I just started another life change / diet... I have lost count I've tried so many times. I'm doing ok, but in the back of my mind... I'm so scared to even try ... everytime I try... I succeed, but then... I gain it all back plus more!!!

I'm starting now the heaviest ever at 294. I have came down to 290 in a week... and that's great I know, but I can't enjoy it for fear of falling off again!

I cannot afford to be heavier than 294... I can't!!!!! I am miserable with myself... I hurt all over, I'm ashamed to be seen in public... and I have a very public job. I just want to blend in with the woodwork.

If I fail this time... I fear it will be my last time...

I know the feeling. What has helped me is just really not looking at the major goal, but little ones along the way. Sure the big one is there, but taking things a step at a time has been HUGELY helpful to me.
Hang in there and you will get to where you want to be. Just be patient and talk things out

Yep I agree with lazi lioness, for the first month i wouldn't even step on a scale for fear of failure, i could not bring myself to do it, instead i made little exercise goals. I started real small - like increasing time on treadmill by 5 minutes and i focused on the changes that I could feel in my body, like my watch fitting looser. Any little thing to show myself that my change was working. Don't let the fear overcome you - trick it, manipulate it, fool it and use it to your advantage!! Don't give up you CAN do it!!

Use that fear and forge ahead girl!

And if you fall off, so what, get back on immediately. Persistance is key. I've fallen many times along the way, but here I am 4 1/2 years later 120+ lbs lighter.

Good luck I know you can do it!

This was my number one obstacle to overcome. In the past I have lost 30 pounds several times with MUCH effort and when the weight didn't come off fast enough for me, I quit, fell off the wagon, however you want to term it.

So this time I got really curious about where I could be in a year's time if I simply did not give up. I made a commitment to be on plan for a year, no matter what. The moment I did that, the scale lost all its power. It no longer mattered how quickly it moved because I was on plan. Some people take weight loss one day at a time...I take it one year at a time.

I guess I needed a deadline. An infinite amount of time out there did not work for me.

My year is up this November 9th. I lost 75 pounds! That's way more than ever before! I am so happy with my progress. And in that year's time, I have developed some really good habits. This is easy now. There's absolutely no going back. I made this a life style change without any effort just because I was following a plan for a really long time.