[JennieLovesKisses]

I have completely fell off the wagon these past 5-6 days as far as my eating goes.

I'd start off eating healthy in the mornings, then I'd head to my bf's house and do nothing but eat crappy food!!!! It stops today!!!! I weighed in at 176.8 this morning, which was my starting weight for this month X.X Thats a gain of 4lbs and I feel it! I feel and look so gross and so bloated.

I even saw a pattern starting...everyday felt like a battle between me and food. People throwing yummy foods in my face left and right and I'd always say no. It started with having one slice of pizza one night, then of course next day I would say "just one more cheat day". Not to mention I broke my No-Food-After-9pm rule doing it.

It really hit me when my laptop started having issues and then completely died on me and refused to turn on. I was stressing out about it, went to my bf and I even think I said "F*** it...I'm eating THAT!" The next day I told my bf I was getting back on track and then we end up going to the fair and what do I do? Eat junk food with him. Yesterday his mom brings back stuff for me to make sour cream cookies....there I am, making cookies that I know I can't resist at 2am this morning (ate 2).

I just can't believe I've gained 4lbs! I have been sticking to my normal P90X workout routine of course, but thats nothing if my diet is horrible. I'm really hoping some of this weight at least is water weight; the stuff I've been eating has been very high sodium and I KNOW I haven't been getting my water in this past week.

As mad and disappointed as I am with myself, I know that whats happened happened and all I can do it nip it in the butt now and get myself back on track again.

[doingmybest]

Just be gentle with yourself - and remind yourself how successful you have been!!!! You are an inspiration to me!!!

The fact that you are aware of what is happening and that you know you need to get back on is more than half of the battle.

I will continue to cheer you on!!!

[LiliK]

You just had an off time and now you're back on track. Good for you for recognizing that you need to be stricter with yourself, and boy, do you know how to do that--look at your accomplishment so far!!

You'd tell your friend to forgive herself and move on, right? Tell yourself that. I think you're fantastic.

[justjill124]

I've been going through the exact same thing. I was so good for the 1st 3 months and now I'm sliding. We can get back on track...I just know it! Good Luck Girl!

[Lori Bell]

Sadly those 4 pounds can easily turn into 124 before you know it. Some people just can't do moderation, especially those of us who have come from super-morbid obesity. What do you want more, cookies or freedom from fat? It's a tough choice sometimes. You've got to decide what is more important to you. I hope you can nip this before it's totally out of control.

[southernbelle102]

Good for you for realizing that you are off track and deciding to get back on the wagon! Please remember how much you have accomplished!! You are awesome!!

[JennieLovesKisses]

Thank you so much everyone!

Lori Bell - Thank you thank you thank you! This is exactly what I have been telling myself. This is my second time losing over 80lbs and I know exactly how easy it is to gain it all back plus more! Which is why I'm stopping myself right now! No food is worth gaining back everything I worked so hard for.