Sigh. My butt kicking didn't last long enough. I'm suffering PMS mixed w/depression and eating everything that doesn't eat me 1st.
Stewart has been driving me nuts. He told me I was pathetic (strong word, IMO) on Monday because I didn't have his supper on the table when he got home--it was ready by the time he got out of the shower!!--and I didn't mow the yard (which didn't
look that bad
to me) or wash ALL of the laundry--I did four loads, including bed clothes.
So, I was SOOOOO GOOD yesterday! I went to class and did about an hour's worth of work in the library. Then I went to Sam's and bought food for him to take for lunch and to have for breakfast and snacks. Then I went home, washed all of the towels and underwear that had been thrown in the bathroom floor. Then I cleaned up and burned all the paper that had been piled on the table--you know, the credit card offers, empty envelopes where bills had been paid, etc., and burned the garbage. Then I picked up all of the stuff in my puppy's "chew pile" outside. Finally I cooked supper--sloppy joes and fried mushrooms.
Ok, by this point I was satisfied with my day. I did everything I had set out to do and the house and yard looked decent (oh, I mowed, too--even though I couldn't tell where the lawn mower had run except by the tire imprints). Stewart gets home. Do you even want to GUESS what the 1st words out of his mouth were????
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"I thought you'd cook spaghetti or hamburger helper so I'd have something to carry for lunch tomorrow. I'm getting tired of sandwiches." Then he asked me where the french fries (as in cut up potatoes, not Orieda's) were. I told him he had four bags of chips and he got mad and said that those were for his lunch and I should have known better.
I want Doritos and french onion dip. And a couple of banquet pot pies. And something else. Anything else that's edible. Maybe some brownies and ice cream.
Really I want to cry and throw in the towel. How do you live with someone who you can never please? I wish I could afford to move out on my own. I'm just so unhappy with my marriage right now.
I know (I hope) things will eventually get better--they always do--but then they just seem to slump again.
Anyway, I'm sorry I didn't post to everyone. I've been reading the thread every day and keeping up, just don't really feel "in there." if you know what I mean. I should've posted yesterday before my day "blew up," but I was at school and actually in a working mode and didn't want to play around too much.
Love you all,
Cheryl
P.S.--good thing this is no longer "No Whine Wednesday" 