so i have the flu tonight and since i dont feel like doing anything, i decided to use my portable sewing machine. i sent my husband to find the cord, and he ended up digging through storage. packed way in the back of the closet was a box of clothes from about 5 years ago. clothes that i had completely forgotten about.
he dragged them upstairs and figured id put them in my drawer for when i lose more, but then i was like hey, ill try them on now and see how much i can get them on so that in 20lbs or so ill be able to see how much ive lost.
im not kidding you guys, every pair of jeans and top i picked up and looked at i thought, "no way! these are TINY" (tiny being relative of course, lol. they were 10s/12s). i started trying on and about HALF the clothes fit me. i was in SHOCK. i could get every single thing except one pair of jeans on and zipped, but about 1/2 of it was ridiculously tight/short and is now in my "20 more pounds" drawer, lol.
i probably ended up wih 10 new.. well, old, shirts and 4 pairs of jeans that actually fit well. it just felt so amazing that i literally started crying and called my husband (who was very sweet, but probably thought i was insane, lol). i never thought i would fit in those clothes again and only packed them up because it was too depressing to throw them out. i have worked SO hard this year and this really felt like tangible proof that im making big progress. i never thought weight loss would be such an emotional experience.
i just needed to share with people who would understand..ya know?
Last edited by juliastl27; 09-13-2009 at 12:08 AM.
aww thanks! i am on a "high" right now, lol. im sure itll pass next time i weigh myself. now that im back into size 12's from sz 18/20, theres no denying the differences. i tend to always be pessimistic and think "well even though ive lost, i dont really look any different". this just felt like proof, and it made me SO emotional, i feel silly!
The proof is in the pudding. Or in this case the proof is in the jeans, the size 12 jeans, that is!!!
It really is an emotional experience, this weight loss stuff. I cried like a baby, a big baby, when I first got back into non-plus-sized clothing. Right there in the dressing room.
I'm so very happy for you. Keep up the good work and there will be many more emotional moments for you as well as continued "proof".
That is such an amazing story....I almost want to cry too....I'm so happy for you to have discovered that the clothes fit...Thanks for the inspiration..I also have clothes in the back of my closet...I hope I can get where you are....You are GREAT!!
Oh, how wonderful for you--I'm so glad the tears were happy tears! Isn't it funny how distorted our views of ourselves are? I find that when I go shopping, I either pick up items that are way too big or way too small, because I don't have a clear sense of what size my body is after being in 18/20 for so long. I found a pair of my son's old jeans in my closet and held them up; they looked impossibly small but they fit me. I'm in 14's right now, so I'm not really *small*, but things are just all so distorted right now!
Congratulations. I am so happy for you that you have reached this milestone. Last time I lost weight, I tried on a pair of 14's at the store and they fit. I hung them back up, went out to my car and cried.
i literally just cried
