Alternative Group {April 22,2002}
 

Alternative Group (April 22, 2002)
We are a group of non-traditional lifestyle individuals. We are partnered, single, widowed, Pagan, Atheist, Agnostic, Christian, Muslim, gay, bi-sexual, bi-colored and straight. We bask in our diversity and unite in the same goal of losing weight. If you are relatively open-minded and accepting of ALL walks of life, please join us.

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Hi Everyone
I had to put in the clickable because lately my memory hasnt been so great
Thanks for listening to me blubber about Tina just her fate kinda made me feel like an killer I guess but I have a clearer head and wrist that is healing good and I see their point..
Flower : with my luck she will come back as a huge bee and sting me over and over in vengence.
Punkin : I hope you get better soon.. I know how sucky it feels to be sick.. I been on antibotics so much these past few weeks that they are making me feel sick now..I am almost done my last prescription..
Wildfire: Way to go on Hubbys new hobby .. Hope he makes you that million!! Apartment living has its ups and downs even duplex living..
Well I am going to cut this post short I am really not up to par today.. I did make it to my appiontment today for my cholesterol check but I been up most the night with a dang toothache so I took a vicodin.. Vicodin makes me sick as **** but it was the only thing strong enough for the pain I am in..Going to lay down a bit then come back later
Take Care
Sheila

Flower ~ I would say yes I am in overdrive... burning the candles at both ends and in the middle.. But I graduate in ONE year. And I couldn't be happier.

As of right now I have A's in Two of my theory classes and both of my clinicals... my Third Theory class I would have to make a 94 or 95 on the final to confirm an A in the class. That COMPLETELY SUCKS but it is better than those in the class who have to make an A on the final to just pass the class and there are more than one of those that I know of! At least three of my closer classmates.

Well, I am tired and have my last clinicals with the kids tomorrow so I have to get some rest.

Hugs,
Amy

Hello ladies!

Amyjo - Congrats on those A's!!

Sheila - I hope the tooth feels better... :( I am feeling a bit better every day - even the voice is starting to come back. Thanks...

Well, looks like I might be able to bring the kitty home tomarrow!!!!!! I spoke with my friend that has the momma cat and she said all the babies have been weaned, are now using a litter box and are fat n' sassy and ready to go.

I am going to name her Maia (my-uh) - after a Scandanavian earth goddess. Not only will she be a good fit for my Luna and Stella (moon & star), but a little nod to the ancestors I recently found (through genealogy) that came from Norway and Sweeden...

:spin: Maia's coming home :spin:

Terri

This has absolutely nothing to do with weight loss or being alternative, but I smiled and I think sometimes, a smile is worth a lot more than anthing else. Read this aloud or it won't make any sence. :)

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> >
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> > Weather eye am wrong oar write,
> > It shows me strait a weigh.
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> > As soon as a mist ache is maid,
> > It nose bee fore two long,
> > And eye can put the error rite,
> > Its rare lea ever wrong.
> >
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> > I am shore your pleased two no,
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> > Contributed by Michelle Holly, Highland Park, IL

Hi Everybody !!!!
 

I am leased to announce I am the Mom of TWIN BOYS!!!!!! (twin Siamese cats that is, I am not that crazy) I brought the two home this morning . Right now they are hiding but they will get the drift of the house soon enough.. I got them free out of the paper at first I was kinda worried about the siamese breed till I got to meet the two of them.. "Bingo" is the cuddly one he came right up to me and didnt leave me alone for 15 minutes rubbing up and purring ."Tyson" is the shy one he wasnt to sure he wanted to be near me until he came over and check to see if I was good enough to be touched by him..Then he wouldnt leave me alone.. They both love Timmy and they even like DH !!The owner had to find them good homes because she isnt home enough to tend to them..
So I went out and went shopping had to buy the litter box and food and dishes and water(well I didnt need to buy the cats water but I needed the liter bottles for their water feeder..Of course I had to get them a few toys as well and treats and cat brush (they are shedding..You should see my car!!! luckily it was DH car and little does he know one of them was a bit scared and marked the carseat..He will find out later when he goes to work LOL)
When I heard the name Tyson the first thing I thought is he is a fighter..( A manic depressive cat that bite off ears..) He was named after the food company cause he acts all charming when they cook Tyson chicken patties ( his favorite treat).. Anyway once they get the jest of the house and are comfortable I will take their pic so you can see them..
Flower I liked that poem.. Yes I had to read it out loud to get it but I thik AI am gonna print it b/c I am a good one for errors..
Punkin My tooth well now no tooth feels GREAT!!!! Of course I cant eat anything to hard for a few day so it can heal but I can live with that!!
AmyJo ..Big Congrats on those As!!! you will ace that other class just dont worry bout it
OH so you all know I found out that the Siamese I met with Sat (tina) had tumors in her belly so It is a good thing she will be put to sleep, she is in pain, so it wasnt me at all..The shelter didnt know because they didnt have a chance to give her a full phyiscal they did all the blood work for Cat Aids and Lukemia and rabies but they couldnt give her a full phyiscal till Monday..
Well all I have to go try to coax my new 3 year old fur babies out so I can show them where the food is and box is..
Take Care I will post more later
Sheila

Hello all...

