Summer Staerters 3-1-06
 

Thanks Laura

well gee there i went and posted on the Feb thread this a.m. thanks Laura & Melissa!
i am just NOT tracking well these days.
Ok what is up with the afternoon i wanna eat everything in sight urges??
Arrgh every afternoon between 3-4 i want to non stop EAT-
so i am diverting from food menu and had some smart pop popcorn but i measured it and made sure i only had 3 cups.
Then i decided to get on here and try to type out my urge to eat.
I can't wait to live in an area i don't have to drive 2 miles in order to take a nice walk - it will be good to walk and do yard work when the urge to eat hits and i'm NOT hungry.
I will be glad when Money stresses are over too - things will be a bit cheaper there - i also need to do a weekly menu there and stick to it so everyone is on the same page on who's cooking and what we are having.
see ya'll later!
p.s I read earlier that by march most have given up on weight loss & exercise-i like to think i am looking forward to spring and keep on going!
Sandi

i went 300 calories over what i planned yesterday so that was not good. grrr. today will be better!
breakfast (280)
yogurt (120)
granola (125)
jelly (35)
lunch (330)
luna bar (170)
prunes (60)
banana (100)
dinner/snack (685?)
not sure yet. depends on dh. but for now let's just say as a guess:
english muffin pizza (225)
2 tacos (300)
peanut butter (100)
prunes (60).........(1295?)
yes, i am a freak that eats plain peanut butter right off the spoon :devil:
but not nearly as freakish as some lady this guy at work told me about that has her frappuccino blended with heavy cream and topped with as much whipped cream as will possibly fit under the dome. maybe i have a dieter's mindset but that is disgusting. i actually feel kind of bad handing two chocolate scones and a 500 calorie drink to people that are already 75 pounds overweight. when are people going to wake up and realize it is not ok scarf down 2000 calories just like that? alright, enough of my :soap:

Ok I am a drip-I spelled starters wrong and I get to look at it all month lol. I just got off the phone with the caseworker and she is terminating the dependency for kate and I guess I am going to have to adopt logan now. I wish I could just do the third party thing because I do hold out hope that someday Kate will get clean and sober and be a mommy to her kids. She will never be able to keep any children she gives birth to now either. I guess the Daddy of Logan is Matt something and he has no interest in being a parent and I guess he has a pretty hefty criminal record too and he is out of the picture so if it weren't for me Logan would have no one. It is so sad since he is such a wonderful little boy! He so deserves everything!
Melissa

He has everything he needs it this world because of you Melissa. A real Mom who loves him and takes care of him, and 2 sisters and a big brother.
Laura

Hey Ladies!! Yeah, it's a new month!! I got on the scale this morning and almost fell over! It said 222!! That is 50 pounds gone!! :dizzy: WOW!!! I won't really believe it until it still says it come Monday, but I am still in shock!

I am going to try posting my food intake, but it will be what I have already eaten for the day, not what I will eat. I have found that it doesn't work for me. I never eat what I write down in advance!

Todays food(3/01)
Bfast-
tea w/1 tsp sugar, 1 tbsp milk
1 ww toast w/ICBINB
Snack-
orange
Lunch-
Reeses Caramel PB cup
2 Quaker rice cakes(I know, not a good lunch!!)
Dinner-
Lite caesar salad
Diet coke
Snack-
Ben & Jerrys Frozen Yogurt-GOOD STUFF!!


OOOHHHH---I got a new puppy! He is adorable!! He is a Corgi. My problem is-I cannot think of a name for the poor guy! If I can figure out this new camcorder, I will post a pic, and you all can help me out!

Well, it's bed time!! See ya in the morning!

Kathy

Great job Kathy! That is a great achievement! I like the name Waffles lol don't ask me why.

Ok didn't feel swell yet again and I think I am just going to have to break down and go see dr although that doesn't thrill me at all. I am kind of winging it here since I need to make up menus again and now I am even more anal about getting stuff done in the house since caseworker will be here on monday. I will get my menus done though if nothing else.

