Will you guys support me in fighting this?
 

I used to be anorexic a year ago.... this week I starved myself for 3 days. I ate 400-550 calories. :( I have sworn to my family AND TO MYSELF to never do it again. But my mom wanted me to tell you all and I'm sure my therapist would want me to as well. I guess I just need to vent and need some support. I was bloated and was depressed about it and just wanted the weight off so bad. I was so sad and frustrated with the number... But now I WANT to do it right and I WANT to do it slow. Please forgive me everyone...

It'll be okay. I forgive you! Don't forget to forgive yourself too. It doesn't matter so much that it happened; what really matters is how you're going to respond to it. (It sounds a little cliche, but seriously!) Don't let it get you down, just get back up on your feet ASAP!

I really sorry you are feeling down. You can come here and vent as much as need/want!

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Thanks very much you too! I was worried how people would respond to this. It helps a lot just knowing I have some place to go and talk about it and also at the same time have a place where people help keep me on track of healthy dieting :)

Wolf girl you have my support 100% :hug:. I'm a bit opposite, sometimes I will eat so much, I can't hardly breath, and I do feel really bad when I do things like that to myself. Either way we have to remind ourselves to get back on track as soon as possible and let it be done with. We will win this battle together. I wish u well on our journey!

Thank you so much this helps :)

Awwww duh kitties! And thank you :)

Thank you so much! That means a lot to me! :)

Of course I will support you. That's what I'm here for, what 3FC is for. Good for you for speaking up. :hug: :grouphug:

Thank you so much! It feels good to have people there for me! :)

You have my support too! Honestly I have never been anorexic but I can see how easy it would be to get there. Just today I was entering my exercise on mfp and hit that I was done for the day when I wasn't. It said in 5 weeks I would weigh 262. That's down 35 pounds. That came on a week when I have only lost.2 pounds. I logically know that isn't the right way or healthy way but I would be lying if I said it wasn't a tempting thought.

We are here for you. Hang in there, hun. This is a tough mission we are all on. :hug:

Thank you so much! :) Yes once you've gone there the thought will always linger. Even if just a little bit. Usually I can ignore and brush it off with ease but this week was hard. It can be quite tempting. Especially when your on a diet.

Thank you so much! I am hanging in there! I have eaten my usual 1300 dieting calories for 2 days now :D I am planning to keep it up till I reach my goal! :)

Oh sweetie - please don't ask for forgiveness of us, YOU are the one who needs to forgive yourself. Everyday is a struggle, and you do the best you can. That's why we're all here, to help each other through the struggle.

Maybe next time you're having those feelings you can post here - we'll support you to make the best choices. I'm a firm believer that people do the best that they can, and when we know better, we do better. You know we are here to support you, so I sincerely hope you will always ask if you need it!

Thank you so very much! I will indeed post here again if I get those thoughts of starving! Again thank you so very much! Your so nice! :)

I've decided when my app starts telling me to go under 1200 calories to adjust it. :) I debated it with myself but I remember when I first got down under 1200 before and how my hair started falling out all day and got so thin. So I am not going under :D

Wolfgirl, we are here to support you being the best, happiest, healthiest you that you can be. Thanks for your honest and don't be afraid to reach out for help here on these boards and in "real life", too. Hugs!

Thank you so much! And I'm glad because I want to be the best, happiest, healthiest me I can be. And I'm not afraid anymore thanks to all of you! :)

Also the starving may have made me lose more weight... but it was in secret-it caused me to bloat EVEN MORE and me so sad and stressed. It went away when I ate normally again (Diet normal) and the weight loss was no longer a secret. And I was happy and stress free.

I realize something. Starving myself didn't just cause even worse bloating it fed an obsession. It was a win lose situation and the negatives (Both health related and the ones I have stated definitely outweigh the one positive. Seriously all those negatives. Dying, muscle loss, organ failure, malnutrition, hair loss, yellow nails, stress, depression, an obsession, never happy, never good enough, and all the things I stated early for what? A lower number? It's not worth it.

It's hard to remember that though at moments when the number feels like everything. But you can guys can help remind me that it's not :)

Hugs, just hang in & keep reaching out whenever you need to.

Thank you so much! :) And I will!

I battled anorexia and bulimia a long long time ago and even now, 10 years later, it can be hard to lose weight in a healthy way and to avoid becoming obsessed. But it's so worth it to do it right. I'm losing slowly but I'm so much happier than I was when I was starving myself. Hang in there, you can do it!

You owe us strangers nothing - there's nothing for us to forgive because you didn't and can't 'wrong' us with your habits. It is forgiving YOURSELF that is the hard part, and you absolutely deserve that kindness.

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Thank you so much! And I am so sorry you went through that. And your right. When I starve myself I am MISERABLE. When I do it right I feel like I have won a prize every day. I want to it to stay that way-positive :)

Thanks so very much! I guess I just felt like I let you guys down. I'm going to talk to my therapist about it :)

Hey WolfGirl--it's OK, and you are doing good. Just like you have, make a plan, follow it, and let time pass.

Aw!!! Maybe it is really more of you feeling like you let yourself down instead of us? IDK. But I wanted to say that I am so proud of you for coming on here and asking for help. That is huge and not easy to do! :grouphug: Like others said, we are here to support you always.

I agree with others, forgive yourself and I really like HungryHungryHippo's recent post- make a plan, follow it and let time pass. I actually need to follow that advice as I am struggling right now.

Thank you very much! :) Means a lot to me! I follow HungryHungryHippo's advice :)

You have a smart mother for suggesting that you come on here and reach for support. The posters on here are very kind people, so keep coming and hopefully you'll feel included and cared for. You are a wonderful person! I am here for you.

Yes my mom is indeed a very smart woman and every one here is indeed very kind :) And thank you so much! :)