Who knows what will happen? I do know that I will never spend another cent at that petrol station! At least Head Office had the good grace to say they were very embarrassed and would follow the matter up. I had to walk out Lindor, or I would have upended the whole confectionery shelf … I do have a temper .

I was in a filthy mood anyway because it's been one of those days where lots of little things have gone wrong. The kettle went on strike, as did the vacuum cleaner – and Telstra told me that my modem is stuffed, so I have to wait for a new one before I can have a reliable connection to the web again. And I'm having one of those cash flow problems that are endemic to the self-employed and small businesses, so my rent and phone bill are overdue. And the cats are throwing up on the carpet.

I know everyone has those days. They are all minor things (well except for being broke) but when they all happen at once it's really annoying. So when the smoke alarm started to emit single beeps about an hour ago, to tell me the battery was low, I had a really irrational desire to shoot it!!!

And I won't even tell you about this person who has ripped me off for $700, and how I learned today they've left the country.

The challenge for me is to not get enmeshed in all these things, and to not feel like punishing myself with food. At the moment I am craving something really naughty and fattening – but I'm having coffee instead.

Don't worry Lindor, I'm not going to allow a smug pr!ck and a few misbehaving domestic appliances to derail me from my weight loss journey. This is a good lesson for me to learn about emotional eating and all that stuff.

Kylie I think it's a good idea for you to post your food here. Are you up for feedback about it, or do you just want to keep yourself accountable?

A resistance band is like a long bit of plastic. I don't really know how to describe it, except that it's 2 metres long and about 10cm wide. It's very thin, but you use it to do resistance exercises. You can strengthen most areas of your body with it, and I'm using it for my arms, shoulders and back muscles. Even though you wouldn't think that a bit of plastic could give you a decent workout, I have sore arms this morning from (what I thought was) fairly gentle exercises.

OK - might go for a walk and try to burn some of this anger off .

Ani, truth be known, if that guy had said that to me I'd have probably chuckled at him before walking out and cursing him under my breath! And I really don't think I'd have had the courage to take it to head office. I'd have just vowed never to set foot in the place again!

I have been known to be rather aggressive in my anger too - my brother has had the broken bones to prove it! Ok give me some credit, I was 10 or 11yrs old when I did that and I have amazing control over my temper now

And after hearing of the rest of your day, I have decided my lowered mood is nothing. I am just a tad irked that I have been included in a work meeting tomorrow that is taking me some 200+kms to the next town to sit in a room for four hours with about 30 others who I hardly know and will eventually end up in a restaurant for lunch!!! I was hoping I would get away with saying "Oops I forgot about it" on Thursday. But...I was reminded of it yesterday.

I am pleased though, that you have taken the positive end of todays events and making it a lesson to understand your emotional eating habits.

Kylie, I am always interested to see what others are eating through their weight loss, so I can't see me getting bored. Instead I might get ideas! In the last few weeks I have learned and tried a few knew things in my diet. Maybe it shows my lack of imagination and creativity, but I was eating the same stuff day in and day out, now I have included wraps and pizzas (Ani's recipes from a few weeks ago)!

Alright gotta go wash something for tomorrow!

I hope what is left of the day only gets better for you Ani

OMG Ani!! What a jerk to put it nicely!!! I dont know what I would have done...probably ignored it, then feel sick to my stomach while crying in my car. Ive seen people look, point and laugh at me in public places like the mall, but never had someone say something so horrible to my face (that I havent blocked from my memory..haha). I really hope head office serves justice....And the rest of your day...when it rains, it pours and I know the kind of day you've had....just go outside, scream at the top of your lungs for a good 30 seconds, then go back inside and have a cup of tea. Helps me from time to time...{{hugs}}

Lindor, sorry you have to go to your meeting tomorrow....hope it turns out to be a good day for you...

Nothing new to report here. Weigh-in tomorrow...am a little nervous, but I dont know why. Despite my wonderful intentions of starting the challenge today, it just didnt happen...and I wont get it started tonight either. I have a stupid house inspection from our rental agency on behalf of the owner tomorrow morning, which means scrubbing floorboards and cleaning the showers. I should do these things on a regular basis, but having a very active toddler doesnt really seem to help with the day to day activities. Needless to say, I am getting a good workout getting everything tidied and vacuumed, etc...but I wont be hopping on the treadmill. I will however try and squeeze another 1litre of water in before I go to bed...Ive already done my normal 2l. Hope you girls have a good night and will "see" you all tomorrow!