Breakfast
WW yogurt smoothie 1pt

Lunch
bologna sandwich 8pts
orange 1pt

Dinner
mexican caserole 6pts
big salad 0pts
2T dressing 2pts
1oz cheese 3pts
1/4c raisins 2pts
23pts of 26

Melissa

Well hello Ladies, thank god for a new month. I worked out at Curves yesterday and tonight I am getting on my Gazelle I can do 1 mile in 15 minutes, slowly working up to 10, I figure it will take a a couple weeks to do that.
My children suckered me in for a puppy a couple of weeks ago we called him Max, I searched the web for dog names and stil went witha plain Jane name, oh well it works. I have started slowly walking him only about 15 min just to get him used to the leash and the walking, I'm hoping in about 3 more weeks we willbe able to go for good long walks about an hour, that will help with the exercise cause he needs to walk. Well have to go make supper not sure what I'm making yet, i think I need to start making weekly menu's, do they really help??

OK some days i will post menus in advance and then there are days like today i just have to post what i ate - today was rough anyway - with a memorial service ( i really don't like open casket services) and you kinda run around and help whoever needs it. and tehn you have to be oh so quiet and the phone keeps ringing- then i had to go help oldest daughter move her stuff so she can get out of the crazy house she is in- she only lasted 2 weeks as a nanny- but in her defense the lady was too weird- would say one thing and then change it 10 minutes later. i should be worried about her and all oh my goodness what are you going to do and where are you going to live etc.. but i have enough on my plate and don't have enough energy to worry- she's been told you have to be out by the 18th- we are moving and you need to get it together. there are times i feel like a failure as a parent- :(
ok today I started off real good:
scrambled Egg whites and turkey bacon on Whole wheat toast
tea
Luna bar
banana
handful of baked lays
3 cups smart pop
handful of kashi heart to heart cereal
chocolate high protein slimfast drink
10 gummy bears( i counted)
orange
nachos made with baked tostitos, chili beans, salsa, FF sour cream, onions and lettuce
licked a teaspoon of peanut butter ( i am the same way candice)

I like the name waffles too- thats cute-
Melissa- i am sorry about kate - i keep praying she'll get it together soon maybe she hasn't hit rock bottom yet and needs that to pull herself out of it.
well i am off to make goodies for the bake sale for the school tomorrow
(and try NOT to lick anymore spoons :D

Sandi

i am sorry about kate melissa. but at least you don't have to worry about logan's situation anymore. he will have a safe and stable home, so that's good.
sounds like everyone is doing great food-wise. i have been hanging in there, but for some reason i have been starved for the past couple of days. i have been eating the same if not more than i usually do, but i have been really hungry, or maybe just wanting to eat. from overeating for so many years, it's hard for me to tell when i am acutally hungry and when i am just having a craving for something. i think my mistake was buying those cherry flavored prunes the other day. for some reason, they are a major trigger food me. i can eat a whole bag. i knew about this, so i bought a bag of snack packs, but i still couldn't stop craving them.
i am a freakshow. who ever heard of a prune binge?
here's my food for today..
breakfast (340)
yogurt (120)
granola (125)
jelly (35)
prunes (60)
lunch (325)
english muffin pizza (225)
tbsp peanut butter (100)
dinner
as usual, i have no idea. but probably tacos and frozen yogurt, and then maybe a frozen dinner when i get off work. i don't eat very healthy food these days. too lazy to cook. around 1400 calories total for the day is my goal. i stuck with my plan for yesterday pretty much, except i had more prunes and peanut butter. 220 extra calories. darn.

Well, aren't we all slacking today??? Okay, I've been slacking for days:shrug: I have no excuse! I have not been to Curves all week and I have only made it to the gym once. I went this morning and isn't it weird that you(me) put off exercising but then when you do it, you feel so good? I feel so much better about myself afterwords! Hopefully I will be able to get in tomorrow. Harley (10 yo dd) has softball tryouts in the morning and then.... I get to go meet some people who have a large, beautiful house (with a garage) that they might rent to us!!! I am so excited! Send prayers up that, God willing, we will get the house! I would SO love to have a garden this year, and there is so much room at the house!
I ate terrible yesterday-won't even post the disaster! Today was much better!
Bfast-
tea
1 ww toast w/ICBINB
1 scram. egg

Snack-
apple

Lunch-
1 ww bread w/pb
Smart Start cereal w/1% milk

Dinner-
Turkey
small serving of mashed potatoes w/gravy

Snack-
Light n Fit Vanilla Yogurt
9 Glasses of water

Gotta keep it up if I want to see 222 on the scale come Monday. TOM is here, so I don't want to step on the scale!

