Ya, it was me....and.... Weigh to go Audri!!!
Oh gee, well, I actually had a good day yesterday food wise, and have been okay today. I think it was also in Womens Day that I read that losing 13 pounds would take 65 pounds of pressure off my knees and keep them from becoming more arthritic. You'ld think that or any number of other pieces of motivation would keep me going...I keep hoping. But gotta do more than hope!
I am such a good exerciser....really even when I wasn't doing my big time daily walks last winter when I had the foot problems, I still walked enough that when I was able to start again it was easy. I can even still jog a couple miles a day or two a week. so, that really tells you what a pig I've been that I've not lost weight. I've been walking at least 20 miles a week since school started in September and some extra stuff too...cardioglide, arms, abs... but eat, eat, eat. My friend that I walk with was saying how she is 138 and wants to lose 20, and I kinda made a "I wish" kinda comment...then she started in with the "you don't understand, it's so hard for me thing.... and I just lost it with her- kinda yelled that I do understand and it is just as hard for me or someone with 300 more to lose or an anorexic trying to get healthy, it is hard for all of us who are not happy with our bodies and torture ourselves with this day in and day out.

Well, I did appologise, and I think she forgave me my outburst although I don't think she really "got" what I was trying to say.
Anywho, I just must commit for the long haul, do this for me, fight the good fight, take control, quit cheating, quit whining and just do it. Dont' need a new month, week or morning. I just need to like myself enough to treat myself right. And I deserve it (flips hair in slow motion

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