off the wagon...
 

Hi all. Things are not good with me. I am more or less off all challenges. I tried to keep to them and maybe am still OK on crunch and sugar, but.....I've just got to get back on track. I seem to have been on a binge now for days. :cry: Really bad. But, I'm going to try to get back on track and back in control. I haven't been able to exercise much and this always seems to throw me into an eating panic...the worst thing to be doing when I'm NOT exercising. :nono: But, I will hope to be back here and reporting GOOD things! :yes:

mez! :wave: Welcome back!!! :sunny: SOO glad to see you!!!

Misti, so you are Dance??!?! :?: I just realized this. Different photo, different name....what goes? :lol:

girlie! You poor thing! :eek: Please get well soon! :hug:

Everyone else, a big hello and I'm sorry to be showing you the horrible side of me.... Please send me lots of healing waves of energy and whatever else may be good. I'll be back!

:kickcan:

Dont Fret Red ... we all have our bad days... thats what we are here for to try to keep each other motivated.. I started over myself... maybe its the alignment of the cosmos or something! lol things will swing back over to the up side just hang in there!!!

Challenge status:
1. 20 pushups and 100 crunches daily (level one) - Day 2 DONE!
2. Drink at least 60 oz. water daily (level one) - Day 2 DONE (as of 5 p.m.).
3. 30 minutes of exercise (cardio or yoga) on top of my walking to and from the subway (unless I walk for at least 2 hours) (level two) - on day 2 - I did 30 minutes on the elliptical yesterday evening.

Marbleflys - fitting back into the skinny clothes rocks! I have a pair of jeans that are my definitive goal - I don't fit in them yet, but am working on it!

Jolly - you got a personal trainer? It sounds as if that is going well - how many sessions do you have?

GirlieYorkie - feel better soon:hug: be sure to give yourself time to rest.

Red - we know our fearless leader will be back and cracking the whip in no time;) I know exactly what you mean about needed to get back on track and in control. I hope things look up for you.

Hey ladies!

Red and Yorkie feel better soon! Hang in there Red, everybody has downtime now and again.

I will be restarting all my challenges, probably on saturday - I have a major assignment breathing down my throat and all my energy needs to be on that for the next couple of days - that's not to say that I am giving myself license to binge!!!! Rather to say that I am giving myself license not to stress about food and such.

Until the weekend!!

Keep on Truckin!
Erin :carrot:

Fish are ya back in DC or in NY still?

I'm still in NY. I got to go home last Friday for a day and came back up here Sunday afternoon. Now I'm here non-stop through the 14th of April. :(

One of my girlfriends is coming up this Saturday, and my sister is coming up the following weekend, so it shouldn't be too bad.

The April Manifesto..a couple days early
 

Yeah, well, thanks chai, Fish, curly. I am afraid this is a more serious slump than most and I am extremely disgusted with myself and my life. It's like I have lost all desire to do the things I once did, such as eating well and exercising. Now, I'm lucky if eat any "real" food during the day. It's mostly because of work and the idiocy that goes on there. It's all too depressing and it really enrages me that I have to put up with this. Anyhow, that still shouldn't give me license to gorge, but I do. It's the response to being totally, totally unhappy.

I think I am going to just do something that is NOT so restrictive and specific for my challenges, and yes, I am restarting because I want to disassociate myself from the old. And, I am putting it all into one challenge because I am tired of splitting things up. I will keep a journal so I can evaluate my days and the challenge will be to notch 21 days over a possible 24 days (that means 3 pause days) that I feel have met the requirements of being "days that reflect who I am." Who am I? :?:

A "day reflecting me" would include:

1. the crunches (10 sets of 20): 2. some exercise that is more than just walking to the train station (and that doesn't mean a matter of a few minutes, but more prolonged); 3. eating healthful foods, preferably quite a bit of fresh vegetables, fruit and homemade curries, stews etc.; 4. staying away from processed foods and sugar-laden foods, but a little bit is ok; 5. not having evenings filled with endless pints of beer;

AND MOST IMPORTANTLY;

I will NOT lose track of who I am and will do the things that reflect that:

:sunny: I am athletic and strong, lean and toned and put in the work to stay (get) that way (whether I feel like it or not).
:sunny: I eat healthful foods and don't dump garbage into my body.
:sunny: I am a DOER not a TALKER. (spending hours in the bar, sitting around watching TV do not constitute "doing.")
:sunny: I have a mind that can get me out of the situations that oppress me and I will make use of it to do so.