I think the puppy is going to be named Porky! He is a little porker!! Not sure yet though, is that terrible? Tomorrow I've had him for a week and he still isn't named!! I also like the name Makita-it means prince, don't know if hubby will go for that! His family was raised with dogs named Maggie, Pepper, Smiley, etc. Nothing real imaginative! My parents raised English Staffordshire Terriers(the short, wide, pitbulls) they all had names longer than mine!

Oh well, I am getting off track-who's track, I don't know!!! My tracks have never run straight, or next to each other!!:D

Have a great weekend ladies! And I will be back soon, I now have a new computer and FAST internet service!!! (Although if I move to the other house I will have to go back to slow dial-up:( ) OH WELL!

See ya!!
Kathy

Well I have no idea what the menu is today except that we are having bbq chicken, corn on the cob and salad but that only totals about 9 pts for the day. I guess for lunch I could do smoothie and piece of fruit. It still puts me way below dailie points. I just don't feel like eating much today which I guess is a good thing?? Still working on the house-I will be so glad when I don't have to worry about caseworkers ect. I guess dependency takes 6 months till completion which I like because it will give Katy another chance to come around. I still haven't heard anything out of her though. Laundry day so I guess you know I have alot to do lol. I would like to see that ticker go DOWN!
Melissa

It has been crazed!
 

I am not slacking HONEST!
I didn't get home till after 9:00 last night and i am still fighting this rotten cold/sinus/allergies whatever it is and they are making me nuts!
so i took nighty- night meds and :faint: all night
Ok i have decided that some days i can post in advance and other days i have to wing it-
like yesterday was : luna bar and a banana
slimfast High protien shake, apple,
Chick-fil-a GRILLED chicken sandwich, diet coke, smart pop popcorn
licked the wrapper from a chocolate pudding and then ate the chocolate pudding
today so far has been
WW toast w/ PB skim milk,
apple, ham wrap w/ veggies, baked lays, a handful of gold fish crackers, luna bar and dinner will be a burger with salad.

I am stressing over oldest daughter - she believes she has found a place in daytona to live near the BF and is in walking distance/ on the bus route to the mall/hospital/college etc. i hope it all works out- it sounds ok -but i gotta worry- no one ever told me it was this hard having older kids and letting them go not knowing if they are gonna be ok or not. at least living up there the busses run every 20 minutes unlike down her where we may get a bus every whenever they feel like running :D
i even made time to :ebike: thursday

well the bikers are in town- we have another week of busy roads, crazed locals trying to run over bikers and loud parties and half naked women. i like the bikers tho as they seem to be more friendly than the race fans.

well i will try to check in tomorrow- MY kitchen is ALL PACKED - except for what i have to have to function - it is either packed or GONE to good will or freecycle- my bedroom is almost done too- and my closets are BARE- can't find my kitchen tabel but i'm having a bit of fun now as opposed to stress over it all - still have room if someone wants to volunteer to come and help me pack:wink: (it's in the upper 70's and we're 5 minutes from the beach):D
:hug: have a great night all !
Sandi

Yes Ice weekly menus work. Not only does it save on the grocery bill but it also gives you an idea of what you will have ahead of time instead of waiting until starved and go for quick food.

Kathy I hope hope hope you get that place to rent. I can't imagine how it feels to not be sure where you are going to live and I say dialup is better than no up. Porky is cute name too btw.

