Well I have walked everyday at recess at least if not exercising too after work with my group. It has been very theraputic. The two gals I exercise with are so supportive and my mom got brought up since they knew my mom too yesterday and I just cried and they cried with me basically yesterday. I NEEDED that since I've gotten a letter from my grandmother informing me she is really unhappy with me due to me having to ask for donations to help pay for my mother's funeral expenses and a lot of other things that were in fact my mother's wishes and not mine and I'm just carrying them out. She told me a lot of really hurtful things like I should have just gone out in the street with a can and begged and etc. She also told me I was a disgrace and embarrassment to my mother and our family etc etc. I have been disappointed with her behavior at times in the past and I know that my mother has been too and their relationship was shaky at times in recent years but I have never said anything to her or expressed MY disappointment in HER about it and have just tried to overlook it and focus on the good so her letter just blew me away this week. I was raised that love is unconditional no matter what and if you can't say anything nice then to not say anything at all plus don't offer "opinions" when not asked. I have been so upset about it to the point of nausea and vomiting. So my stomach has been very upset. I wrote her an email apologizing for all the "wrongs" I have done supposedly in her eyes and told her I still loved her and whenever she was ready she could contact me anytime. I am giving her space and hopefully God and time will heal her. I do find it interesting that no one has had ONE good thing to say about my grandmother and I've been asked repeatedly by several people if she is on medication or has mental problems due to the behavior they observed that week I was making the arrangements. So I don't think it is me although I may not be completely objective lol. :-) I haven't lost any weight this week but I have not GAINED. So for now I consider that a small victory. I have been sore every day this week though. So hopefully something will budge soon. HAVE A GREAT EASTER WEEKEND EVERYONE!

Brat my heart just breaks for you. Why does family have to be so crappy? At least am blessed with some wonderful in laws. I hope you have some friends or extended family that are trying to be there for you right now. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Wish I had some advise for you but all I ever do is just ignore people, sometimes that even works.

Mtiger, I have been meaning to ask what gruve costs?

Prayers and hugs...will catch up tomorrow...going to church tonight for Good Friday service....

Toobig- My Gruve cost 160 dollars. The website is free, at least for a year I think. Not too bad. Bodybuggs cost a lot more.

HAPPY EASTER TEAM

Well I didn't make the 180 for Easter as I had wished to...183...was at 182 on Friday but then 184 yesterday...pretty much what has been going on for over a month or so.

Not doing a lot to help myself but still doing well...overall...on my choices or else I would be back to 200!

Doesn't help that Angie and I got pizza on Good Friday before church then I had a sourdough bacon cheeseburger and fries yesterday when my son ran and got fast food for our lunch....

Something I rarely do....but he was here cleaning out his old sports and school/college books and collections....finally taking them to his bigger house than mine!

It was a great day in spite of the extra fast food calories....

Have a great day TEAM

I am down to 209.2. So I lost almost a pound and a half just this first week of being back on the wagon. I do have a lot of events like parties etc coming up starting this week again so that will be a challenge to not partake so freely like I have in the past. I forgot my sneakers today so I didn't walk around the playground today at recess. I've not been home an hour and I'm about to leave again in about 30 minutes to go to class and I've been stuck on the computer replying to emails and taking care of things plus eating dinner. So have a nice night!

TOM is rolling through and weight is up. I was 179 today, yuck!!! I did not go over 180 though, so that's good. Didn't get in a workout yesterday, unless you count my trip around the mall once a workout. I did hit my Gruve's burn number though, 523 calories. I actually burned 580.

Hopefully the numbers will start going back down now, once TOM is finished. I really want to see low 170's soon.

Brat- If I forget something it is usualy my socks. I hate it when i do that. Good job getting back on track.

well just stopping by to say that I am at 222 at the moment and still working on keeping everything in prospective. Hope everyone is doing good and keeping up with everything they have going on.

Just wanted to check in, and say hello. Everything is ok here. Weighed in at 235 again this morning so at least I am not going up. Hope everyone had a great easter.

Just checking in on everyone. It's been a very busy week here. We have had a lot of vehicle issues that have been pretty inconvienent since we have one in the shop and then one we are trying to arrange to sell. But hopefully tomorrow is the last day of all that. I am tired but still trying to do everything I did last week since obviously I did something right last week! I don't think I'm doing too badly right now. I remembered my tennis shoes yesterday and today. I WORE them to work with my dress black pants on lol in order to remind myself to walk at recess. I bought some inserts and those seem to help with my achy feet for right now. I am holding steady at 209.2. Have a great night!

So today I had some motivation handed to me on a silver platter. I had a little boy that is special needs to rub my belly and to ask me when baby was coming. He went on and on about baby coming and he was really cute about asking about it but wow it did open my eyes. This year we have a lot of pregnant women at our school so it's almost like any time the special needs kids see someone overweight/obese and if they are a woman they assume they are pregnant. I think I may need to get some walking shoes since my feet are killing me and they are just general tennis shoes what I have been wearing. Have a good night.

Brat- Don't you just love kids? My nephew was over a couple of weeks ago and he had some fun playing on the treadmill. When his mom showed up she asked what he had been doing all day and he told her he had been losing weight. And he went on and on.

Fearless Leader- I bought some more triskets!!! Why do I keep doing that?