I was kidding too! :) about slacking- really it was me feeling guilty for licking the pudding lid and then eating the pudding! - by saying i 'm not slacking i tried (and failed ) to convince myself it was ok to eat the pudding even tho it wasn't FF/SS

Kathy - prayers being sent for you to get this house!
Melissa- it's just so hard to "let" go altho i really like this BF maybe becasue he's older and has his act together.
dial up is better than nothing but after using MIL computer today it was SO AWESOME to use high speed! I was giddy with it and will prolly be on LOTS! I can even IM people as on high speed i don't get kicked off :carrot:
it doesn't take much to entertain me :) I love computers and high speed :lol:
tomorrow i am planning to eat ligt for brekfast & lunch as for dinner we are having a beautiful pork roast and potatoes and veggies and pork roast is a bit high on my list of "you shouldn't eat that" things.
well i am off to finish laundry before bed - have to help with the children's church tomorrow - and i am listing all the rest of my stuffs on ebay - thank goodness i don't have much more to sell- MIL & I now have a wholesale account with a doll company and may start selling dolls soon- i can't believe the markup!
:hug: to all !
Sandi

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WE GOT THE HOUSE!!!!!
YEAH WE GET TO MOVE!!
Thanks for the prayers!!
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OK, I haven't been OP very much this month so I started my food diary once again yesterday. Here's the damage.
Dove chocolate (small)-50 cal.
Turkey sandwich--300 cal.
Slim Fast Optima Drink-190 cal.
Slim Fast muffin bar--140 cal.
Popcorn--100 cal.
Ham Sandwich--325 cal.
cottage cheese & carbcontrol fruit salad--100 cal.
Slim fast muffin bar--190 cal.

Total calories--- 1345

44 oz water & ONLY 2 diet dews (a biggie for me).

I find that writing everything down as I eat it keeps me on track better. I don't do well planning menus as DH diet is so odd and I cook very little right now. I am addicted to the chocolate chip Slim Fast muffin bars. They are really good.

Fancy, So glad to hear you got the house!!!

Melissa, I'm sorry that Kate is not being an adult and taking care of her children. I am glad however that they are lucky enough to have you to step up and take care of them, they are very fortunate in that respect.

Sandi- keep it up! I'm with Melissa, I don't see how you found the time to exercise with all the packing you are doing. Good luck on the moving. I told my DH next time we move, we sell everything with the house, pack our suitcases and run for the hills!!! I HATE moving!!

I am still struggling with the same 4-5 pounds, they disappear for a few days then sneak back when I'm not watching. My goal this month is to break into onderland before my doc appt the end of the month.

I'm going to try to do an exercise dvd before going to bed. See you all later!!!

Suzette

Congrats to everyone on the progress we are making! Seems like we are doing a lot better this month!

WHOOHOO Kathy on the house!! That's awesome! I remember what a great feeling that is! CONGRATS!!

I'm having a good March so far except that it is dreary and SNOWING today. I am ready for spring! Llama shows start already in April and I am ready to get out there and get them groomed and working in the halter.

I am struggling to get along with my mother these past few weeks. She lives with us and I love her and usually we get along great but she has been so critical of me lately and every chance she gets she tries to get in some negative dig about the way I eat or my weight or how I don't buy my kids enough junk food or whatever else she can think of to try and make me feel bad about trying to keep myself and my family healthy. She is overweight and was trying to lose weight for a few weeks and had started exercising but now she has completely given it all up and I think instead has decided to try to make me feel like I am doing all the wrong things. I don't saying anything to her about what I eat or what she eats but she just won't leave me alone about it. I am just frustrated and tired of it and avoiding her just because I'm tired of defending myself about it.

Other than that, I am doing great food and exercise wise. Yesterday I went in to the school and ran 3 miles in 32 minutes and did 30 minutes on the elliptical. I had never used that machine before but I was impressed with the workout. This morning I did a couple of Denise Austin DVD's so I'm good for the day.

I think it's great that everybody is posting their menus! I usually don't think much ahead of time what I am going to have for meals (except that every Sunday night is homemade low fat pizza on whole wheat crust night...my favorite!). I do know that food planning and journalling and calorie counting really helps most people, though.