Well, Maia came home last night. She's an angel and my other 2 girls have sprouted horns and have become little demons... I guess they'll all adjust, but it was the 2 "adult" cats that kept me up all night hissing and growling at a sleeping kitten.

On the other side of things... my family's 15 year old Red Tick coon hound is going to be put down on Monday. The vet's going to come to our house and administer the shot and Dusty'll be buried in our little pet cemetary on our property.
Yesterday I was a wreck, but today I've come to terms with it (the best that I can anyway) and I know that it's best for her since she's been pretty bad off for a few months now. She's got an inoperable spinal bone spur that's slowly cutting off the nerves to her hind quarters - she's in a lot of pain, not eating, etc. and it's time for her to move on and leave her old body behind. Monday's going to be a *****...

My eating is better than bad, not quite as good as great... I'm hanging in there and considering the stress of a new baby to raise and loosing an old friend I think that's the best I can expect of myself right now.

Till later,
Terri

Punkin
Sorry about the upcoming loss of Dusty.. My heart goes out to you..
As for Maia bet she is a cutey.. I finally got one of the two to come out yesterday.. Bingo is very lovable and sweet yet Tyson still growls and hisses at me like I stole his mouse.. He will come to sooner or later.. Right now he is sleeping under the bed but if I was to lay on it he would hiss at me and growl like I was disturbing the masters rest..I know they are a bit confused being taken out of the home they know and into this one.. So I am patient.. My kids on the other hand dont like Tyson since they claim he is mean.. He has gone in to my DS room and sat there at the door and hissing and growling at anyone that dares enter..So My son slept in my room last night the cat wouldnt let him go to bed..
I do have a pic of Bingo.. which I am going to post but Tyson hasnt been out long enuf to take a pic of
Take Care
Sheila
I DID IT BINGO IS IN AS MY AVATAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
They wont let me post it since I posted it elsewhere in another thread so I will see if I can use it as an avaitar

Well ~ It must just be that time of year... our family has expanded by at least 2 more... my DD's Gerbils had babies sometime today. I have seen two, I just hope they don't decide to eat them. We thought that one of them was sterile since we have had them since the middle of last summer and they haven't reproduced yet.

Well, got to study for finals...

Amy

*crickets chirping*

Helllloooo???? Where is everyone?

Doing good this week, but no loss on the scale yet. I have not had one drop of diet coke since last Saturday! ( I was drinking the diet caffeine free stuff.) I've been drinking water instead. I actually have a couple of 2 litre bottles of diet coke but they aren't even in the fridge.

Going for bloodwork next week and cholesterol is one of the tests they're doing. :eek: I've never had it checked, and I'm almost afraid of what the results might be!

Congrats on the new kitties, Sheila and Punkin!

Guess that's all for now....

AmyJo
Congrats on the new Gerbil babies!!! I remember back in 1988 I had what I was told to be a male teddy bear hamster..On Valentines day that same year my so called male had 8 little pink eraser looking things next to it..After screaming ,(thought it lost its insides) my husband came and looked in the cage and started laughing at me.. He said those arent inners those are baby hamsters!!! The so called Male ended up eating 3 of them which make me sick even now thinking about I did find homes for all of them but I still think back of how stupid looking I must have been screaming like an idiot over something like that
Take Care Sheila

Hey guys!!!!!!! I have been OP for 2 days... Sounds like not much of an accomplishment but seeing that I haven't been walking a very straight path of late, it is doing good. I have worked out 3 nights this week and I am tolerating it better. My scales were starting to edge their way up and my pants were getting uncomfortable so I had to do something!

Has anyone heard from Ruthie? I know she has had a lot on her plate, I hope that she is doing alright.

Everyone else, come back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Got to study,

Amy

I am here, sort of....

I haven't been online much lately. I peak at my email, make sure no one needs anything, glance at our thread and then log off. Not much of a cyber nut this week.

I am busy with work, family and housekeeping. Twice I went out with friends this past week. Amazing for me. Usually it is once a month. Chris starts his new job today. I had to make sure I packed 3 lunches for the children, diapers, baby gear, lunch $ for Chris, cold lunch for me...then I had to do towels, a black load of laundry or I will be naked for the next few days at work. Monday evening I do dinner with my dad, his bride to be, my sis and her family. My unsis is moving back in with hubby. 4th time this year. Long story. Anyways, he went to go get her so I am to watch and make sure their teenage sons don't have a houseparty... lot is going on. I work 11:30-8:30. I have wed and thurs off. My bathtub spicot broke as did the washer in the cold handle. It is still dripping but at least my water bill should be more affordable. I have to take the whole thing apart to fix, replace the walls, too much water damage and dry rot. UGH!!!

