Being awake at 7am on a Saturday morning... not my idea of a good time. I couldn't get back to sleep, so I decide to make the most of it. I turn on my new pink DS Lite (just came out on Wednesday, got it that day after looking all around town!) and played a game called Big Brain Academy. It's an educational game that helps improve your learning. You take tests to determine which areas of the mind (memory, analysis, computation, identifying, and thinking) you're good at, which ones you need improvement on, and how big your brain is based on how well you do. The better the grade, the bigger the brain! So, I play that for about 45 minutes.
I can't get off the promise ring my boyfriend gave me. I put it on last night (after having it on a chain around my neck because of work) and had not trouble getting it off if I wanted to. This morning, fingers swollen... I can't. Ugh.
I feel fat today. Everything seems to jiggle more than usual, my stomach feels bloated and it's not that time of the month. I know I need to weigh myself today, I always do when I have a day off or don't work until 8 or 9. I know what I need to do. I resist the urge to go to the kitchen and grab a cookie (delicious oatmeal cherry pecan chocolate chip cookies that I made night before last). I grudgingly saunter into my parents's bathroom to hit the scale.
I just know I've gained. I know it. I take off my clothes and step on. I close my eyes for a moment, dreading what I know the scale will say. Massive gains, I just know it. I've been a bad girl all week, despite how hard I've tried. I haven't been trying enough. All this going through my head, I take a deep breath and look down.
141.5. Down 1.6 pounds from Tuesday.
Elation. I want to celebrate! I turn around to see if it's really me in the mirror. Hmmm, I'm looking a bit better today than I did yesterday. One thing I've noticed is that, though smaller, my breasts are looking SO much better than they did at 180. 19 and saggy breasts NOT COOL! This is much more to my liking.
I'm hungry. Oh, I could grab a cookie now that I know I've not gained, but that would defeat the whole purpose. So, I grabbed a pluot (plum/apricot hybrid) and devoured it. Still hungry. I make myself a cup of tea, get myself a glass of water, and grab an almost-ripe banana. I see cookies and potato chips in the cabinet where the tea is. Pansies. They don't have muscles like me. They should work out and get a job other than making people fat, mmkay?
So here I sit, typing out this post, sipping my tea and getting ready to eat my banana. It looks very good. But my stomach hurts! I think it's a result of eating too much of my mom's chicken marsala last night. Gotta take some Pepto soon to help calm it down.
My UTI is doing better. I'm still running to the bathroom a lot, but at least now I have a reason. There's really stuff in my bladder than needs to get out. The cranberry products I've been consuming are helping out a lot.
Today will be a good day. I'll do one of my spanish audio CDs, some situps, walk around a little, and play video games. Somewhere in there I'll do laundry. Somewhere.
Long post, I know, but my boyfriend's not awake yet so I can't babble on to him about it