Things i have learned today:
I am too old to go out and play kickball with a bunch of 4-7 year olds
I am too outa shape to play kickball with them ( for now)
stepping in a hole & twisting one's ankle while running for a base hurts like HECK
cookies eaten on Sunday have no calories - especially if you break them apart before eating them ( all the calories leak out)
I am addicted to the new slimfast optima - high protein shakes

I need to go list things on ebay
i just wanted to check in and list my menus for today

scrambled egg whites w/ veggies
WW toast
too many chocolate cookies ( broken apart before eating)
tea
slimfast shake
dinnner will be pork roast , potatoes , squash and carrots

YAY! Kathy on the house!
I know Suzette- i am SO ready to just toss it all and forget about it- making decisions on what to keep is the hardest as we are down sizing so much- finding boxes isn't easy either and i am too cheap to buy them at 5.00 a piece.
sandi

Kathy that is sooooo wonderful about your house! One less thing to deal with now.

Believe me Sandi I know it is so very hard to let go. I still find myself even with all this mess trying to "fix" things for Katy. I still stop myself from trying to track her down and hopefully talk some sense into or have her ambushed for rehab. I will have to adopt Logan and it is just so final for Katy when that happens. No chance of being a mommy to him ever.

Misty good job starting food diary again. With the crazy way you work, I am amazed at what you accomplish. I know I would be a basket case most of the time.

Ok still kind of winging food as I have just been nuts trying to get the house back in regular order and my stupid vacuum is dieing-poor thing just is giving up the ghost.

Breakfast
packette of oatmeal

Lunch
hotdog w/bun
orange

Dinner
roast
red potato
salad
2T dressing
roll
2t butter

Hope I didnt' miss anyone and I am with you sandi about kickball and I think it is true about broken cookies too. lol
Melissa

I like the idea of the cookies LOL if it were only true I'd break eveything up :dizzy: .
March started off good, I went to Curves twice last week, :dancer: my butt of Friday, probablly had a couple to many cause i didnt get off the couch :headache: yesterday till 4:30, so I brought the kids skating to make up for being a lousy mom all day. I didnt skate but the fresh cold air was great. I am going to take the dog for walk after supper, the sun is out and shining beatifully. I have thought about getting out my old :belly: vidoes, after Friday night, a couple of us were talking about it, and I remember I did one move and my *** hurt for a week, so it worked. I have 4 vidoes, the intro which is the basic moves so you can do it, arms and abs, butt and thigh, and the work out, I figure if ia can do one every morn before work, then Curves 3 times a week after work plus taking my dog for a walk it will be lots. I just have to get off my butt. I KNOW I CAN DO IT, I JUST HAVE TO DO IT.
Well keep up the good work ladies.

I have been hiding out. It's a new week and I hope to do better than the last few days. Lots of distress with oldest and yougest sons. I am trying to stay away from their issues. They must solve their own problems and they are not asking for help, so I seem to just wait and worry. I think I'm using their problems as an excuse to not do what i need to do for me. As long as I am paralized by wait and worry, I get nothing done and I feel awful. So I need to change this behavior of mine. When I feel that everything is a mess, I eat because what's the point of wanting to lose all this fat, when I am a mess in every other way. I know it's unproductive thinking and I need to change. Writing it down here helps.
Food for today:
breakfast lunch after a 10:00 class at the training center
omelette with cheese and sausage
fruit
dinner is out tonight because we are going to the city to take my mom out so it will be my favorite cobb salad with shrimp.
snacks will be fruit.
Kathy _ I am glad yougot the house. Life with the kids is easier when everyone has a place to go to.
Melissa- Even tho you are adopting Logan, Katy might still recover and be a big part of his life. She is so young to lose it all and there is hope.
I'm glad to see there is energy in our group again. Spring is coming and it will help us all.
Laura

I ended up at urgent care yesterday afternoon and have a bad sprain w/ torn ligaments in my left ankle. - i thought a sprain WAS stretched/ torn ligaments- where's suzette she can tell me :) no more kickball for me! i wouldn't have gone normally but when i couldn't walk on it and it kept swelling and turning green & purple i got worried.

well kathy i hope your moving goes easier than mine- i am almost packed BUT oldest daughter still has her stuff in my living room and i have no room for my STUFF! i am going to ahve to be rude and tell her it needs to go - she has a place to live now and just needs a job so she can get it together this time.

i am so close to being ready to move- i am so tired of my house being a mess-
it's a somewhat organized mess but still.
I ran into an old GF this a.m. and found out she is now living 4 blocks from where i am moving and she wants to walk too so i will have another walking buddy.
I am eating good - most days-just not exercising and now being on crutches for the next week isn't helping either.
food today: slimfast optima shake
banana
lunch is a tossed salad w/ tuna
apple
dinner will be i have no idea at this time-
if i get hungry i will have a luna bar or popcorn.

Sandi

Just popping on real quick-Michelle will be here soon and I am just not worrying anymore about how things look. Hard when the caseworker is so young and has no children-they just have no idea and have very high expectations ect. I have to admit though she is a really nice gal. All the kids are bathed and smelling pretty, dishes done, floors swept or vacuumed and now I am ready for a stinking nap lol.

