Well.. I'm trying to not eat emotionally right now. My family came over last night for dinner and it was a bit awkward at times due to the fact my grandmother immediately started being very insistent about having this blanket of my mom's back. When I said I'd do my best to find it since I thought it had been misplaced she didn't seem to like my answer to say the least and went on and on about how my mom went everywhere with it. I haven't seen it in about two months. Then I woke up this morning and found a rude very abrupt email from her saying to not bother to send it to her and if I find it and throw it away or burn it, she didn't care but she had changed her mind about wanting it and then she signed the email with her first name only and not the name that she goes by with me. So I sort of feel like I've lost my grandmother as well. I know she's grieving but I am too and now I'm hurting even more due to that email I got. So I've been trying to not stress eat or eat emotionally today. I'm also angry at her insensitivity to me as well since I lost someone I loved this week too. She didn't lose just her daughter this week- her daughter was my mother.. my mother was a lot of things to a lot of people so a lot of people besides my grandmother are grieving as well. I'm trying to not let it eat at me and let it go and take the high road. I've done nothing wrong and I don't understand why she's acting like she's so angry at me. I've gone out of my way to be kind and I even made excuses for her earlier this week when someone else commented on her behavior and I'm just done. I didn't respond to the email since I am so disappointed and I don't know if I will ever respond if she ever contacts me again. Anyways have a good night.
Oh BRAT ~ I am so sorry you have to go through this added pain....hugs.
Being totally on the outside here...maybe think about replying to the e-mail in a kind way...not even acknowledging the "meanness" in it.
Something like....Grandma I know this has been hard on you, I don't know what happened to the blanket but I will keep looking for it if you change your mind. If you find it...allow her to have it...your mom was much more important to you than a blanket...
you will find ways to re-live the memories...just like we do here each year with Gramma Judi's chili tribute...a time to set aside and enjoy the day in memory of your mom...
That was an awesome response, Gary. That's a good way to handle it.
Brat, I am sorry this is continuing for you in such a painful way. It always seems to happen that people get over worried about the "things" and forget about what is important in life. Hang in there!
That's what it seems like. . . thread has been kinda slow but hey, I haven't been here either - other than lurking. . .
Same ole, same ole going on here weight-wise. Not down but not up either. Need to get more exercise in - as always!
Did go yesterday on a 2nd opinion on my mammo, dr wanted to do a biopsy just because the radiologist said it 'barely' scored in the category, yet my regular doc and this doc's nurse (whom I happened to know from high school) both said 'no, they didn't see where it was needed' just a follow-up mammo in 6 months to make sure nothing has changed, - so I said 'no - let's see what happens in 6 months' I felt good about my decision (also based on 4 out of 5 biopsys are negative for anything) but you can't help but question yourself once you step outside, 'was this the right thing'?? I have prayed about it (before the appt and since) and turned it over to God so I'm not worried or stressed - if I were I would have had the biopsy and just gotten it over with. So now I'm just reminding myself to eat cleaner and live healthier and see if that also makes a difference in 6 months - maybe lose some weight in there too, wouldn't that be good?
Gonna go look up some recipies for hot cross buns, my mom loves them, had a great-aunt that used to make them and now no one around here does - not even the bakeries, so I'm gonna see if I can cook some up for my mom over the next few weeks.
Everyone outside enjoying the warmer weather?
I made 182.8 today! 
