I apologize in advance for venting and probably sounding really pathetic. It just bothers me a lot and I kinda just wanted to get it out of my system I guess.


I'm mainly upset because I just feel as if losing weight has taken over my life. The only thing I literally think about everyday is my weight, and losing weight. I think it's taken over my life, I can't even be happy anymore. I don't even do anything fun anymore. No hanging out with friends, playing my beloved video games, etc. It just upsets me. All the people on TV are so skinny, and watching TV makes me cry and makes me feel like that if I'm not skinny or beautiful, or perfect then I wont be accepted into society. I spend hours crying over how I look.

Does this happen to anyone else? Or am I just totally stupid? I would hope I'm not the only one..

I'm losing a lot of my motivation. I've been eating nothing but crap for like the past week (not binging, just eating crap) and I'm pretty sure I've gained like 6 pounds. And I really need to lose some weight before like the 17th or 18th of May because that is my Jr. High continuation, and all the girls are required to wear dresses. I've already got my dress and personally I think I look awesome in it, I just really wanna lose some weight in my arms and thighs, and a bit in my stomach before then! Please, I need a bit of motivation, I'm starting to fall off the wagon, and I really don't wanna gain back what I've lost, not to mention I don't wanna gain back any more pounds than I already have.

So.. umm please help? The slightest bit of advice would help a lot..

I'm totally in your shoes right now. Now that I'm back at the weight I was a few years ago and my old clothes are fitting I'm finding it harder and harder to find motivation. For about 2 weeks now I've been eating crap, too. I'm lucky enough to not have gained weight, but I haven't lost weight either. I'm just staying the same.

I do the same thing with watching TV and feeling like I can never look like that or be viewed as pretty as that, but then I remember that special lighting and make up makes them look better than they really look. I especially like to look at pictures of celebrities without make up. They might be skinny no matter what, but some of them are just down right ugly without make up!

As far as focusing so much on food and dieting I also know how you feel. It feels like I'm not a normal person who can go out to eat and order whatever sounds good, but when I think about it no one can really do that. Anyone who is at their ideal weight has to think about what they're eating and focus on being healthy. What really helps me is to focus on doing anything else other than food when I'm not hungry. I play video games, too! If you have the spare time i'd go back to them. I always joke to my friends that im on the World of Warcraft diet..forgetting to eat because I'm so focused on the game. IDK that i suggest playing video games all day long, but being distracted by doing something you need to/ want to is a good way to not focus on food. Just keep doing whatever you're doing until your hungry. THEN is the time to think about food and what to eat. And whatever you choose to eat, also plan ahead and think about what that means you can eat later. This helps you prevent eating too much early in the day, leaving too few calories/foods to eat in the evening. That'll just set you up for failure.

I think you need to treat yourself to a manicure or a shopping trip. You need a day to focus on yourself and try to love yourself again. Judging by your ticker, you've come so far! and you're so close to your goal! Try to get back on track as soon as you can, you don't want to gain too much because you might start to feel hopeless about losing it again. Just pick yourself up, brush yourself off and get back at it. You've already made it most of the way, you can definitely make it the last little stretch!

I've spent my entire life feeling like that so I know how you feel.

Maybe it's time to turn off the tv for a little while put on some music, do a little dancing, may be just take a walk where ever you can. Sometimes it's not the grand gesture of jumping back on the wagon that will get you motivated again. I think that you've take a first step coming on here. Good luck!!!

At 5'5" and 135lbs if you feel like society isn't going to accept you based on your weight then there is something else going on here. It may not really about your weight. Have you been depressed in the past? How long have you been feeling this way?

Thanks for the advice and stuff Volschika007, I'm glad someone kinda feels the same way as I do!

I'm currently extremely depressed. I'm on Wellbutrin XR and Abilify as antidepressants for my depression, but they don't seem to be working at all. Well, I haven't actually been taking the Abilify because my doctor said something about weight gain as a side effect...

And I promise you guys I'm not skinny, I've actually got "thunder thighs". My whole family is big boned. And my doctor told me I'll never be skinny so that was discouraging. I don't even think I'm 136 anymore, I think I'm 143 right now because of the crap I've been eating lately.

Have faith, you'll find your way.

Thank you Iyakamae

Aww, I feel for you your doc is a quack for saying that, what an idiot. Have you already started exercise? Not only will it help you tone up, but it can possibly help some with the depression. When I workout, it motivates me to eat right too. I hope you feel better soon

junior high continuation - so you're, what, 14? 15?

i'm 45 and i went through exactly what you're going through - i used to sit on the bathroom sink staring into the mirror and bawl my eyes out because i was convinced that with my malformed face (born with hare lip and cleft palate), i would always be a freak.

and yes - throughout my life, i've gotten those.

but you know what? "society" isn't just a huge, single personality and what you see on TV is crap. check this:

http://vimeo.com/34813864

society is made up of people. would you refuse to date a guy bec his hair wasn't the right style or he didn't have a six-pack? (er... abs, i mean, not, you know - beer... although for some guys beer certainly helps but you'll find that out later on).

just concentrate on living a healthy lifestyle and your appearance will reflect it - guys are attracted to women with a healthy self-image. predators are attracted to women with a crippled self-image.

so which would you prefer to be: the lioness or the antelope?

