Jen, I am sorry you were worring about your appointment. Don't let others keep you from reaching for the stars! You can do this. As Eleni said, take a wash cloth or hand towel. That is for you, not what others think!
By now I know you are past the first step, now on to the next one!

Before long you will see the #'s coming off and it will be so worth the effort.
We are here for you...
TOPS hugs,
Wanda