Goodmorning. I've been having this funny thing, I go to sleep around 11:30-12 and sleep completely soundly until 10:45. That is a LOT of sleep! However, I did notice I had a cold coming along yesterday, and thats all gone. So I guess it was worth it. I normally wake up in the night though.. who knows.

Claire - depending on where you live, I get this cheese from Superstore (totally Canadian thing), it's a low fat marble cheese, which I find is easy on the stomach and way less calories Lunch ideas? Steamed veggies and grilled chicken breast? Fajitas? If you use chicken breast, low fat cheese, TONS of veggies and a whole wheat wrap, its fairly low in fat. I LOVE America's Next Top model! Have you seen Tyra's talk show? It can be lame, or sometimes it's good.

Kimberley - whats novacaine? When I got my wisdom teeth pulled they froze my mouth, or attempted to, the freezing didn't last and they had to keep stopping to refreeze, it took nearly 3 hours to pull 4 uncomplicated teeth. Afterwards I was given 3 types of pills to take, 2 pain killers and 1 antibiotic, I had a pretty rough reaction and was told to stop taking everything, and to take extra strength tylenol and thats ALL. Phew, that was painful,heh. There is nothing wrong with posting all about yourself silly.. I'm sure we've all done it?

Marge - 13 days to go! I am pretty excited, a lot of my friends are jealous, which bothers me. The one girl who is being the worst won't stop.. but her parents have bought her a house, a car, pay for all her gas, and have paid for 99% of her schooling (and she's been in school for YEARS, 7+). So I get 5 weeks off paid, I'd trade with her! *rolls eyes* poor girl. Are you going to stay with your Aunt or still do the B&B thing?

Well today I'm supposed to hang out with a friend... however when I spoke with her yesterday she'd completely forgotten about the plans. And she hasn't called today yet, so my back upplan is to walk to the mall and meet Josh after work, and watch a movie tonight. Perhaps I'll do an exercise video today as well. I've noticed my knee has been bothering the longer this darn toe is sore, so I must be adjusting my walking. Anyways.. I am off! Have a good one!

-Aimee

Novacaine is the numbing drug injected into the mouth; it's a local anesthetic. My grandpa used to get fillings without any numbing. Not me, no siree! The dentist said he has quite a few older patients who don't want to be numbed. *Shudder*

I am swearing off women!!! My friend did indeed ditch me... and she JUST called me back to let me know she can't see me until after she's done with the friend she's with now. This is the same friend she spent the entire weekend with last weekend, which in itself isn't bad... but I don't think he (he's gay, not a bf) is going away for 5 weeks. So, how bad would I be to not answer MY phone until I feel not so bitter and pissed that she wouldn't let me know LAST NIGHT that she couldn't do anything until late. I just dislike people making plans with me, and then breaking them without telling me, and just leave me hanging. I have 2 days off until I leave, I could have maybe seen some of my other friends in this time... UGH! This is why I just don't have friends! I definitely know how to pick 'em..

Anyways! Thats my rant.. I guess I could work away at my todo list..

Kimberley - see, I told you... we all make completely self centered posts

-Aimee

Aww, Aimee, that sucks. What a *****. I hate people like that (I know someone like that). I try not to make plans with them too often. I have indeed seen the Tyra Show - sometimes it's boring, sometimes it's going.

I am bored today, so I have nothing to say.

Claire - I think I take the cake for being bored... I am actually moving furniture around and cleaning under it. Uh huh.. it's sad!

I've been exploring the whole world of ethnic music... I found one fairly catchy song... "temptation" by Arash. Also, a good one is Shakira & Alejandro Saenz -La Tortura. I have to load up my ipod before I head to Seattle.. it will be 5 weeks with no music added to it... so I am onthe quest for TONS of music. You guys know any good ones? I like pretty much everything.. from rap, to pop, country... yah I'm weird! And I am off to vacuum!

-Aimee

Aimee, maybe that chick should go closer to the bottom of your list. Not all of us women are so bad, heh heh. I'm staying with my aunt. Her one daughter lives with her husband in Georgetown, and the other lives nearby. They're both my age, which is cool. It's kind of a bummer Rob won't be there. He met them all at my aunt's son's wedding a few years ago and got along really well.

Hey, have you ever heard of Putumayo? Rob used to work for them.

Have a good one.