Well, I am doing ok food wise. A little too much fast food. But I will try harder this week. No binges. :) I stop eatting when full, even if the fries are still tasty! No cake or cookies at work. They have been offered but I turn them down.

Well, congrats to all the new moms out there. I am envious! But I do not need a new addition to this already frantic home! :) ~flower

Hi! Remember me? Things have been busy at work so I haven't been on the net much lately.
Still trying to find the good groove I was in a couple of weeks ago---Haven't had a good 'sincere' workout in a few days either!
Wow, so many new animals!

Punkin, I'm sorry to hear you'll be losing your old friend. It hurts, but it's better to have loved and lost--always!

Hello everyone,

Just a quick post to let you know Dusty's still with us. She decided Friday that life was still pretty good - with her bright, shiney eyes, wagging tail and interest in going for a short walk then ride, my family decided she must not be ready to give up yet - and we're not going to give up on her until she's ready to go.
You know when it's time, and right now is not the time for her to go... It will still be by next winter for sure - she's an old girl and not doing great, but she's happy - so we're just going to continue to spoil her rotten until then...

Yes, Eydie - I couldn't agree with you more - it's always better to have had them then loose them then never to know their unconditional love at all.

Gotta run!

Terri

Punkin ~ Glad to hear that your Pup is still with you. I had a family member tell us that we should put our 11 yr old Collie down about 2 weeks ago. My DH called our vet (family friend) and discussed it with him and he flipped out- saying just because an old person has trouble getting around do you put them to sleep? Subject was dropped immediately!!!!

Question ~ Do you girls ever just feel like "What is the Point?" I feel like this today... It is almost TOM and I am reallllly not in a good mood, but I feel like for every step forward I take I slide back 3.......I have had 4 good days food and exercise wise, but I want results TODAY and I am not seeing them and it sucks. I just really hate it when I feel this way.

Got to study,
Amy

Hello all!

Good mood today - get to go down to California in June for my best friend's daughter's 11th birthday! I haven't been there for her birthday in 4 years. My friend told her D that I couldn't be there and I'm just going to show up... gonna freak the kid out. :lol:

Amyjo - I agree with you completely and your point is part of the reason Dusty's still here. My stepfather asked himself "are we doing this to make her life easier, or ours?". So she needs some extra help and attention, better than loosing her before she's ready to go IMO - thankfully, he came to this conclusion too.

Back to walking again and it feels good. I'm still taking it easy since this "cold" is finally letting loose after 5 weeks. I don't want to push it... I did just sign up with my Mom and a family friend to walk the "Heaven Can Wait" 5k for breast cancer research on June 2nd! We had a blast last year - even though it did hail on us (in June!).

I'm off for now - everyone have a wonderful day :cool:

Terri

Punkin, I'm glad to hear your old dawg-friend is still with you. Every day's a gift! We lost 2 of our dogs last year and they were old and ill and it became an absolute pleasure to take care of them in their last months; it really felt like a loving spiritual practice, very humbling---we would've done it forever, but then in the end they do let you know it's time.

But by Gawd, not today! Right, Dusty?!!! ;)

Once again, friends, I'm amazed at how freaking hilarious it is that I'm a cook with food issues! It's been a really busy week and I'm eating my way thru it. Jeez.....I've got to get a grip! Oh dearie me. :o