Today, Thursday, March 30, is Day 1 of my new challenge!! :strong:

:cheer: Go RED :cheer: GO RED!

day 2

carbs 37
walking 2 miles,
1 hr at the gym

Hey Guys, I do apologize for my absence. I hope everyone is doing well. Hey Curly, Hey Fish, Love you, Red. Thanks for coming to find the "missing link". I will start with only one challenge until Monday and that will be 64 oz. of water as usual starting today. I'm going to chug it down because it doeasn't make me sick to do so and I am late starting but want to start today. So here's to another new beginning. Tia

Red - pity I am not at home or one of those free phone calls might be used to buck you up and belt you around a bit. Alas won't be home for another 10 days. Good luck to you in trying to find yourself again. Always horrible when a major part of your life (work) is either taking over or having a big downer on your psyche.
Please take the time out to help yourself and achieve those blue points made in your post. They are incredibly important and should be required practice for all of us.

Go RED

Thanks, Shad. I will take strength in knowing you would have liked to call. :hug: I really am going to try to do these things. I think a big part of the depression, the dejection, the feeling frustrated, humiliated and oppressed is because I am allowing it to work on my pysche. And I am allowing that because I am forgetting who I am and what I am capable of, whether others want me to realize my potential or not (and more often it is NOT).

Okay I was going to back out of the challenges thread because with school and everything I am not doing a good job of keeping track of what days I am on and everything. But Red is inspiration and so I will stick with this. NO more excuses or anything. So I will only do one challenge - simple to keep track of. My challenge is to drink my 64 oz of water a day. And today is day 1, proud to say I drank my servings.

Some of the frustration and depression may also be because you are allowing other people to push your buttons. Time to stand up straight and tall and say no more. Of course they don't won't you to realise the full potential within, just think what light it might show them as! :eek:

Also just remembered that I may have lost your phone numbers with the loss of the mobile and wallet. Just another frustration to colour my day. I think I can still find those numbers somewhere on a phone bill. But again that will wait until I go home.

Frustration is seeping in here as well, I have 100's of man hours of work to do and there just isn't 100's of man hours before training and go-live, unless of course I forget about eat, sleep, exercise, playing on the computer and talking to my mates and of course the fun bits don't even come into it. Chain me to the desk........ I can do this....... I can do this..... I can do this....:crazy:

Good evening, all.

Fish - I got 3 personal trainer and 3 nutrition sessions with the same person, who also happens to teach the circuit class I go to. Very good at kicking my bootie. Have fun with your guests, and I hope your last weeks go quickly. Will you be home for good then?

Erin - good luck. Tia, Welcome back. Curly - you do rock. Shad, and Aileigh - good to hear from you.

Red - from the sounds of it, I have visited the place you are at. probably on more than one occasion. I wish I could give you a hand to drag you out of that place. But you are right - ALWAYS remember your worth. YOu are a phenomonal woman. You can do this.

Day 9 - no :censored: and day 4- follow the menu, both challenges met. Menu challenge was tough. Due to work, lunch ran late, and came into close contact with other's fast food porn. Sooo tempting, as I had packed something for lunch which needed time to cook. Saved that for tomorrow, and picked up a healthy sandwich.

One moment at a time. That's all we can do. Be nice to yourselves. There are enough people who will try to tear you down. BE NICE!

Have a good night all :wave: