I am packing up my stuff, getting ready for move to a new house. While packing, I noticed that I have pictures of me upto about 11 years of age (when I started gaining weight), then there is a huge gap until I was about 19 (the first time I lost a heap of weight, though saldy gained it back the following year) then another gap till I was 28 (when I lost heap of weight again, but gained it again 6 months later). I am 33 and I have very few photos of me that I can look at without cringing and its because Ive hated every single photo of myself due to fatness. I did find some aweful graduation photos but couldnt bring myself to tear them up. BUt I looked so horrible with triple chin and tired sleepy eyes. And I feel aweful because I dont have that many pix of me with my mum or grandmother and when I look at friends facebook, its filled with lots ofpictures. Even though I am not overly overweight now, I still hate my photos and I still cant bear to look at them and sometimes I do look and i am surprised that I dont hate htem. Anyway, something i noticed. WHen I get to my goal, I am going to take a million photos!!

I feel ya. I cringe when anyone tags me in Facebook, and its a race to get to them to detag myself before anyone else can see them. I too, am jealous of my friends' FB photo albums, I have 1/3 of what everyone else does This Christmas (with the family photo craziness) I realized HOW MUCH I have been avoiding being on the that side of the lense and it made me sad. I used to carry a camera in my purse at all times, because I was out having so much fun on a regular basis, now not so much. If I am out or if I am in the last thing I want to do is have my picture taken! I can't wait untill I enjoy it again, we will get there.

i don't even have a real before photo-i don't have many at all. i do have a few from last time i was thin but that was a long time ago. It's sad!!

-fm