Hi everyone
No I didnt fall of the face of the internet I just been trying to get out of a "funk" I been in lately..Nothing to do with weight ,in fact I dont really know where this "funk" is stemming from to be honest..
I dont get online when I get this way and when I do I try to be quiet as a mouse till it passes..
Anyhow I have noticed how very very quiet it has been here..What is up with that???Hope everything is going as well as it should be but if it isnt I hope it will be soon..
I been having a few problems with DD lately she doesnt like to sleep doesnt like to get up for school everything that is wrong is always my fault..And also been having a few hiccups with DH as well.. Lately he thinks I am only losing weight to get a new guy or he thinks that my "funks" have to do with him that he isnt doing enough to make me happy.. Ever try to explain something you dont know what is causing it in the first place?? In fact DH doesnt want me to associate with a friend I been associating with online for 2 years,just because the friend is Male..It isnt like I am thinking of anything illegal immoral or anything about th guy he has just been a great friend that I have trusted talking with for a while..He has helped me thru alot and if DH knew that the guy helped me and talked to me when I was about to ditch DH a$$ and showed me things that I never acknowlegded about DH ..It was talking to this person that helped me decide to give things another shot.. Now if I was to say anything about this to DH then he would just assume that I talk about every personal thought and detail of my life with my online Friend..Also I used to have a few female friends that I talked with online and when I was offline I kept in touch with them thru Snail mail and phone calls now he doesnt want me associating with them either because I should keep the past in the past and move on ..I admit one of them was a bad influence on me and I did get in some deep stuff while being online which I no longr do, but lets face it you cnt just drop a person because of an online personality..I have met her in person and her kids abd BF and she isnt at all what she seems like online..But you think he would think of that..Of course not..I dont know why I am rambling here I just needed to I guess..**** he is so worried about things when I go to the store because a GUY might talk to me ..I go to a certain store to buy my ciggs cause they are cheaper there and he thinks I flirt with the owner thats why it takes so long ..Sure the owner is a sweet guy but he is also Pakastani so when he talks his english isnt as clear as what I am used to hearing so it takes a while to understand and answer him( I have to talk slow for him to understand what I even ask for).. And where I buy my insense sticks the owner is from India (again english has a heavy accent as well ) and he is always telling me different things about his country and religion and what my name means in Hindi anything to hold a quick conversation which most people want when you frequent a place as much as I do..Maybe they tend to talk so much because I still shopped their shops even after most people stopped becuz of 9/11..In fact the Indian owner even told me he was surprised I still went there because I am American and he was still in school to get "americanized" and he was taunted and terrorized so much for being Indian (even the Pakastani was getting threats and harrassed for being different)
Sorry still rambling I just have no focus today ,just things are really getting to me and where else should I go to get this off my chest and mind..There is a another thing that has also been really grinding away at me but that has to do with religion which I wont go there here since it would make this post even more lengther as well , but by talking about it here I know would be wrong due to it being about Catholic Church and you all are mainly not Catholic..But lets just say that too has been really been getting on my bad side..( I do have a religion BB I go to but since Iam not strictly 100% behind my beleifs I dont talk about that too much either but I feel it coming to the point where I might just let them know my thinking, afterall what cn happen they could ban me or accept my opinions being just my opinions..)
Well NOW you see why I been trying to avoid the threads all together..PLease forgive my ramblings and also if I offended anyone I hope you know I didnt have the in my heart to offend anyoine and I apologize if I did ..
Take Care
Sheila

Hugs Sheila. Somehow you need to make hubby feel secure. You could say f*** it and let him be paranoid but that isn't very nice, nor would it help your marriage. My bf occasionally goes thru this. Well, actually so do I. We all loose our cofidence. I am sure your funk just seems like the cold shoulder to him. Try and spend some quality time with him. Maybe frisbee in the park or something. (Is it frisbee weather there yet?) After trying to give him the royal treatment, if he still is mr posesive, you may just have to let him deal with it. Don't let him bring you down!!! I have to agree, sometimes online friends are just exactly what you need to deal with problems at home.

Where is everyone? Spring Fever???? Did everyone have a happy Beltane? I did :devil: I actually spent the first 5 hours with the plumber. Our bathtub would not turn off. $500 dollars later I have new pipes and fixures. Still have to replace the suuround but no more wasted water. My checking account went from nicely padded to flat. I had to work 50 hours to earn what I paid him for 4 hours of work. Completely unfair. I may go to plumbing school. A spud's mackenzie pitt bull got into my home and broke flower vases, a lamp, some toys trying to first get my bird and then my cat and then my bird again. The plumber got her out. She chased the mini dog next store and then chased my cat down the street. All 3 cats finallly came home before dark. I called the pound. She kept coming back to my house to try to get in. I am slightly paranoid with dogs and Griffin still. After all that...I took a nap, and then did dishes only to kill my garbage disposal. I always run inbetween sink loads. There was nothing much down there, a few peas. And it goes click. Thats it, click. I reset it, checked the breaker, unpluged it ect.... It doesn't do a thing. I tried the broom handle to move the blades too. They work fine. Another 100$ but this we can install ourselves. This will be #3 in 5.5 years. I made dinner, went to blockbuster, went for the free scoop at Baskin and Robbins. Daquari Ice. I made a Beltane Spell, watched Waterworld, never saw it before. Had whoopie and passed out. That was my day. Very pricey for staying home 95 % of the day.

For some reason my calves hurt. They feel like someone removed 3 inches from the tendon and muscles. I haven't been working out either. I need to. Today is housework day since my water is back on. I miss everyone! ~flower

:wave:

Hello everyone - wow it's been quiet!

Happy Beltane (a day late). I wasn't fit to be online yesterday since my mood was SO foul. I found myself starting a fight yesterday online and I figured I should just step away from the keyboard... not that the fight was just for $hits and giggles, it was a legitimate ***** - but the way I went about disagreeing was pissy to say the least.

Sheila - I hope your funk ends soon. I know what it's like.... thankfully mine only lasted yesterday and after I ripped off a few heads I felt much better.

