I can't believe this!
Ever since I started losing weight, I've been one of those people who thought that weighing once a day was the best. I thought that it would help to keep me on track, and that it would keep me focused. I thought that I could deal with the daily fluctuations. I thought that if I didn't weigh myself everyday that I would go off plan.
I started noticing a pattern, recently. Whenever I would weigh myself in the morning, if I was down... I would feel good about myself and thought I could lax on my eating. If I was up, then I would feel bad about myself and I would stick to my plan 100% until the next day, when I'd most likely be down, and then I'd eat and gain again. So that's how I've been the last couple of months. Up and down between 143 and 145.
I decided to only weigh myself once a month... but I couldn't do it. I still had to get on the scale every day. Finally I had enough of it. I told my mom, "hide the scale for me until Sunday." That was last Sunday. I still don't know where it's at, she's hiding it for me.
This week I have felt SO good about myself. I havn't had the numbers to dictate my self worth. I havn't had the numbers to tell me whether I've been doing a good job or not. I look in the mirror and I don't see that I'm up a lb, or down half a lb. I look in the mirror and I see me. I've been feeling so good about myself that I've wanted to eat healthily. I havn't binged since I've weighed myself. I feel amazing.
Guys, I seriously cannot believe this. I'm in awe right now. I guess I didn't realize how much the numbers actually affected me.
If any of you start feeling the way that I said that I was feeling, try taking the scale away. I feel so free... it's incredible.
Last edited by FreeSpirit; 10-23-2008 at 01:12 AM.
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