Erin, that is a LOT to celebrate. As for the rest - it is all choices. You didn't blow anything. You made some choices which were perhaps not the healthiest. The amazing thing, is you get the chance to make better choices all the time.

Case in point - I have to take a pause day for today. I did an unplanned for out to lunch. When I was coming back to the office, that little voice inside my head (you all know which one I am talking about) said "hey, you already need to take a pause day. Why not stop and get . . . . " You can pretty much insert any and all :censored: in there, and you would be right. I decided that no, I wasn't going to do that. I had lunch. Enjoyed lunch. But I was going to make healthy choices the rest of the day. And I am, even though I must admit, that little voice is still trying :dz:

Anyway, you are obviously doing a lot right - focus on that, and how good it feels, and get back to making good choices! :drill:

Congrats Apple and Fish. Fish, I am just starting to wear jewelry. The problem with shoes is that I have HUGE feet, and none of the cute styles fit. Sigh. I wonder where the cross dressing guys get the cute shoes?

All right, back to work. I just needed a 3FC moment to get through the rest of the day. Will check in tonight.

Have a good rest of the day :wave:

:cheer: jolly!!!! make em shut up!

Yeah, jolly, just keep doing what you're doing. There are new and exciting things happening for you. Nurture them!

day 4

carbs= 47
walking= 3 miles

anybody got some cheese to go with this whine i am getting ready to type out??? geezzzzz went to walk after work.. my legs are sooo sore from working out last nite... my dog is being a lil $$## yanking and tugging on the leash... I am telling myself... it would be so easy to just stop here and turn around and go back home... ok self... just go a lil bit further and then we will turn around.... 1 mile done.. ok that would make 2 total by the time i get home...

no keep going.... umm ok this is far enuff.. NO KEEP GOING! OK i ve gotten this far i may as well do my 3... tell self u know u will be mad if u dont do what u set out to do... 3 it is ... but i still mumbled to myself the entire way ... and did an inner whine!!! hahaha

this message has been brought to u by the ... just get it done dammit committe!! we now return u to your regular scheduled post....

Git 'r' done, Curly. And what kind of cheese do you want with that whine? I may join you.

Thanks for the support guys. I am still dealing with the issues. But the funny thing is that I can actually feel two different things - 1) I AM FULL. I am not hungry. 2) I am in a "mood." Overemotional, bored, overtired - combination of many. But just the fact I can tell I am full, and am not trying to eat away my emotions, is a good step. Here's to many more.

So, pause day for me, so day 14 on the following menu challenge, and day 15 of the no :censored: challenge. My two menu challenges got rolled into one. Ah well.

Have a great night everyone. Hopefully, I will be back to my "jolly" self tomorrow after a good night's sleep. Otherwise - circuit training in the morning, so I should sweat out the last of the funky mood.

:wave:

Jolly .. the whey protein powder from GNC has really done wonders for me to stop the over eating cravings.. i mix it with water and drink it in the morning.. and i also have another when i get home from work... Plus the extra protein helps u to build more lean tissue so u burn more calories when u work out.. but mainly what i have found is if you up your protein intake .. it shuts those "hungries" off

it comes in a bunch of flavors..


oooo pepper jack plz

LOL not sure what day it is... 16 or something like that... I have it written down at work... but anyway whatever day it is, I made it. :)

Oh like none of the rest of us whine while we are doing our walking or exercise, Curly!! :) Yah right... hey you DID it and that is what counts!!!

Good morning all. I was right - a good night's sleep did take care of the majority of the moodies. Thank goodness.

Pepper Jack, Curly? OK. But I think I am in the mood for a good Brick or smoked mozzerella. And thanks for the tip on the powder. I haven't looked into any of those yet, but may do so. I think yesterday was more the thought of "well, you blew it once. Why not really MAKE THE MOST of your lost day???" The old mindset sneaking back.