Flower - I'm sorry about your Bully terror! You had a Bull Terrier in your house - totally different than a pit bull. They're actually sweet dogs and called the "nanny dog" because they're wonderful with children - albeit a bit spaztic as you found out. I had one named Lily that's still living with my ex (I guess). That's no condolance when they're rippin' through your house though, I'm sure... As for plumbing school - great idea, they're paid very, VERY well - you'd think they could afford pants that didn't, um, show more than you want to see??? :rolleyes:

My funk yesterday was because I've had a sore throat for 5 days now and that on top of being sick for 5 weeks just pushed me over the edge. Top THAT off with finding white spots in my throat and being put on 10 days of antibiotics... wellllll.... then you have raving ***** from ****. Add to that that I have to choke down acidophilus product to try to stave off a yeast infection that the antibiotics will try to give me and well, I'm just not nice to be around right now and the fuse is sooooo short, you almost can't see it.
Due to mood, I didn't do a darn thing about Beltane. Nuthin' - didn't even light a candle. This weekend I have a birthday party/Beltane celebration though so I'll "make up" for being such a bad Pagan... ;)

Have a great day everyone!

Terri

Took my last final today. Went and had lunch with some girls from school and then came home.. So far it is 4 out of 5 A's... will know about the last class tomorrow. I am just so d#)* glad that the semester is over that I could scream!

Weight is steady.. it is TOM and I am eating like it. If it doesn't move it is getting shoveled in. I am at least getting in some exercise though. Good for me!

Hope that everyone else is doing well.. Still no word from Ruthie?

Flower ~ How bazaar about the dog... Does it belong in the neighborhood. Can't say that I would be paranoid since the thing with Grif's face (how is it healing?)

Punkin ~ Sorry about the illness. I was sick for about 3 months after the first of the year so I know what your going through. I hate taking medicine and it is the pits getting a yeast infection!

Sheila ~ Sometimes men just are born paranoid. My DH (whom knows that I worship him) thinks I am going to leave him when I graduate and can support myself. Not saying that there isn't some eyecandy that I go to school with, I would so NEVER do that but it comes up in conversation on occasion and it floors me. All you can do short of humoring him is reassure him that he is the "light" of your life!

Hugs to you all,
Amy

Hi all
 

I know I been away just been dealing with some stuff and I think my funk is coming to an end..
Hope you all had a great Beltane day (even if you celebrated late) I admit I dont know what Beltane Day is but I do know it must be really important to you all ..(dont worry hanging around here I will learn stuff soon enuf..So dont feel like you need to explain, I am a nosey type that reads alot I learn stuff that way..:lol: )
While I was on 3FC hiatis I started a little site which is not complete yet, I have real intentions to take my frustrations out building that .. PLus it is fun too see what I can do with little or no knowledge or training ..
My mom started a home buisness so I think this weekend I will check it out and give her a few pointers that might make things easier..She is selling Herbalife stuff..I want to see how she is set up with her books and equipment and go over a few things that I learned when I took my mircobuisness course..I wont tell her how to do anything but just maybe plant a few mental seeds in her head to send her in the right direction.. Also I want to make sure she saves all her start up buisness costs so that way when next year hits she can do the taxes as well as take out or write off a few things that she might not think of....The thing I dread is the lecher of why I wont go to school for accounting,whichI am not going to admit that I have overdrawn on my account twice in the past and that wouldnt be a good thing for me to do..(afterall how could I handle someone elses $$ if I screw up on my own $$)
I maybe allergic to my Cats.. I have been breaking out in hives since I got them and now tyson is finally trusting and loving I cant do that to those little furballs.. I will see if maybe I can get a allergy prescript so I dont let them dowmn or my family down.. I have always wanted a siamese now I have two and there is NO WAY will I give them up now..(unless I have NO choices whatso ever)
Here is a cheap plug to my site ---->CHEAP PLUG<------- Like I said it isnt even finished yet but at least I can get an idea what you think.. And I am willing to consider any ideas.. Remember it is in the first stage so dont expect too much.. I have a few pics I will be adding but I need to go to my moms so I can email them to me since my A drive is on the fritz then I can save them to desktop to upload to the site..
I have a few ideas on maybe having a page on weightloss (links of info for the different diet types..) Basically a resource type of thing
Maybe a page for my moms herbalife stuff ,page or two of family pics and interests.. I am really winging this so I will see what I can handle..
Well again I rambled aimlessly .. Just havent gotten a good fucus I guess.. Then again taking two benadryll every 6 hours does make one a little brian dead
Well all take care and Talk soon
SHeila

I have an admirier at work. How cute is that???? I guess I don't look as bad as my reflection does! :) I kinda let him know that I had a family before he asked me out... I didn't want it to be awkward later. But he came to me later and asked me how many children did I have, how old I was (I don't look 33 at all), and when my boyfriend was gonna marry me. This was in the back stock room where my flowers were. No reason for a commission flooring guy to come back except to see me! :) Anyways, it made me smile all day to know someone other than Chris thinks I am interesting and attractive! ~flower

It is nice to get a boost to your ego sometimes. I have a guy a work who isn't all that attractive and is married, and knows I am married but he hits on me all day. It has become a running joke but it makes me feel good to know even if someone is married they still may find me attractive.