Sandi adult kids are harder than young ones and it is because the control is gone that used to be there. When they are young, you moniter where they are what they do and can stop most all the silly stuff kids do and keep them safe but when they grow up, you have to most of the time just sit and watch and hope for the best. I know you aren't slacking-moving is a busy deal and I am impressed you managed to get on your bike!
Melissa

It was a joke!! ;) I wasn't really implying that any of ~you~ were slacking-JUST >>ME<<!!! And I still am:( Haven't been to Curves or the gym today. The girls are at the movies right now, so maybe when they get home I can talk them into watching McKenna and Sam while I go to the gym. I have ate OP all day though, so I am happy! Being stressed out over not knowing if we will get the house usually would send me to the food, but I REALLY want to see good numbers on the scale Monday. The lady said she will let me know either way sometime this evening.:crossed: Hubby and I have already talked about it though, and I will not get upset this time. It's not worth it. When we complain about our circumstances, we are complaining about what God has given us. All we can do is see what He provides for us! I see that in you Melissa! You very rarely complain about those precious children you've been given. You are such a strong woman! We all admire you so much!:grouphug:

My food for the day-
Bfast-smart start cereal w/1% milk, tea, small apple
Lunch-1 ww bread w/PB, handful of kids cereal
Dinner-Grilled chicken ceasar salad from McD, brought home and put my own FF dressing on it!! Diet coke
4.5 glasses of water so far
I will probably eat something later, it's only 5:17. I will try, though, to not eat after 8 pm!

Okay-puppy is now named "Trouble"! It's his favorite thing!! I still haven't got the camcorder out though! I still need to read the dang manual to figure out how to do the still pictures. I think I need to buy a bigger memory card though-any one know anything about this stuff??? It came with an 8MB. Someday I'll figure it out?:?:

Well, the movie is almost over, gotta go pick up the girls. I'll check back in if the people call about the house!

Kathy

I was kidding too! :) about slacking- really it was me feeling guilty for licking the pudding lid and then eating the pudding! - by saying i 'm not slacking i tried (and failed ) to convince myself it was ok to eat the pudding even tho it wasn't FF/SS

Kathy - prayers being sent for you to get this house!
Melissa- it's just so hard to "let" go altho i really like this BF maybe becasue he's older and has his act together.
dial up is better than nothing but after using MIL computer today it was SO AWESOME to use high speed! I was giddy with it and will prolly be on LOTS! I can even IM people as on high speed i don't get kicked off :carrot:
it doesn't take much to entertain me :) I love computers and high speed :lol:
tomorrow i am planning to eat ligt for brekfast & lunch as for dinner we are having a beautiful pork roast and potatoes and veggies and pork roast is a bit high on my list of "you shouldn't eat that" things.
well i am off to finish laundry before bed - have to help with the children's church tomorrow - and i am listing all the rest of my stuffs on ebay - thank goodness i don't have much more to sell- MIL & I now have a wholesale account with a doll company and may start selling dolls soon- i can't believe the markup!
:hug: to all !
Sandi

:carrot: :carrot: :carrot:
WE GOT THE HOUSE!!!!!
YEAH WE GET TO MOVE!!
Thanks for the prayers!!
:carrot: :carrot: :carrot:

OK, I haven't been OP very much this month so I started my food diary once again yesterday. Here's the damage.
Dove chocolate (small)-50 cal.
Turkey sandwich--300 cal.
Slim Fast Optima Drink-190 cal.
Slim Fast muffin bar--140 cal.
Popcorn--100 cal.
Ham Sandwich--325 cal.
cottage cheese & carbcontrol fruit salad--100 cal.
Slim fast muffin bar--190 cal.

Total calories--- 1345

44 oz water & ONLY 2 diet dews (a biggie for me).

I find that writing everything down as I eat it keeps me on track better. I don't do well planning menus as DH diet is so odd and I cook very little right now. I am addicted to the chocolate chip Slim Fast muffin bars. They are really good.

Fancy, So glad to hear you got the house!!!

Melissa, I'm sorry that Kate is not being an adult and taking care of her children. I am glad however that they are lucky enough to have you to step up and take care of them, they are very fortunate in that respect.

Sandi- keep it up! I'm with Melissa, I don't see how you found the time to exercise with all the packing you are doing. Good luck on the moving. I told my DH next time we move, we sell everything with the house, pack our suitcases and run for the hills!!! I HATE moving!!

I am still struggling with the same 4-5 pounds, they disappear for a few days then sneak back when I'm not watching. My goal this month is to break into onderland before my doc appt the end of the month.

I'm going to try to do an exercise dvd before going to bed. See you all later!!!