I just have to say how glad I am I found this website years ago, and found your thread now. It is so nice to be able to come somewhere with this stuff - to people who understand. To be able to verbalize this whole process, that people who have not had serious food issues don't get at all. My former friend just couldn't understand why I just didn't stop eating poorly. She had been 40 pounds overweight at her max, and her answer was lipo. Yes, she had been overweight, but overeating, stress eating, was never an issue. She couldn't understand. You guys do. And you give the motivation (positive or whip cracks) that help when I stumble. Thank you.

well, off to circuit class. See you later, and have a GREAT day all. :wave:

Okay. I'm not going to say much. Just that things are going better, challenge-wise. I'm scared to talk about it in case I end up jeopardising it...
It sort of helped to just start doing or not doing something, instead of announcing that "I'm going to do this and that as my challenge." And I'm not counting the days either - just a quiet challenge this time. We'll see how it goes.

Jolly, some great stuff there! I get that voice too, it's really difficult to shut it up, isn't it? But hopefully it should get easier with time. :)

Red, I love the whip idea... :) It's hard right now with the upcoming trip, but my own is getting ready for when I come back. :) Yes, I know I can do some sort of exercise, or stick to a healthy eating plan or etc., but to be honest, I just want to enjoy my trip... :) That doesn't mean stuffing my face or not exercising, no. I just don't want to have the pressure of needing to get something done, especially since I know that most of the time the conditions will not be favourable. I am taking my skipping rope with me, and I'll do running whenever possible, but I can't promise myself that I will do it every day.
On the other hand, whipping too hard might have been the cause of my recent defeats on the challenge field. But still, I do want to meet my mid-May goal, and by the time I'm back from my trip, there won't be much time left. So I suppose the action plan should be to do as much as possible during the trip and then to really tighten the regime once I'm back and hope for the best... :)

Good morning again. Sushi, it is good to hear from you, and that things are getting better. I too have a hard time balancing pushing myself forward, and not being so hard on myself I run screaming back into old behaviors. It is so tough to overcome old behaviors, especially when you use them as coping mechanisms. Have a great trip - what are you doing again??

Well, I just had to come on and share a laugh. I hopped on the scale again this morning, and the same problem. No budge! So, I said something to the trainer. The comment?? "Oh yeah, that thing is broken. I don't know why we even have it!" So, there may be a larger loss this Monday's weigh in, but it is due to scale change, more than weight loss.

Have a good day. :wave:

Hmm, I think i caught your grumpy mood, Jolly.:(
I ate much too much last night - because I was bored and sad. (Although at least I put the wine away after two glasses.) Since it is still early, I am just going to start my challenge over. I'll let you know when I finish the first new day one.
I started out having a good night - went to the gym after work and ran 2.5 miles in 25 1/2 minutes on the treadmill; went to the apartment and showered and changed to go get some dinner; walked around until I ended back up at this italian joint DH and I went to 2 weeks ago when he was up here. Ate reasonably at dinner and then (cue ominous music) brought the leftovers back to the apartment. Then I ate all the leftovers:o .

I'm just tired of being away from home. I miss my husband, and my dogs, and my sister, and my in-laws. Manhattan is cool, but I don't have anyone here with me. I'm moping around at the client's today - at least they gave me my own office up here so I can be sad here and put on a cheery face if I have meetings today. I'm not looking forward to spending this weekend up here alone. I made a list of stuff to do - and will try to not spend the day in bed eating. Plus, the temperature dropped again - it's freezy cold and windy.

Enough of my sob story - i will talk to you all later.

Hi everyone~

Fish~ so sorry that you're feeling so blue, I hope you'll feel better tomorrow. May I ask why you work so far away from home? How often do you get to go home? You've been doing so good with your challenges, so a little setback is no big deal.

Jolly~ feeling full, and not hungry is great. I wish I can be that way.

Curly~your carb challange is a tough one, and you're doing so good at it.

Dance~you're doing great, and no pause days!

Red~You're doing so good on your challenges, and they are all tough. :crossed: I must remember never to touch this musical instrument made from kitties. :barf: I love music and I do play some musical intruments.
Yes, I did finished my no red meat challenge last sunday, and did not take any pause day. I'm still not eating meat but I would like to make it a challenge again, however, I'll wait till monday 'cuz we're invited to a party on sunday and altho' I'm not planning to eat any meat, I don't know what is in the menu. I was a vegan for over 7 years many years ago, but this time I want to ultimately eat only veggies and fish, no eggs nor dairy. Haven't eaten any meat since I started my challenge on 20th of February.
My ankle is getting better and I started exercising 2 days ago on my stationary bike, can't walk/jog on my treadmill yet. Still sore, so I only use the no resistance setting and have decided to make daily exercise a challenge again at level 3, to make sure it doesn't get sidetracked~ I'm on day 3.
I'm on day 10 on my start over no diet soda challenge.

