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Originally Posted by PhatPhoenix
I'm disappointed I stopped caring what I ate when my dad went into the final stages of his illness, and died in May last year. I never measured or weighed myself but knew I was regaining some of the 40lb I had just lost. The damage over 18 months turns out to be not as bad as I feared - a stone and a bit and I shifted half a stone of that already in the past month or so. Also I onyl went up one dress size and I originally lost 5, so not too bad. But I'm disappointed I feel I let him down as he was so proud of me, losing the weight and he never tired of telling me how great it was. I'm disappointed with myself for that but to be honest, anything else would be not really important, by comparison.
I never had a before pic - didn't care less. Why would I hold onto pictures of myself fat (even if there had been any?) I always think that psychologically implies someone is holding onto their fat, maybe subconsciously but still... Any weight loss is positive so long as it's done healthily. I'm disappointed I let something blow me off course but tbh it was something huge, and you can't beat yourself up about major things like that - so at the end of the day it's negative to beat yourself up about the small stuff. Stay positive and feel proud of what you achieved!
You know I do wonder if you have something in that. Not with the pictures but with clothes. I still have clothes ranging right up to size 22 or so (I'm a 14 now) and they're all neatly washed, pressed and folded/stored away... but why? I can't bring myself to throw them away - I don't know why though