Suzette

Congrats to everyone on the progress we are making! Seems like we are doing a lot better this month!

WHOOHOO Kathy on the house!! That's awesome! I remember what a great feeling that is! CONGRATS!!

I'm having a good March so far except that it is dreary and SNOWING today. I am ready for spring! Llama shows start already in April and I am ready to get out there and get them groomed and working in the halter.

I am struggling to get along with my mother these past few weeks. She lives with us and I love her and usually we get along great but she has been so critical of me lately and every chance she gets she tries to get in some negative dig about the way I eat or my weight or how I don't buy my kids enough junk food or whatever else she can think of to try and make me feel bad about trying to keep myself and my family healthy. She is overweight and was trying to lose weight for a few weeks and had started exercising but now she has completely given it all up and I think instead has decided to try to make me feel like I am doing all the wrong things. I don't saying anything to her about what I eat or what she eats but she just won't leave me alone about it. I am just frustrated and tired of it and avoiding her just because I'm tired of defending myself about it.

Other than that, I am doing great food and exercise wise. Yesterday I went in to the school and ran 3 miles in 32 minutes and did 30 minutes on the elliptical. I had never used that machine before but I was impressed with the workout. This morning I did a couple of Denise Austin DVD's so I'm good for the day.

I think it's great that everybody is posting their menus! I usually don't think much ahead of time what I am going to have for meals (except that every Sunday night is homemade low fat pizza on whole wheat crust night...my favorite!). I do know that food planning and journalling and calorie counting really helps most people, though.

Things i have learned today:
I am too old to go out and play kickball with a bunch of 4-7 year olds
I am too outa shape to play kickball with them ( for now)
stepping in a hole & twisting one's ankle while running for a base hurts like HECK
cookies eaten on Sunday have no calories - especially if you break them apart before eating them ( all the calories leak out)
I am addicted to the new slimfast optima - high protein shakes

I need to go list things on ebay
i just wanted to check in and list my menus for today

scrambled egg whites w/ veggies
WW toast
too many chocolate cookies ( broken apart before eating)
tea
slimfast shake
dinnner will be pork roast , potatoes , squash and carrots

YAY! Kathy on the house!
I know Suzette- i am SO ready to just toss it all and forget about it- making decisions on what to keep is the hardest as we are down sizing so much- finding boxes isn't easy either and i am too cheap to buy them at 5.00 a piece.
sandi

Kathy that is sooooo wonderful about your house! One less thing to deal with now.

Believe me Sandi I know it is so very hard to let go. I still find myself even with all this mess trying to "fix" things for Katy. I still stop myself from trying to track her down and hopefully talk some sense into or have her ambushed for rehab. I will have to adopt Logan and it is just so final for Katy when that happens. No chance of being a mommy to him ever.

Misty good job starting food diary again. With the crazy way you work, I am amazed at what you accomplish. I know I would be a basket case most of the time.

Ok still kind of winging food as I have just been nuts trying to get the house back in regular order and my stupid vacuum is dieing-poor thing just is giving up the ghost.

Breakfast
packette of oatmeal

Lunch
hotdog w/bun
orange

Dinner
roast
red potato
salad
2T dressing
roll
2t butter

Hope I didnt' miss anyone and I am with you sandi about kickball and I think it is true about broken cookies too. lol
Melissa

I like the idea of the cookies LOL if it were only true I'd break eveything up :dizzy: .
March started off good, I went to Curves twice last week, :dancer: my butt of Friday, probablly had a couple to many cause i didnt get off the couch :headache: yesterday till 4:30, so I brought the kids skating to make up for being a lousy mom all day. I didnt skate but the fresh cold air was great. I am going to take the dog for walk after supper, the sun is out and shining beatifully. I have thought about getting out my old :belly: vidoes, after Friday night, a couple of us were talking about it, and I remember I did one move and my *** hurt for a week, so it worked. I have 4 vidoes, the intro which is the basic moves so you can do it, arms and abs, butt and thigh, and the work out, I figure if ia can do one every morn before work, then Curves 3 times a week after work plus taking my dog for a walk it will be lots. I just have to get off my butt. I KNOW I CAN DO IT, I JUST HAVE TO DO IT.
Well keep up the good work ladies.

