Hello,
Well, the presents are all opened and put away. I spent some time last night cleaning up the extra bedroom; the one that had all the boxes, and wrapping paper and such in it. It felt good to get that all cleaned up.

I had intended to take the tree down but I didn't get around to it. It's ok, I'll get it down sometime this week.

I went through my closet and pulled out some things that I have been holding on to and are really too big for me. I needed to make room for my new things and I thought to myself that I didn't want those "big" clothes around...might be tempted to put them on when I have eaten to much.

We were visting my father-in-law today and he mentioned that my DH's sister is going in tomorrow for her tummy tuck. She had gastric bypass about a year ago. She lost 130 lbs and I am happy for her, but there is the twinge of jealously in me that I can't shake. I usually am very happy with what I have accomplished and what I'm going to continue to do to reach my goal, but I think sometimes about the skin I'll have on my body that I will have to deal with (I can't afford a tummy tuck and it's not covered under my insurance..and besides I don't really want another abdominal surgery...I've had 4 for health reasons!). I already have a bit of a "apron"...is there anything I can do to help that area while I'm losing my weight? I think that is where my jeasoulsy is coming from.

I feel so bad feeling this way. I know it's not nice....
I felt I need to express it though so it wouldn't eat at me and I wouldn't sooth it with food.

Thanks for letting me be real with my feelings...feedback (you can be honest, but please be kind!) is welcome.

Susie

Hi Susie.. The boards have been really quiet ... good to see you back, I also have been cleaning up after the wrappings, but the tree still stands.. it is not dropping needles so I let it be...

In 1978 I gave birth to a baby, and he weighed almost 11 lb... and yeah, I got tummy over hang myself.... I try not to let it bother me but it does and I know my insurance will not pay for its removal. Its a bummer, but not much can do about it... I try to look ahead to the value of losing the excess weight.. lower blood pressure, less strain on joints ect.... I asked my doc about gastric by pass and do know several people who have had it. Most admit they would not do it again if given the choice.. It does seem unfair that insurance will pay for their skin repairs and not ours.

So keep going forward Susie...I am looking forward to the New Year and weight loss success... we are in this together.... India