:goodluck: to everyone on your challenges.
Good night all.http://bffc.net/icons2/sleepy.gif

Just thought I'd pop in and say Happy Saint Patrick's Day!!! Sorry I've been lacking on posts this week. Mid-terms have been this week...but right now, I am officially on SPRING BREAK!! Woo-hoo!! :carrot: :carrot: :carrot: :carrot: Just finished the last class of the day.

Next week will be a sort of Boot Camp jump-start into fitness/dieting week for me, since I'll have a lot of time on my hands!

So, have fun tonight....and don't drink TOO much! :dizzy:

a bit of a crash...
 

day 5

carbs= 34

walking= 2 miles

Evening everybody. Red, sorry you had to take a pause day, but as you told me, that is why we have pauses. I am sure you will be back on track. Don't make me get the whip!

Fish - sorry my mood got lonely and visited you. Doing the long distance thing must be tough. How long do you have to do it for?

Elyn - way to go. Keep up the good work.

Danzer - enjoy Spring Break. Hope you are able to get that jumpstart you want.

Not much else to report here. OK day. Better mood (again, sorry Fish). Now, I am off to the couch and the "pass out with Mommy" time I promised my dog. Have a good night all :wave:

LOL Jolly... what a riot about the scale!!! You may have a pleasant surprise in store for you LOL.

This was Day 18 for me and I made it, although it was tougher than usual and temptations all around me. But I just said "no" to a lot of "old friends" LOL

Jolly, sometimes I think you're me in another town - I also have unusually large (but quite perfectly shaped) feet, and do not see myself as a pretty woman. At times your posts sound just like me, and I think Red :drill: is way too hard on you... But iI think you know that it seems we look better than we realize...

Fish, have you thought of posting a "calling all fat chicks in NYC" to get you thru the weekend? There may be many buddies just dying for company.

What day is it? Have you guys well forgotten about me? Did you think I was able to forget you? - No, I did not, but the life swept me off my feet took out a wip and started beating.
Some people believe everything happends for a reason, sometimes I can believe just that, perhaps it's true. So I skipped my challenges, and bad life events stacked one on top of another.
First it was my knee, then reabilitation for it, then work, then health (stomach flue), then parents' health, again work, and again stomach (reflux, gastric like pain). Rollercoaster to say the least.
What am I up to you wonder perhaps? Well, as of this moment I am sitting in Pittsburg airport. Red, it's your town isn't it? I am content, happy and trying to meet piece with my goals. For the first time in the last 2 weeks I am not working 10 hours or more and that's a relilef.
So last time was 10 days ago, I wrote that I bought 5 sessions with the trainer. I did have my first one on Saturday. He was generally happy with items I ate (he surveyed wrappers with calories, and fitday journal entry). Yes, between Jan.1 and Feb.7 I consistently ate that way, but now...
I did try to get back "on the plan", but by same eve I had dinner out (not full brought 1/2 home, which is an improvement) then the next day I went out for indian and ate the things he asked me to avoid, but it was not that bad, then came another work-related outing on Monday. Till Wednesday I lived off of my 1/2 portions. I did not gain, instead I am 240-239 right now, which is 31-32 lb loss, or 39 lb loss from my heaviest ever. My mom adored the pics made, and yesterday paging through my old pics I saw the difference myself, especially with a super short hip new haircut and trimmed eyebrows. A few friends commented on how younger I am starting to look, but I want a lot more. I did lose 1 full size, I am totally size 20 now, I tried on everything and see how baggy old things are. I want to be 18 by summer and with the new trainer program, I must participate not like last week (zero visits to the gym since last saturday, zero days of "perfect" eating, only semi-ok by my standards).
On top of it, today I am flying to see my parents. I hope to jump start my challenge from there, and therefore I am trying to avoid super expensive and super high fat/sugar/carb/fluff food sold at the airports. I will have a small salad later on, I will I will I will, I really do want to commit, and perform, I am tired of being a loser at this...besides I have curly to catch up with, before I could may be, but now she is way ahead :-)
Please hold me accountable, private messages, or here, I need some support. These are hard times (vacation, parents, + I have to work 1/2 days everyday on my vacation), the only great things is that I will have a piece of mind after seeing my family on this unplanned trip and my workout schedule will be covered (my mother after loosing 50lb on her own has become a fanatic :-)
I love you guys, sorry but I've not read all the post, I will try but I won't promise. I wish you continued success.
yours CBETA

inching forward...
 

yoohoo! Pittsburgh!!
 