I have been hiding out. It's a new week and I hope to do better than the last few days. Lots of distress with oldest and yougest sons. I am trying to stay away from their issues. They must solve their own problems and they are not asking for help, so I seem to just wait and worry. I think I'm using their problems as an excuse to not do what i need to do for me. As long as I am paralized by wait and worry, I get nothing done and I feel awful. So I need to change this behavior of mine. When I feel that everything is a mess, I eat because what's the point of wanting to lose all this fat, when I am a mess in every other way. I know it's unproductive thinking and I need to change. Writing it down here helps.
Food for today:
breakfast lunch after a 10:00 class at the training center
omelette with cheese and sausage
fruit
dinner is out tonight because we are going to the city to take my mom out so it will be my favorite cobb salad with shrimp.
snacks will be fruit.
Kathy _ I am glad yougot the house. Life with the kids is easier when everyone has a place to go to.
Melissa- Even tho you are adopting Logan, Katy might still recover and be a big part of his life. She is so young to lose it all and there is hope.
I'm glad to see there is energy in our group again. Spring is coming and it will help us all.
Laura

I ended up at urgent care yesterday afternoon and have a bad sprain w/ torn ligaments in my left ankle. - i thought a sprain WAS stretched/ torn ligaments- where's suzette she can tell me :) no more kickball for me! i wouldn't have gone normally but when i couldn't walk on it and it kept swelling and turning green & purple i got worried.

well kathy i hope your moving goes easier than mine- i am almost packed BUT oldest daughter still has her stuff in my living room and i have no room for my STUFF! i am going to ahve to be rude and tell her it needs to go - she has a place to live now and just needs a job so she can get it together this time.

i am so close to being ready to move- i am so tired of my house being a mess-
it's a somewhat organized mess but still.
I ran into an old GF this a.m. and found out she is now living 4 blocks from where i am moving and she wants to walk too so i will have another walking buddy.
I am eating good - most days-just not exercising and now being on crutches for the next week isn't helping either.
food today: slimfast optima shake
banana
lunch is a tossed salad w/ tuna
apple
dinner will be i have no idea at this time-
if i get hungry i will have a luna bar or popcorn.

Sandi

Just popping on real quick-Michelle will be here soon and I am just not worrying anymore about how things look. Hard when the caseworker is so young and has no children-they just have no idea and have very high expectations ect. I have to admit though she is a really nice gal. All the kids are bathed and smelling pretty, dishes done, floors swept or vacuumed and now I am ready for a stinking nap lol.

Sorry to hear about your crutches! This is not the best time for that to happen considering moving day is getting closer and you are not being a meany asking daughter to get her stuff. I am going thru that too with mine. I have been waiting to hear from her so I could tell her. She has a week to get it or I am taking it all down to goodwill-I just haven't been able to talk to her at all.

I know dinner is waffles-Odessa asked for them and every now and then I make them a breakfast dinner. I had a smoothie at breakfast and a roll with butter at lunch time-these kind of days are hard when I am trying to make a good impression LOL.

Will be back later
Melissa

Sandi- be careful with a torn ligament. Do your best to let it heal.
I have a new idea for us. How about if we each post one excuse we use to eat. Just one each so we can react to each other and then if we wish we can each post another.
My number one excuse is stress. (I have lots of others)
When I am totally stressed I feel 2 things. One is I need the food to feel better, and the other is -why not, I'm an emotional wreak, failure, mess etc. so what difference does it make if I am fat too?
Laura

Sandi---I have had that same injury when I was in High school!! I stepped in a groundhog hole while chasing my cousin (I was going to knock him into next week). The only fun that came out of it was watching when the class bully tried to push me off my crutches saying I was faking it. I unwrapped my purple, green & black ankle that was the size of a softball and watched HIM turn green, he ran to the bathroom & threw up. For some reason he never bothered me again, go figure!! So, take care of your ankle, let it have time to heal, (think of yourself as the queen ordering her subjects to do her slightest whim. Work it girl!)

Ok Laura, my #1 eating excuse is feeling to tired to make something good to eat. Why not just go through a drive thru.

