The kids are stressing me out and on top of it they're sick and have been missing school. I'm so tired lately. It's difficult for me to get all pumped up to work out. It's not in me these days. I'm feeling unmotivated and overwhelmed. So, I'm sitting here with a glass of wine (gasp) to further sabotage my progress. Whatever.
All I do is scold myself for not working out as I reach for another piece of hard candy or gum to replace my beloved cigarettes. Then, it's a piece of cheese or a couple of vanilla wafers that turn into a handful. This is not my typical behavior but honestly, I'm just fed up. I hope to start back up tomorrow, back to being my old determined, peppy self (gag). I'm probably being too hard on myself but all this hard work I've been doing so religiously is not giving me the results I thought I'd get by now. My weight is fluctuating like a seesaw and I'm getting so sick of it. I have not seen more than a one pound loss at a time in months. I'm feeling like I should just accept being at this weight even though I know I can do better and have. Weeks go by and nothing.....weeks! Grrrrrr. It would make anyone ticked off, especially when you do your VERY best.
Okay, thanks for listening. I really needed to get it out and I feel a little better. This is my first vent here on 3FC and it feels good! I wonder why I waited so long. lol





I used to cut them in 1/2 so they were the right size, it helped with those times when you would normally be holding a cigarette, which for me was when I was on the phone or driving to work or whatever is a trigger for you.