I finally caved and bought a new pair of jeans today. I have needed new ones for awhile since I have gained weight and the old ones have become so uncomfortable I can't sit down while wearing them.
The old pair of jeans were a size 8 but have obviously stretched out over the 1.5 years I have been wearing them for. I figured since the pants I wear to work are a size 10 and they are a little on the tight side I was probably a size 12.
I went to Old Navy since their jeans were on sale grabbed a pair of size 12 and tried them on and nearly cried. They were too small and I have never been so disappointed in myself as I was in that moment. I have never been bigger than a size 10 in my life so choking down the fact that I was a 12 was difficult for me; to know that I actually now own a pair of size 14 jeans is devastating. they are a little baggy in the thighs because most of my weight is in my middle but that is small consolation.
This is my low point right now and I need to start gaining ground in the weight loss battle and more importantly maintain it. I am so unhappy with the fact that I have let myself slide this far and I know if I don't change now in as little as a 1-2 years I could be 200lbs I am not ok with that possibility. I am even less ok with my current reality. I need to get my head in this game and start taking off this weight! This is the last straw I refuse to allow myself to feel like this any longer!

I'm so sorry for your frustrating shopping trip. I am currently in your shoes, but rather than jean size the scale's read out. In fact if I actually went shopping for jeans I am sure I would have the same reality check. I can currently only fit into two pairs of my jeans. And this fact told me that the weight gain is getting bad, but it wasn't until I saw a new highest weight on the scale this morning that I was ready to cry (and found some determination that I am hanging onto until I get to goal). I know I can do this, and you can too! I think that when you get down to a 10 again, and even an 8 you should ceremoniously burn those jeans!
Sometimes we need to see something that shocking to really make the necessary changes. I saved one pair of size 14 pants that I can remember wearing to work often a few years ago. Now when I'm having a low self esteem day, I'll pull them out and try them on to remind myself how far I've come. If I were you I'd save those jeans so you can do the same in the future! 