Sorry to hear about your crutches! This is not the best time for that to happen considering moving day is getting closer and you are not being a meany asking daughter to get her stuff. I am going thru that too with mine. I have been waiting to hear from her so I could tell her. She has a week to get it or I am taking it all down to goodwill-I just haven't been able to talk to her at all.

I know dinner is waffles-Odessa asked for them and every now and then I make them a breakfast dinner. I had a smoothie at breakfast and a roll with butter at lunch time-these kind of days are hard when I am trying to make a good impression LOL.

Will be back later
Melissa

Sandi- be careful with a torn ligament. Do your best to let it heal.
I have a new idea for us. How about if we each post one excuse we use to eat. Just one each so we can react to each other and then if we wish we can each post another.
My number one excuse is stress. (I have lots of others)
When I am totally stressed I feel 2 things. One is I need the food to feel better, and the other is -why not, I'm an emotional wreak, failure, mess etc. so what difference does it make if I am fat too?
Laura

Sandi---I have had that same injury when I was in High school!! I stepped in a groundhog hole while chasing my cousin (I was going to knock him into next week). The only fun that came out of it was watching when the class bully tried to push me off my crutches saying I was faking it. I unwrapped my purple, green & black ankle that was the size of a softball and watched HIM turn green, he ran to the bathroom & threw up. For some reason he never bothered me again, go figure!! So, take care of your ankle, let it have time to heal, (think of yourself as the queen ordering her subjects to do her slightest whim. Work it girl!)

Ok Laura, my #1 eating excuse is feeling to tired to make something good to eat. Why not just go through a drive thru.

Melissa, I know everything went fine for you. Michele must know that you are the best thing those children have in their lives.
Now for the food diary.

Sunday
Chicken carbonera--530 cal.
yogurt--100 cal.
WW cake with SF pudding--280 cal.
Slim fast shake--190 cal.
Slim fast muffin--140 cal.
Dove choc poece--50 cal.

Total calories--1290.

Monday--
Cheese bite ---50 cal.
2 yogurts--200 cal.
Slimfast muffin--140 cal
Ham sandwich--325 cal.
That is all so far today. I may have some more of the carb control fruit salad later, about 90 cal. So far today I just haven't been hungry but have tried to make myself eat a little something ever so often so that I don't get that famished feeling.
I really need to start exercising and get the flabby arms and thighs toned up. I am going to the beach this year, I wouldn't go last year because of my weight. NOT this year!!!

well that's my chapter for today!

Have good night everyone,
Suzette

congrats on the house kathy! that's awesome :D
i'm sorry about you ankle sandi.. hope you're feeling better soon. :(
i think my main excuse to eat these days is i feel like it, and can make up for it later. like, it's the weekend, i'll do better on monday. or monday, it's a long day, i need to eat more.. etc. i need to focus on being op everyday. i won't eat less tomorrow to make up for today. i'll probably eat more, because i will slowly develop a habit of eating more, and when i don't need to.
what i ate today so far..
breakfast (if you can call it that, at 3:30 a.m.)
yogurt and granola (225)
snack (280)
luna bar (180)
peanut butter (100)
lunch (550)
chicken burrito (500)
nibbles :devil: (50, i guess)
dinner (590)
proably a ravioli bake or tacos (350 or 300)
maybe wine also (240)
not a good day, but it is including many more hours than usual. tomorrow i will sleep late and eat less (see what i mean??)

Carrie-I do that too-I'll make up for it tomorrow or the next day and of course that never happening because it's impossible to do.
i don't do the drive thru because I just don't do fast food anymore. But I do take the quick way out and waste my calories on ice cream or a grilled cheese sandwich which leaves me hungry and wanting more. Lots of nights I just don't want to make yet another meal, mess up the kitchen and spend an hour making something that is gone in 5 minutes, and takes another 1/2 hour to clean up. I would like to have a permanent salad bar set up in my kitchen and the kitchen fairy would just keep loading it up and cleaning up.
Laura

lol laura. when i worked in a cafeteria, the thing i dreaded the most at closing time was the possibility of being assigned to close down the salad bar. if only there had been a kitchen fairy where i used to work! :lol:
i did find a good alternative to the whole salad bar/cleaning up the kitchen thing, although i haven't done it in awhile.. i used to chop up everything for a couple days of salad at once and mix everything in tupperware bowls (with some lime wedges for freshness, and no dressing.) i had salad all the time, because it was already there in the fridge. but then it got too hard to even do that two times a week or so. grr. i am so lazy!