I started my last semester of college this past September, moved into a new house off campus with two of my good friends. At home, I worked as a lifeguard/swim instructor for my local YMCA for the past 7 years. I'd like to think that I know what I'm doing when it comes to the field, and when I found out that there was another YMCA a few blocks away from my new house, I decided I should get a part time job there when I wasn't going to classes.
So the first couple of weeks of school I just focused on going to classes, eating all the foods I used to sneak behind my parents (big closet eater here), taking full advantage of the fast food joints at the end of my street. A few weeks into the semester ( I think I was steadily gaining weight at this point) I had arranged an interview with the aquatic director of the YMCA who said that I should be prepared to do a swimming test and an interview.
All my bathing suits were kinda gross & flaking since the high chlorine levels at my home YMCA, so I went to the local sporting goods store and bought a HUGE one that I thought would have to fit. It was expensive too! So I got home and attempted to try it on.....it got up to my thighs and the lining started to tear. I was so upset but it still didn't hit me that it was ME that was the problem, not the bathing suit. I opted to wear one of the older gross suits to the interview.
Next day I go to the YMCA, where I sit down and wait for the aquatic director and see all of these athletic fit lifeguards and swim instructors around the pool. Little intimidating, but since I had 7 years of experience I was feeling more than confident in my abilities. The aquatic director asks me to go change and then she'll have me do the 'typical YMCA test'. I think to myself, "oh I got this", I did this 7 years ago when I was first hired (keep in mind I was still overweight back then, but I was exercising daily with my track & field team), really thought it was going to be EASY, a piece of cake.
Well, it wasn't. It was actually one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. My entire body ached and my face was so red, I really thought I was going to die. I'm a prideful person, so I kept pushing myself to finish, and I did, but barely. I felt like the swim just kept going and going, and it was ONLY 700 yds, what most swimmers consider to be a warm-up.
As I was doing my laps I could see the other lifeguards looking at me, thinking they were going to have to save ME. One of the most embarrassing feelings I have ever felt, as someone with so much experience, who is supposed to be able to save other people, I was the one they were concerned about.
I was disgusted with myself, and that truly was my breaking point. I thought to my how did you get to this point? And as I left that YMCA I knew I could do two things, go eat my feelings and try to make myself feel better about myself through sugar and fat, OR I could go throw out every junk food in my house and begin to make healthy choices for once in my life....guess what I chose?

I clearly didn't get the job, never even got a call back, but in some ways I'm happy that it happened that way, because with the time I would have been working there, I'm out exercising, making better decisions for my body and new lifestyle. Since September 25, 2009 I've been going with this new lifestyle, and sure I've had a few days where I've wanted to throw in the towel and eat everything in sight (and I do have the occasional holiday cheat day), but I remember how I felt that day and my final goals, and it's the biggest motivator for me.
When people I see now ask me what inspired me to lose weight, I don't share this story because it was so embarrassing for me, I just say I had a lot of free time so I figured I might as well put my time and efforts into myself but I wanted to share with you all because I know there is at least one person out there that can relate to this.... Oh & I'm still debating going back to that YMCA when I'm done with the weight loss and into maintaining, and trying to swim those 700 yds again, maybe see if all those lifeguards recognize me now.

So that's my 'last straw' story...phew I applaud you if you read all that!