Originally Posted by carla49:
Marble, what on earth is a standing crunch? I just can't seem to picture it.

Es Angel, :bravo: :bravo: on completing a double challenge. And straight through? Way to go!!!

It's bedtime here in San Fran. Hoping for pleasant dreams, and more good weather tomorrow. Apparently it was hailing this morning, but it was great by the time I got here. Cool and windy, but bright sunshine, perfect for a pricey lunch at the Cliff House. I had forgotten what HUGE portions restaurants serve here in the US. But I was a good little soldier and cleared my plate, so children in wherever won't starve...

ZZzzzzzzzzzzz

CARLA
I was not aware you were in the area, perhaps next time if you want we can meet in person, I do live nearby.

Dear RED, I will write I promisse, the weather will be so-so, so I will have time and desire.
For my food I plan to eat light and simular like I ate at home. For excercise: long walks along the beach in the sand, gym (iffy, I hate old barely working equipment) and swims in the pool (I think ocean is too cold and windy just yet for riding the waves)

Cbeta dont compare your progress to anyone elses...you are doing a great job. just concentrate on doing what is right for you..... make those changes that u can.. continue with for the rest of your life...

A number is just a number... its more important that we will be able to live with these changes for the rest of our lives .. ..

Good morning all :wave: Just popping in before heading off to the gym. I have a trainer session this morning too, CBeta. I am very glad you popped in. We all know what it is like. Keep coming - we are here for you.

Carla, unfortunately, my feet are not perfectly shaped - have you seen Lord of the Rings? Heard of Hobbits? Yeah. Mine make their feet look cute and petite. Ah well. If that is the worst I have to worry about . . .

Red? did Red have something to celebrate???? Just kidding Red :cb: :cb: Way to go on completing your crunch challenge. You rock :cb: :cb:

I will post more later, after the wedding I am going to. With my folks. So CB, I feel some of your pain. Love 'em, but there is stress.

Have a great day all :wave:

I off the plane, but not out of the airport.
Now comes the wait, my parents would not be up here for another 5 hours. Thank god to Myrtle Beach and Pittsburg Airports for providing free wireless service. I am tied, it's ben 12 hours sicne I left home and by the time my parents pick me up ( I cannot get into the condo w/o them) 17 hours of travel. Exhaustion would be the word to define me right now (sorry for complaints, but unlike usual me, who sleeps all the time, I did not sleep for a single second).
Though it is was 7am CA time, in Charlotte it was 10am, and I did grab a light breakfast with some fresh fruit and eggs. So far so good, now I will work on my 3rd bottle of water, I want to do like 5, I am usually dehydrated after the plane ride. Too bad airports do not have gyms.
BTW little steps, I can now cross my legs, if I sit a bit sideways, left over right, but cannot do the same with right over left...right thy feels to be bigger or something...
Iwill report later on excercise and continued eating.

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Red~:bravo: for completing your http://bffc.net/icons2/situp.gifcrunch challenge :woo: :woo: :cheer: :cheer: http://bffc.net/icons2/partyhat2.gif
Sorry to hear that you had to take another pause day, oh well, I'm sure you´re going to make it, and won't be needing thehttp://bffc.net/icons2/whipit.gif ;) .

Day 11 on my no soda diet.
Have to stop my daily exercise challenge 'cuz this darn ankle is still sore, and when I got up this morning my foot was hurting as well. Guess I started to soon. Doing stretches and free weights, but can't do cardio so I'll just start over when my ankle is A OK.

have a great day everyone~

Hello again. Just needed to check in quick. Fish, I know I said I was sorry my mood came your way, but you did not, I repeat DID NOT need to send it back. Thankfully, I have a friend who knows me, who talked me down off the clock tower.

Elyn, have you tried glucosamine? I was having a really bad time with my ankles and knees. I have been on it about 1 1/'2 years, and it really has helped. I too would wake up with bad pain.