I realize that it is getting beautiful outside and that we are all busy little bees but I MISS EVERYONE!!!!!!!! Where are you?

Got to find a bathing suit for my trip to the beach. Not too excited about that. My one piece is too big and the two piece that I have that fits is old.. :( I hate shopping it depresses me!

Well hope everyone finds their way home soon.

Amy

Roll call!!!!

Who is still among us??? I do feel like everyone has abandoned ship!

Flower is here! Her head is in the clouds but she is here. I have found new modivation for getting back on plan. Short skirts. Too hot for pants and long skirts. This all black bottom thing at work is gonna kill me when it gets in the 100's next month. It is creeping to the 90's already. Spring is over here. Not fun. That means bathing suit weather. I too need a new suit. Tata for now. I have the next 2 days off, post so I have something to read when I get bored of housework! ~flower

Ok, ok.... I'm here :wave: and I'll admit that I've been lurking...

Had a crappy weigh in this week - gaining 3 pounds. I believe it's partly from eating this acidophilus CRAP (milk & yogurt) to keep from getting an infection from my antibiotics (which so far has worked) but they don't make that stuff in fat free/sugar free. Ok, and I've been eating ice cream - hey! It's for medicinal reasons! :devil:
Today I'm back on the wagon though...

Flower - that is SO cool to have an admirer! I have one that flirts with me over the phone - but he's never seen me, so it really doesn't count - but it's fun!

Amyjo - Congrats on those A's!!!!!:dizzy:

Sheila - Beltaine is a celebration rebirth and new beginnings. That winter is officially over and the Earth is coming alive with new growth and the birth of babies. This morning it was 25 degrees however, so I'm having a hard time with the whole "winter's over" stuff. :lol: I checked out your site - the pictures are cute! I can't wait to see them all uploaded and I really hope your allergy to your cats can be easily treated.

It appears that I'm also going to be going into the volunteer "business". I'm an avid crocheter and have always wanted to donate to local hospitals, shelters, etc. and would you believe there's not ONE group around here that accepts donations?? I do have an email out to Binky Patrol who's 45 min. away - if they fail to help then I guess I'll contact the hospitals, etc. myself and get something started... It's exciting and scary. I had a dream 2 nights ago that convinced me I needed to do this. It was a little bald girl, named Nicole, who was in the hospital with cancer. She wanted me near her while she was waiting and then told me that the blankie I'd made her meant so much to her while she was sick... I have no idea WHO this was, but I'm going to take it as a message. Maybe there's a reason I'm not having children of my own.

Ok, I've blathered on enough... have a great day everyone!

Terri :moo:

I been around just been tired again
Punkin I know this is going to sound a bit strange ,but why not take acidophilis pills it is much easier..
I kinda thought Beltane was the rebirth or awakening of the world (spring) which started 3-20.. I know that there is a nother one in June (20?)the summer exiquinox and Sept (20?) I just was a bit off I guess. Spring is my fav time of year , everything new..
Well I havent been doing much I think I best get going right now and post more tomorrow I just been so out of it
Tajke Care
Sheila

The 4 pounds that I lost a few weeks ago have come back home! Dang! Will I ever get this right? :( :( :(

Hey there!

Sheila, not strange at all... I don't take the pills for one reason - they're apparently too strong or something - even with just the milk I have to not drink too much for fear of what happened the last time I was in this position.
(personal story here...) Last time I did the pills while trying to keep from getting a yeast infection they made matters worse. See, it all started in '96 when I took Diflucan (the yeast infection pill "cure") that fouled up my body SO badly that I ended up with a yeast infection that literally my Dr. and I couldn't get cured for 6 months, THAT gave me a secondary infection that took 3 rounds of antibiotics to "fix" (antibiotics leading to more yeast infections and so on and so forth) and then an exam after all was said and done found that the secondary infection was so severe it ended up giving me internal scaring. It's probably a darn good thing I don't plan on having kids because after my little trip through Diflucan ****, I, and my Dr., don't know for sure that I can anyway... Funny thing also, my system was NEVER this sensitive before Diflucan either. Apparently this pill wipes out ALL the yeast in your system good and bad and you end up fighting to find the balance between infection and normal yeast flora because your body now can't find the balance itself. I'm not the only woman that's lived through the nightmare this pill can cause. I won't even mention what it did to my body long term sexually. So, long story short - that's why - and that's also why I tell every woman I can to avoid Diflucan like the plague.

June 20th... that's Midsummer - the Sun (the God) is at his strongest - but he is also on the downhill slide so to speak. After Midsummer the days start getting shorter and slowly colder, until the God "dies" and awaits rebirth the next spring.

S'all for now... later gators!