Melissa, I know everything went fine for you. Michele must know that you are the best thing those children have in their lives.
Now for the food diary.

Sunday
Chicken carbonera--530 cal.
yogurt--100 cal.
WW cake with SF pudding--280 cal.
Slim fast shake--190 cal.
Slim fast muffin--140 cal.
Dove choc poece--50 cal.

Total calories--1290.

Monday--
Cheese bite ---50 cal.
2 yogurts--200 cal.
Slimfast muffin--140 cal
Ham sandwich--325 cal.
That is all so far today. I may have some more of the carb control fruit salad later, about 90 cal. So far today I just haven't been hungry but have tried to make myself eat a little something ever so often so that I don't get that famished feeling.
I really need to start exercising and get the flabby arms and thighs toned up. I am going to the beach this year, I wouldn't go last year because of my weight. NOT this year!!!

well that's my chapter for today!

Have good night everyone,
Suzette

congrats on the house kathy! that's awesome :D
i'm sorry about you ankle sandi.. hope you're feeling better soon. :(
i think my main excuse to eat these days is i feel like it, and can make up for it later. like, it's the weekend, i'll do better on monday. or monday, it's a long day, i need to eat more.. etc. i need to focus on being op everyday. i won't eat less tomorrow to make up for today. i'll probably eat more, because i will slowly develop a habit of eating more, and when i don't need to.
what i ate today so far..
breakfast (if you can call it that, at 3:30 a.m.)
yogurt and granola (225)
snack (280)
luna bar (180)
peanut butter (100)
lunch (550)
chicken burrito (500)
nibbles :devil: (50, i guess)
dinner (590)
proably a ravioli bake or tacos (350 or 300)
maybe wine also (240)
not a good day, but it is including many more hours than usual. tomorrow i will sleep late and eat less (see what i mean??)

Carrie-I do that too-I'll make up for it tomorrow or the next day and of course that never happening because it's impossible to do.
i don't do the drive thru because I just don't do fast food anymore. But I do take the quick way out and waste my calories on ice cream or a grilled cheese sandwich which leaves me hungry and wanting more. Lots of nights I just don't want to make yet another meal, mess up the kitchen and spend an hour making something that is gone in 5 minutes, and takes another 1/2 hour to clean up. I would like to have a permanent salad bar set up in my kitchen and the kitchen fairy would just keep loading it up and cleaning up.
Laura

lol laura. when i worked in a cafeteria, the thing i dreaded the most at closing time was the possibility of being assigned to close down the salad bar. if only there had been a kitchen fairy where i used to work! :lol:
i did find a good alternative to the whole salad bar/cleaning up the kitchen thing, although i haven't done it in awhile.. i used to chop up everything for a couple days of salad at once and mix everything in tupperware bowls (with some lime wedges for freshness, and no dressing.) i had salad all the time, because it was already there in the fridge. but then it got too hard to even do that two times a week or so. grr. i am so lazy!

I used to do that too. It was fun for the kids. I would put out bowls of cut up stuff and they would take what they wanted. Now I try to make enough salad for 2 nights and put one in a zip lock where it all gets gooey.
When I win the lottery, the first thing I get is a chef.
Laura

me too! a chef would be lovely esp. one who does dishes :)
I hope this doesn't upset anyone- my GF sent it to me and thought it was too funny

I thought i would pass on this Interesting Psychological Fact...

A study conducted by UCLA's Department of Psychiatry
Has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds
attractive on a man can differ depending on where she
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Further studies in this area have been cancelled.


food today is not worth mentioning- i am so upset & stressed i don't want to eat - theres a first- not even hungry at all.
i'll prolly lose it later and eat everything in sight
:hug: to all
Sandi

Sandi I luved that,it is so true LOL.
well yesterday I walked 2 km, ate, a pair, jumbo hotdog, half order of onion rings, for supper was a pork stirfry, then I had some crackers with speg sauce ham and cheese, for snack.
today I had 1/2 a subway melt lots of lettuce, 2 beef baritos** just hamburg,bbq sauce, wrapped in a fahita** with melted cheese on top, and for a snack I m gonna have a apple.
I went to Curves today and another 2 km walk.
omg I just re-read what I ate no wonder, for sure it must help to see it in black and white, I have go to do better. Oh well can't change the past only work on the future.
Take care ladies.