Cbeta - good luck while on vacation. Hope you get caught up on your sleep soon.

Have a great day all!

Jolly~I too, have been on glucosamine for almost 2 years now for left shoulder pain and it has helped some. Surprisingly, the pain on my shoulder have been non existent since I stopped eating meat.
The pain on my ankle and foot is from the sprain I sustained when I twisted my ankle more than a week ago.

day 6 carbs=57

walking=3 miles

Hello everyone :grouphug: :wave:

Red, congratulations on finishing the crunches challenge, you rock!!! :cheer: :cheer: :cheer: :bravo: Don't let those pause days on the other challenges get you down, girl! :hug:

CBETA, your last few weeks seem quite a bit like my own last few weeks, only I don't quite have such solid reasons as work, health issues and so on... But it'll get better, you can do it! :)

I'm doing fine, and have been successful for 4 days now, whee! I know that's not much, but seems quite something after not being able to get through day 1 or 2 or 3 a number of times recently... :p

I'm not feeling entirely fine though... Life stuff. I messed a few things up quite badly, and also messed up the chance to fix them... the worst is that I just can't talk or write about it, so it's eating me from the inside. :( Just feel like such a loser and nobody because of that. It's serious stuff, and it'll have serious implications for my future. I feel like repeating "I suck, I suck, I suck" and whacking my own head over and over again, but it's not going to make me feel better OR make things better...
I don't know what I'm going to do... there are only so many chances you can have, only so many times you can fix things up... I've messed up my chances and have nothing to show for the ones I was given... can't expect people who could help with this to stick with me yet again.
And I know it'll spoil the trip because I'll be feeling awful. :(
Okay Sushi, enough, shut up already...

My tracker isn't accurate at the moment, so I'm trying to be very very very good these days, so that things (hopefully) improve by Monday or Tuesday morning. I want to know how many pounds of me will be going on my camping trip, and I don't want that to be influenced by lack of exercise and poor food choices over the few days beforehand. And I want to know how many pounds will be coming back - hopefully fewer! :) I won't be changing my tracker before the trip though, no point since I won't be posting anyway.

I wish I could determine whether I have a chance to meet my mid-May goal, but can't right now, difficult to foresee what will happen on the trip. The last time I went on a big trip, I actually gained 2 pounds despite lots of walking and hiking and activity... I'm bound to feel miserable if I don't meet the goal, so better not focus my mind that much just yet... will need to reasses things after the trip... the only problem is that then there will be just a month to go, and if things go bad on the trip, I'll have no way of meeting the goal... ugh, I'm starting again... shut up, Sushi! Shut up!

Originally Posted by Sushi Penguin:
I'm not feeling entirely fine though... Life stuff. I messed a few things up quite badly, and also messed up the chance to fix them... the worst is that I just can't talk or write about it, so it's eating me from the inside. :( Just feel like such a loser and nobody because of that. It's serious stuff, and it'll have serious implications for my future. I feel like repeating "I suck, I suck, I suck" and whacking my own head over and over again, but it's not going to make me feel better OR make things better...
I don't know what I'm going to do... there are only so many chances you can have, only so many times you can fix things up... I've messed up my chances and have nothing to show for the ones I was given... can't expect people who could help with this to stick with me yet again.

:hug: If it is any consolation, I have been feeling exactly the same way... yeeks I have messed up in the past couple weeks and whined and whined, and some it may have implications on my future too. But hey, you know what... we ALL go through those times and we ALL feel the "I suck" at times.

Fortunately people who love us DO give us more chances, especially if we go to the ones we need to and ask forgiveness. Is it okay with you if I pray for you?

:dance: ~4~Joy

Wow, Sushi and Joy - do I hear what you are saying right now. I am feeling so low right now - but I have no logical reason why. I just feel worthless. I ended up not staying for the wedding reception tonight - I just couldn't stand the crowds. Actually, I just can't stand my own skin. I want to just scream!!!!!

So, I hear you. One day at a time, right? We have to find some light at the end of the tunnel.

Curly - congrats on another day down. Elyn - hope your ankle feels better soon.

Despite the mood, and having to decide on dinner since I didn't eat at the wedding, I still met today's challenges. Day 17 for the no :censored: and day 16 for the menu challenge.

Everyone - have a good evening. :wave:

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