Terri

I'm still alive. Sorry, havent' been around much. Battling two headed gila monsters (teenager), overworked, tired...you get the picture.

BUT I've lost those four pounds that seem to have made their way home to Eydie. (And NO I dont wan't them back...they were yours to start with, you keep 'em....or at least lose them away from my general direction? :D )

Oh, I got a 6% raise effective May 1. Not as much as I would have liked, but it beats the 3% mostly everyone else got. Not that it makes a bit of difference...I'll just pay more taxes. :rolleyes:

Ok, I'm typing with wet nails here, so I'll try to catch up in the next few days.

Guess there are only a few of us now. :(

I am still stumbling around with the idea of what I want out of life. Obviously something is wrong and I think I am almost ready to be brave enough to face it. I will fill you in once I figure it out. I do believe I wish I had a loud beaming voice out of the sky to tell me what to do. But then I might recent not being able to decide on my own. Whatever I do, it will change things.

I have had no appetite the last few days and I have had very little sleep. My mind doesn't seem to want to turn off. It is hot outside. I don't want to turn on the a/c. For once I think it isn't any body else who is making me miserable but myself. What I thought I wanted and what I held so close to my heart doesn't appeal to me right now. I know, none of this makes sence. If I said it out loud, it wouldn't make any sence to me either. I really need a break away. CALGON! If only a bubblebath could help.

Anyways, thanks for listening even if you have no idea on what I am saying. I need to go do some housework. I have avoided that like the plague! ~flower

Flower ~ you sound like me... about a year ago, when I came home saying I just couldn't stand it anymore and I quit my job started focusing on me and I have been a different person.. ever since. I don't know what is going on with you, me it was I was not where I was suppose to be and had not ever been. I firmly beleive that someone had been guiding me where I was suppose to go the whole time but I just coudn't make up my mind to listen and since I have I have been happier than I have in the past 13 years. I beleive if your getting signs.. whether they are from my God or yours :) then it is probably time for a change.

Hugs to you!!!!!!!!

Amy

Hi everyone
 

I admit I been lurking more and posting less.. I been on a junkfood week and I been a bit too unmotivated to do anything ..I know I should feel guilty but I dont ..I gained weight back and it is almost like I dont care.. And funny thing is I took a good look in the mirror and I realized that I have alot more to do then just losing weight..No I am not giving up on losing weight but I realize I have alot more work cut out for me appearance wise..I look SO OLD for my age, my hair is getting greyer and greyer and I have wrinkles and my skin feels like paper and it is always dry.I have stretch marks in places that I didnt realize I had strecth marks in..(on my shoulders...How does one get stretch marks there is driving me nuts)Gravity is hitting me body so hard that I just dont like the sight of myself..I look at some of the moms at my daughters school and I look like a grandma next to them..Oh well time to take ACTION I guess..But just where does one start when there is too much to start with????I scanned my wedding pic today to put on my little site,which was taken in 1985.It looked like someone else,in fact it looked like my daughter in a wedding dress!!! Oh well enough whining I just had to get that off my chest(which gravity hit that too
:cry: )
FLOWER I wish I had the answers to help you with what you want answers from but I dont.. All I can say is take a real good listen to your heart..I admit in the past I didnt and I have regretted some desisions I have made..And living with that regret can be tough..It will take some time for you to understand what it is exactly your heart is telling you,but you need to be patient,it wont be till you can fully understand and beleive what your heart says that you will get the answers your searching for..A human mind is filled with conflicting things,that is due to we think and talk ourself out of everything..If it helps weigh out the pros and cons..Dont think about the pro and cons since the mind can turn a con into a pro if we think about it hard enough..Take a while and jot down a list and after a few weeks go over the list what do you have more of??The heart doesnt overreact the mind does. I dont know what you are talking about and so I will address you a PM and give you my guess there..


AmyJo Thank you for keeping on posting.. Like I said I have been lurking about I just havent had any good upbeat words to say so I been quiet..How did your last exam go .. I read you had 4 out of 5 A so far and you woiuld let us know about that last exam.... I dont think I missed the post but if I did can you rfresh my old burnt out mind??? I think you aced it but I wanna hear it from you..

WildFire I had a feeling you been busy in your homelife..Daughter I think are MADE to be difficult..I was my daughter is and her daughter had BETTER be just like her in EVERYWAY..( I am not making the moms curse since it comes back 10 fold ) CONGRATS on the 6% raise ( maybe by thinking you made a 6% but usually get 3% now with taxes on 6% you are getting 3% where as a 3% would only give you about 1.5% so you are still making out..) H*ll I am grasping at straws here but it sounded good to me..:lol:

Eydie Sorry about your gain , but I did too and I still cant get it right either..So we will keep on trying till we do.. Sound good to you???