You sound just like me. Considering our stats, you 5'5 @ 136 and me 5'6 136 ish we could be twins. I have felt like this numerous times. It sucks. I once started having restless nights in the fear of gaining all that weight back. It too passes.

Look how far you have come woman!!!!! Losing over 40+ pounds!!!!! That is remarkable!!!

Remember how far you have come.

How good it feels to fit into smaller clothes!!!! Just start again, day by day. Wake up and tell yourself. "I'm just going to get through today, be healthy and happy with myself."

I'm sure you will look stunning in that dress

I understand that you feel unhappy with your body image. Not many teens feel good about the way they look. If you are in middle school, you have to realize you are still growing and your body is changing. BMI doesn't quite work for teens because of that, but you are WELL within the range of healthy and normal for your height. Your doctor is wrong to tell you that you will never be skinny. and you are wrong for not taking a prescribed medication because a side effect MIGHT be weight gain. Since you know that, take it with eyes and mind wide open and eat accordingly. Your mood is going to have a huge impact on how successful you are.

If you really are "big boned," then you might just need toning and exercise to get your body into the shape you want. My daughter is only about 5 pounds lighter than you and wears a size 4 or 6. She works out, eats healthily, is 29, 5'-6" tall, and 130 pounds and she's pretty ripped. She is the exact same weight she was at 15, but her body shape is WAY different now. Some of that just naturally changes as you get older. You have to get over the idea of looking like the people you see on TV and in the movies. You have to listen to your heart and your body and don't set goals that are unhealthy for a girl your age. Add some exercise to your routine. Enjoy life. Just because you are trying to lose a bit of weight doesn't mean you can't do the things you love doing. BUT try exchanging the video games for some outdoor activities like biking, running, playing tennis or volley ball, and hiking. Get your friends involved.

Good luck to you. Sorry if I sound harsh, but sometimes we need to be pushed along. You can get into the shape you want with a bit of effort. It just takes time.

Lin

I second this. I third it. I fourth it.

I was 5'6 and 135lb in high school and I thought I was fat. I had boyfriends, was popular, played sports, did well and went to the college of my choice. I look back now and feel like smacking myself everytime I think about how clearly distorted I was in my view of myself.

My best friend was 5'0 and weighed probably less than 100 lbs, so I compared myself to her. Very. Stupid. Thing. To. Do.

Reality check - 5'5 and 135 lbs is fantastic. It may be hard to believe, but it's true.

But.. I'm not skinny whatsoever. My family is all overweight, and I'm the only one with a pretty good weight. I'm not even skinny! I've got so much fat on my thighs it's not funny. Actually, it's embarassing. Stupid "thunder thighs".. I'm not as skinny as any of the girls in my class which makes me feel bad because I feel like if I'm not like them they wont like me. Which most of them don't. Because I'm not popular like them. I'm more like a social outcast. But, anyway, I really hate 135. I wanna be 125. I'm not skinny at 135, I'm not even close to skinny.


I'm 13 years old. I'll be 14 in a month. 135 is terrible for my age and height. That's what my doctor says. And I pretty much agree. I've got so much fat on me. I hate it.

chivir3dpanda - I'm 5'5" and I started around 180 as well - you losing approx 40 pounds is amazing! I've lost 23 lbs so far & my goal is around 140-130. When I hit your weight I will be ECSTATIC!! You being at 136 is completely NORMAL. I know you are still a teenager - I'm 32, so you are still growing/developing but you are NOT vastly overweight. When I was your age I was probably about 110'ish but I was under weight for a long time. We were poor & i literally didn't have money for food.

Right now it seems like the end of the world - I remember how difficult school is, the "cool" girls were ruthless. I was definitely NOT one of the cool kids. But the good news is after school life CHANGES soooooooo much! It is hard to see past it right now since you are smack dab in the middle of it you just have to take it on faith that things WILL get better.

I don't think your weight is really the issue honey. Maybe it (your weight) is your focus because that is the only thing you feel like you can control? Being healthy is important but your weight doesn't define you. Unfortunately even if you weighed a scant 100 pounds the "cool" kids will probably still not be very nice. That is just how that social environment works - they are jerks. Find a few people you like to be around - people who make you see how funny and cool you are. Do you really want people who are mean to be your friends anyways? believe me 20 years from now they will be nobodies to you and you will have your own life full of memories. It is hard to see it now but believe me many of my old 'enemies' are my friends on facebook now. it is pretty ironic.

I will be praying for you. Remember your weight doesn't define you and one dumb doctor does not speak for the entire medical profession. You can do this! You have come SOOO far! I am inspired by how far you have come! Take care! =D