Teresa I know what you mean about plane seats - I'm off to Amsterdam in 3 weeks on one of the budjet airlines and they always have small seats on those. I always hope that they give us the 2 seats near the window and if so I sit down and then don't move until we've landed ... luckily I don't suffer from a weak bladder :)

Well i just came from a dressing room, and i think i almost broke down, was feeling good today cause i lost 1lb (was hoping for more, but i was happy i had lost somthing) and i practically broke down in the changing rooms, not because things wouldent fit, they did, just not well enough :-(

I used to avoid mirrors, because they would make me so sad to see how big my face and neck were. I cared more about that than the rest of my body.

Nothing Sexy At All Wearing A Dress Felt Like I Wrapped Myself In A Curtain I Pulled Off The Wall Absolutely Hated Mirrors!!!!!!

Know what you mean. I've had that happen a few times - not recognising my reflection and then feeling awful when you realise it is you.

I HATED in the summertime (or just when it was above 75/24), I would constantly sweat. My forehead would be covered in sweat if I walked a mere 100 ft in warm weather. And I would go into a public place still sweating. And as soon as I finally stopped sweating, it'd be time to go back outside to start the icky cycle all over again. Now I have the opposite problem. I can't stand to be in the A/C because I freeze and now I willingly go outside to get warmed up.

HarpoChicoGroucho - your stats are brilliant and your pictures are lovely. Well done on such an amazing weight loss. :)

Hate the fact that my first waking thought is always, and has always been.... " damn I'm still fat!" also hate the fact that many of my male colleagues feel they can flirt with me because I am no danger (!) lastly hate the fact that my stomach walks before me and always has, even at my smallest - nothing really to recommend being fat at all is there??!!

I've done that! I hate that. Now I look on purpose, still not happy with what I see but I'm getting closer.

I hate everything about being big, the lack of decent clothes, the unbelievable self-awareness that people are judging you because of your size, being so uncomfortable throughout summer, but most of all I HATE going into 'normal' shops (I like to look at new clothes so that it keeps me motivated and gives me something to aim for when I can visualise a certain outfit in my head). Nearly EVERY TIME i do this, I get the staff instantly coming over to me to ask 'if I need any help' their confused look says it all. It's like they dont like me being in there in case people get the idea that fat people try to shop in 'trendy' store. Once when I was looking around a gorgeous boutique, an assistant actually came up to me and informed me that 'the clothes only go up to a size 12' I was mortified as well as angry. It is so obvious that my weight is seen as a horrible thing for some people and I sometimes feel like an outsider because of it.

When I'm at target, I'm gonna have my 'pretty woman' moment in ALL the snotty shops that have made me feel so uncomfortable in the past!

I hate that I avoid family stuff cos I know that my mum's gona judge me on how much weight I've put on since I last saw her. She's the one person that can make me really squirm without even saying anything. I've only ever successfully lost weight when I lived with her because of the constant feeling of judgement (and comments like 'the floor shakes when you walk'). It's my cousin's 21st next week and I'm feeling sick just thinking about it...

Photographs - My children are 7 and 3 and I have hardly any pictures of me with them as I feel so aware of how big I am I can't stand to be photographed - the only time I've been okay is when pregnant as I have something to 'blame' other than the fact I keep putting too many calories into my body.

I'm with you on this one. I have been with my lovely boyfriend for 6 and a half years and there is just ONE photo of us together and even that is of my face only. I feel like we have no memories like this to show our kids and stuff in the future and that makes me really sad. I am also never in family photos either which always causes tension, but I just hate having my photo taken with me being overweight.

Thank you :hug: You're doing a great job yourself!!! :D

I dont think there is only one thing i hate about being fat, infact the list is endless.... and includes pretty much every thing everybody has said so far but the top 5
5- People staring as you walk down a street/sit in bus/ walk into a room
4- shopping with slim friends...all my gal pals always try to be really nice and say it looks good, buy it blah blah, wen i know i just look like a big fat whale
3- my back fat - wot are you supposed to do to lose weight from your back?
its such an odd place!!!!!!!
2- my thigs/chaffing - i swear even after losing 48 ponds i really dont feel that great about my self cos my thunder thigs will not shift!!!
1- Oh the most painfull!!! Knowing that you have got absolutely no chance with this guy you 'like'. Even though he keeps looking at you, its probably just to notice how huge you are, which is happening at the present at uni!

so being fat is driving me absolutely crazy, at this moment!!! and the wordt hing is there is no quick fix for this ever!
shmooooooo