[fatmommyinPA]

Hello Everyone ..... I'll thank you ahead fo time for taking the time to read this for I am afraid I may ramble .......I am 26 years old and I am married and have 3 wonderful children .I have been struggling with my weight since the birth of my first son in 1999 . I look back now , only to realize that what I once thought was fat .....I would give alot to go back to that now . I have now gotten to the heaviest I have ever been .....It all started when we decided to try for our third child , I had a miscarriage . Then I got pregnant again and I went for an ultrasound only to find no heartbeat , it broke my heart and I know I was depressed and up climbed the scale . We decided to try once more and I got pregnant , I was very apprehensive but also happy . This time the story ends well , I got my beautiful daughter ( she is now almost 8 months old ) ......but it was 9 months of medical issues and fear . The reason I tell you all this history is because one of my medical issues was pregnacy related diabetes .....And I was so very careful ...I controlled my diabetes thru diet and I did wonderful . I swore that after she was born I was gonna use the knowledge I had gained and stay at eating that sensibly ........well I didn't .....I sit here now and think ......when I was pregnant and my health affected that of my unborn child , I was a health nut , I did it all right , .....Why cant I do it for me ??????
I am essentially writing this because I am truly looking for a support buddy , someone I can share with and who in turn needs some one to share there ups and downs with . Hopefully I can get some much needed suport in this place that looks to be filled with wonderful women . Thanks !!!!!!

[Janie Canuck]

Hi and welcome - this place is filled with literally thousands of support buddies. I think most people look around a bit and find the forums that suit them the best, and just start posting. It's an extremely supportive place!

[LookingForHope]

Welcome! You are definitely in the right place! I've only been coming here for three weeks and it has become a very important place for me. When I need advice or a pat on the back or a kick in the pants (not too often ), I can post what I need to say and get many supportive replies. Others give me new ideas, new websites to learn from, and sometimes just help me feel less alone. I come here at least once a day. It's kind of like my version of AA. I need to come here to stay on my program and to stay sane as I work on becoming a healthier person.
Join us, read a lot of posts, tell us how you are feeling. We truly care!

[midwife]

Welcome! The nice thing about gestational diabetes is that you had such a wonderful opportunity to learn about how what we eat effects our bodies and our glucose levels. Just because you are not pregnant anymore does not mean that your health does not effect your children. I am sure you want to live a long long time, free of diabetes, heart disease, colon cancer, etc....

I know that a lot of people say you have to get into a mindset where you lose the weight for yourself, not someone else. That may be true when it comes to men or critical parents, but maybe not so much when it comes to our children. Lose it for your munchkins.

If you will, I will!!!

Hugs,
midwife

[fatmommyinPA]

Thank You all for your responses . I know that this site can help me . I have looked around and I see that there are so many woderful women here , with one goal , to better ourselves . I understand what you mean about doing it for my kids . I do want to be healthy for them . I love my children so very much and I cannot imagine not being here for them . My boys are 7 and 5 . My daughter was born in August and when I finally had her in my arms I felt such peace and so complete . I did really well with staying heathy and eating well after I had her , things got bad when I returned to work . My life got more hectic and I slipped back into the same old rut . I want to change and become more healthy more than anything , I just need to get a plan and make my decisions and DO IT . And on top of doing it for me , doing it fr my children ......I want to find that art of me that got lost . The part of me that was confident and sure of my self . Because I feel like my self esteem got buried my this weight , I want to find it . I dont want to feel like I am not myself .