I couldn't abide a friend who did stuff like that, either.

I'd flat out tell her that you enjoy her company a lot, but her behavior makes you feel sad, like you're unimportant in her life. She might respond better to it with you concentrating more on how you feel when she blows off plans. Keep your tone matter-of-fact, not flip, but not pitiful. Know what I mean?

I did something even more horrible than anyone can imagine! She called at like 5:30, and I called her back (missed the call by accident), she said she was coming over, and I said no. I needed to shower but I'd call her when I was done.. I called her at 6:20. She came over, we sat around for a bit, and then she asked Josh and I what was for dinner... so we cooked for her, chickn fajitas. And here's the bad thing I did... she asked if I would miss her while I was gone, and I said... I'll probably be too busy to miss you. Wow, I am kinda mean. She was hurt I imagine, and refuses to talk to me today. I was pissed though.. and just wasn't ready to talk about it yesterday.

Thats my story...

I have to run ... gotta get there before it closes! BBL!

-Aimee

Oooooh, ouch. It's better to talk and tell her why you were upset, and why you said what you did, and do it before you leave. No sense to let it eat at either of you or to escalate.

I second Kimberley's statement. If this friendship is one you want to salvage, you definitely want to do this. Even if you don't, it is the human thing to do to apologize.

I spent all day with Alan at his parent's house helping Alan and his dad erect a steel building. I was up and down a ladder quite a bit, while Alan was riding in the bucket of his dad's loader. (They live out in the country.) I took some pics with Alan's camera--will post when I get them from him.

Hey, Aimee, that's not as horrible as I can imagine. Considering the level of this chica, I'd say to tell her you were anxious about going away so long and didn't mean to hurt her feelings. I think she might not be ready to handle it where you two talk about real feelings. That's just my take and opinion on it. Not knowing her personally. Why keep making yourself emotionally vurnable to someone who isn't earning that privilege.

I don't know that I will have time to miss her, seeing as I'll likely talk to her every single day that I'm gone. I hate to think whats going to happen when she wants to come visit and I say no... perhaps it's selfish, but this is a vacation AWAY for me. I have crap to sort out, and need to stay on track, both physically and mentally.. her being there will just shove that all out the window. Should I apologize? Probably... but why do I ALWAYS have to be the better damn person? One time I finally spilled my guts to her how I was feeling, I was having a hard day, weight-wise. When I was done pouring my heart out, she replied, "what am I supposed to say to that". I keep supporting her (sometimes even financially when she makes more than me and has 1 bill), and I get no kind of support back. And WHO asks to borrow a discontinued, personalized 400 dollar ipod mini and gets upset when I say no??? Wow.. I could go on and on.. this is a friendship that might be meant to die soon. But if I were her, I wouldn't let it.. she gets a lot out of me.

I am going to revisit the dentist tomorrow, when they cleaned my teeth they hurt one of them.. I thought it might settle, but it's just not feeling right. It's between two teeth, where I had my first cavity (last year.. ) it hurts like crazy to eat. Oh silly dentists!

Well I am off to shower...

-Aimee

If the friendship is not fulfulling to you, if you feel sucked dry, yes you need to end it. But she should be told why. It isn't easy being the better person, but it's worth it.

I think it's one of those good news, bad news things. The good news is, you are in control and get to take care of yourself. The bad news is you are in control and have to take care of yourself.

For your sake you need to get into the mode where you put the breaks on her, firmly but nicely, so she's not taking advantage of you. I don't think you need to dump her, but maybe create a little emotional distance so your not so vulnerable to her manipulations. Do it a few times and she will instinctually pick up on that you are not putting up with it anymore.

This probably won't be the last time you come across a person like this, so these are skills worth working on, in my opinion. In time, you'll recognize a person like this much faster and will not be inclined to become so invested.

Take it easy.

I think everyone is in our life for a reason... her reason to help with that line crossing thing. I have issues with people doing that, and have a hard time saying things about it. I sure do hope that I can not meet people like this though!!

I have tomorrow off, yay!! I am going tomostly hang out, I went to the dentist today. Something fell off my sore tooth, so I went for an emergency dentist visit. It was part of my filling! The hygenist chipped off my darn filling! The dentist said it would be fine though, I don't need to get it refilled or anything.

I totally hogged the thread with my friend issues... on that note.. 10 days until I leave!

-Aimee