ROFLMBO! NO wonder I feel the way I do-it isn't my fault ROFL! Very hectic day today as I had to be at an IEP meeting for josh at 9a this morning. I pulled up and then there were cop cars and I am like ok what did I do??? Well it was a kid in josh's class in crisis and it was so bad the cops had to be called. I said a quick prayer for the parents and the little boy too. I was relieved that I knew Josh wasn't at school yet so it couldn't be him. Meeting ran long but it was a really good one and she will be josh's teacher next year too and so from now till end of next year we have to try and get him ready for middle school. It just doesn't seem possible he will be 10 in july! So my day is all thrown off and I didn't make the best choices.

Meeting with michelle went really well yesterday too and she was amazed at how much he has grown. Amazing what getting 3 squares a day will do for a kid. It looks like he will be completely mine probably in sept or oct by the time all the red tape is done. How weird is this-I am my son's grandmother when this adoption is done. Boggles the mind.

Off to find the kitchen again and hopefully read to josh a bit too. Need to find out how the kids get away from Count Olaf this time!
Melissa

ooooo:carrot: Kashi has a new cereal out and it is YUMMY
it's the heart to heart w/ blueberries -publix had it this week BIGIF- i could eat it all day ;)

I still have no appetite- i think for once the upset and tension has really gotten to me and i just don't wanna eat- this is a first for me - usually i grab whatever is in sight and eat until i am miserable. but i haven't been hungry these past two days.

I think my #1 excuse is because of "stress" - either real or imagined i feel food will make me happier and it's my friend -when i know it isn't going to fix anything and i know it won't make me happier - the "wrong" foods will only make me fatter. but i don't process the logic when i am stressed.

yesterday i had a slimfast and a luna bar, banana & at night i had some chicken and noodles- the only reason i do the slimfast high protein is becasue i am a chocolate junkie and it has lots of fiber, vitamins and protein so i don't feel like i am cheating on chocolate.

today i've had a bowl of the new kashi and skim milk and a banana- have no idea what to have for lunch today- dinner will be salsbury Steaks( made w/ ground turkey) & veggies.

sandi

Sandi- I so agree with you about eating because it will make you feel better and not processing the results. That says it all.
This might sound like a cliche but now that i am working out I am seeing my body much more and not hating it as much, and therefore being more aware of abusing it by eating crap or too much. I feelbetter, I can move easier and I can see some small changes all of which are helping me from falling too far off OP. After so many years of avoiding mirrors and wearing big shirts and hiding out, i am forced to look, and I know there are some things that will never change, like scars and blue veins, but there is hope.
This post sounds very toudhy feely gooey, but it's true.
On excuses- Another excuse I use for eating too much is hopelessness. It will take too long, it's too hard, so just eat.
Laura
Laura

Today's food
Omelette with sausage and cheese and veggies
frozen fruit bar
yogurt and frozen mango shake
I can't think about dinner yet.
Laura

i agree with the hopelessness- it seems i will never make strides - i will never lose this weight - and on and on and on- BUT then i see how far some of us have come and i think i am so whiny- i don't have so much to lose- so i need to get off my butt and move- (as soon as foot/ankle heals)and just do it.
and no your post is just fine- very honest and true.
Melissa- :hug: to you- Logan will be a well cared for & loved little boy-he will have a loving family to help him and be there for him- we can still pray kate shapes up and be a good part of his life. and i adore the lemony snicket books- they are great!
Ice- i know when i first wrote down what i was eating in a day it was sad- i was like i ATE THAT??? my eating is good but i am not exercising at all and that isn't helping me at all- i am not gaining but i am not losing either.

oh well -on to rest ankle and chill till dinner

Well I am totally bummed. It looks like I am going to be moving after all. My rent will be doubling if I stay here and there is just no way I can do it that I can see anywhere. I would like to just go to bed right now. House hunting with all the kids packing ect-ugh! I am not sure what I am going to do really.
Melissa

Oh my Melissa, just what you need. How much time do youhave to find a place?
Laura