Punkin Thanks for the quick lesson on Beltane and Midsummer .. What is funny is some people cant figure out the beliefs you believe yet there are the simplest beliefs to believe in.. They are there right smack dab in front of our faces but most cant see it..People tend to overanalyze everything and by doing so they get off track..

OH on a GOOD NOTE..... I am NOT repeat NOT allergic to the cats..Whatever was making me rash up and look like total h*ll I still havent figured out, but I knew deep down it wouldnt be my furbabies causing it..Tyson is now a loving sweet cat eager to be patted (sometimes even too overwhelmingly eager when he jumps on my keyboard as I type when he wants his affection..)Bingo has been quieting down he seems to be very happy just dont want to be bothered unless he wants to be..
I havent added anything yet to my little site..I still have pics to scan and I want to do that BEFORE working on the site since it is time consuming..
Well All I best get going I have a few more posts to get to and email to answer
Take Care
Sheila

Well, I tried to break up with Chris last night. I told him I wanted to break up at 4 pm. At 10:30 we are still having the same discussion. What is that, 6.5 hours of crying, talking, whispering, yelling???? I am so tired. He took the asprin to work with him. He finally heard some of the things I have been saying. He finally let me on on a few things. But I really think it is too late. I am so confused. I completely caught him off guard. He was so smug and so sorrowful and I feel like the worst person in the world. (his love is stronger so he says cause he would never give up, just the thought tears him up) Or my favorite "I thought Griffin would be just like me having both him parents together forever. " Emotional black mail. I have warned him a million times that one day he would lose me. I knew one day I would wake up and I would have lost that loving feeling. And I did. He says he got this job so we could save up, get out of debt, get married and start over. How come it is always tomorrow. Why couldn't we have started over yesterday or last week??? How come he has to be happy to help out around here. He has never done laundry. You see it isn't one thing it is a million tiny things. He thinks I met someone new. He said that would be easier. He doesn't get it. Yes, the thought of someone new, no one in particular is what modivated me to do something about my downward cycle. But I would never leave one man for another. It was suppose to be about me feeling empty and alone. I want conversations, no yelling, away from the tv ect... He turned it around so he is evil, I am looking for a better man, and I am completely unable to give another chance. How many do I give. I have already given one a month for forever. I finally realized that it wasn't him going out that bothered me so, which he thinks since he hasn't gone out in 2 weeks, all is forgiven. But that I am unfullfilled. I am not sure what I need anymore, but over eatting, yelling, drinking and not sleeping are pretty strong clues that what I need isn't at home. I don't want to marry him anymore so what is the point???? Thanks for listenig to me rant. I work at 2 and again tomorrow. I will let you know my outcome on Sunday. Happy Mother's Day to me. ~flower

Flower ~ I pretty much thought that was what was wrong... I am not going to give any advice because I am a lifer.. I just hope that everything works out for the best.

Sending you Good VIBES..
Hugs,
Amy

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Hi, guys! I've been trolling 3FC looking for positive quotes to post on the Positive's Only Daily Affirmation Thread. Hope it's ok but I'm going to post the following this a.m. from Amyjo01:

I firmly beleive that someone had been guiding me where I was suppose to go the whole time but I just coudn't make up my mind to listen and since I have I have been happier than I have in the past 13 years. I beleive if your getting signs.. whether they are from my God or yours then it is probably time for a change.

Hugs to you!!!!!!!!

Amy


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A man with outward courage dares to die. A man with inward courage dares to live.

- Lao-Tzu

Hey, all. Another prodigal lurker here.

Flower, I hurt too to hear the pain in your last post. I wish you strength and clarity as you make your decision. You know, the son of Tenzing Norgay (the Sherpa guide who led Edmund Hilary up Mt. Everest) also is a Mt. Everest guide, and he says in his autobiography that his greatest achievement in life has NOT been that he has climbed Mt. Everest five times but that he has turned back five times.

We prepare our whole lives to achieve some of life's goals through a life partnership -- love, children, security, the strength and security of family -- and our wisdom comes from knowing when it is safest to brave the elements and achieve one dream and when it is safest to turn back and give the soul a fighting chance to achieve another. In your words and your grief, I see that in your heart, you know the path that is right for you. Whether you choose to continue up that mountain or return to your base camp, please know that you are loved, supported, and respected by people here who honor you.

APB on Ruthie
 

Has anybody heard from Ruthie lately? She and I both planned to do the Rock & Roll Marathon in San Diego. I know things were chaotic for her ... but she seemed to be doing so well with her fundraising and her training ... .

Kim ~ Thank you for those beautiful words of wisdom.... I wish I could of said something so eloquent! Haven't heard from Ruthie in a long long time... Really worried about her- it has probably been at least 3 weeks since I have seen a post from her. I have her envelope for my donation but never got a last name to send it. I was concerned about sending a envelope with just Ruthie on the outside beings that could of just been a psuedo....


Hope everyone had a wonderful Mothers Day...

Hugs to you all,
Amy