep coming and hopefully you'll feel included and cared for. You are a wonderful person! I am here for you.