I took the plunge
and bought a bikini! (two actually!)
I have owned one bikini in my life, and I wore it once and never put it on again because I looked so ridiculous. Since I've lost 50 pounds in the last year, and I'm trying to be a little more daring fashion wise (I've started wearing skirts and dresses in the past year and that is huge for me), I thought I might try a bikini again this time. I am about 20 pounds lighter this time around from the first time I bought a bikini, and I'm much smaller size wise. I'm still not really happy with my body because I still have a good bit of flab around my midsection/butt/thighs, but it's much better than it was a year ago. Even though I don't really think I'm ready for a bikini, I bought a couple with the urging of my fiancee. It took me about 3 months to actually buy the bikinis - I have a large chest, so finding a supportive yet stylish bikini was a chore - after about 5 straight weekends of looking in stores, I finally ordered two online.
I got one full bikini set today, plus the bottom of the other (the top is on backorder for a few weeks). I tried on the full set, and I was happy it actually fit! It seems to cover enough and be supportive enough for my chest that I can be comfortable that I won't fall out of it. I got boy shorts as the bottom (that was an urging from my fiancee as well) and although I would like a little bit more coverage in the back, they fit well also.
My body isn't quite bikini ready, but honestly, who cares? If you don't like it then look away I guess. I've worked hard this past year and I want to do something to break out of my shell of shyness. (I don't think I will look as bad as I think, I just still see myself as bigger than I am).
Now if only my 2 week honeymoon in Hawaii in October would get here faster so I can use these bikinis (I'm sure I'll find some reason this summer to wear them).
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