Britt
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Lindor and Britt, I think it's the fact that 99% of women would react like you that made me speak out. Most women don't say anything, but if my complaint stops ONE woman from being embarrassed or humiliated by this moron, then it's worth it.

I'm pretty robust, and have a high pain threshold (both physically and emotionally) - but if he'd said that to a woman who is emotionally fragile, she would have been devastated. I was merely angry and wanted to do something about it - which I did. I realised, reading back what I wrote, that I said it was a BP. It wasn't - it was Shell, and now I have a dilemma.

I shop at Coles because it's just around the corner, but Coles owns Shell. Grrr… but since I promised I would never give another dollar to the company, I guess I'll have to go to Woolies

Ah well - better day tomorrow!

Good luck with your rent inspection Britt. I have them every three months and find them mildly annoying - but at least the house gets a really good clean!

Lindor can't you chuck a sickie?

Oh gosh Ani thats so horrible & mean. I hate rude people & what he said to you was the ultimate. My blood's boiling thinking about it. Be prepared though that he will use the excuse he was trying to upsell, or bring to your attention a promotion they have going (they usually do have choc or drink promos happening).

But as Lindor said, at least something good can come of it with you resisting the urge for emotional eating. Thats a big positive. Doesn't excuse his pisspoor attitude though.

I have a friend who was humiliated in the hospital when she was waiting to get her tummy tumours checked via cat scan. She was dressed in the robe and in the waiting room sitting in her wheelchair and the nurse called her name, then looked at her and said, "Oh you won't fit on the table."

People are so mean, it makes me wonder how they get on in life.

OMG Lindor, did you seriously break your brothers bones? LMAO. You're naughty! And good luck with meeting (if you don't chuck that sickie)

Good luck with weigh in and inspection Britt.

On a brighter note........ I booked my bubba in to clinic as I was concerned she wasn't crawling at 10mths. But she decided today was the day And does she go or what lol.

Kylie whats AIESEC?

Gotta run. The critters are hassling me for dessert. I'm making grilled stonefruits with caramelised masala sauce and low carb ice cream MMMMM

Cheers
Vonni

If I wasn't being picked up, from my home, in the pool car, before the sun comes up, I'd probably seriously consider a sickie. But instead, I will save that sickie for another day!

Ani, you are right and if we all spoke up more it would help a lot of situations. I do speak up when things annoy me, but when it is a direct insult against me, I tend to scurry off with my tail between my legs. Yup I am a sook

And to support your cause, I will avoid Coles and Shell as much as possible. Which should be easy considering we only have Woolies and IGA, and I only ever use BP, in this town.

Vonni, yes I did break my brothers bones...two fingers to be exact! But he never touched my roller skates again!!!

Well, I'll support the cause too- I shop at Woolies anyhow (i get discount) and I'll make sure to use caltex.

Ani, Im also having a couple of days where all these minor things just make me want to...well, at least throw a few punches at an inanimate object. I also had an experience at a petrol station a few months ago, it wasnt the guy who worked there though - my mum and I stopped off to get petrol and bought everyone else in the family a treat [there are 6 of us]. Yes it was all junk . A line formed behind us since mum used EFTPOS to pay for it, maybe about 3-4 people, as we left I heard a woman say quite loudly "You are what you eat!" in a rude, aggressive tone of voice but mum didnt hear so she kept walking. I looked back and the people in the line started laughing . Part of me thought it was justified since both mum and I are overweight and we were buying junk food, but still...just because they had to wait a minute to pay for petrol. It just bothered me at the time but I did nothing about it, so good on you Ani for sticking up for yourself in a way which might actually make a difference.

Just so I avoid excessive ranting, a list of my current frustrations:
- Its that TOM and I either feel like Im stuck in a sauna or being kicked through in the gut by a donkey.
-Spent over six hours setting up new computer; brother came home and decided the cables I spent hours organising and labelling were 'messy' so thought he would disconnect it all. Of course he doesnt know how to put it together again, so he kept harassing me all night as if I had done something wrong.
-No one bothered to thank me for setting up the computer, but since it doesnt work now I know no one is going to go out of their way to fix it under the guise of not knowing how computers work. So I will prob have to do it all again or risk being called 'lazy': it isnt brothers fault as he 'doesnt think before he acts' .
-At awards ceremony yesterday, the Premier didnt bother showing up. Out of about 800 students, 3 were overweight [inc me] and the majority of females were incredibly slim, looking all professional and fashionable. I dont know what I expected, but thinking that these were suppose to be the top students in the state I thought at least a few might be like...me? Since the only thing I am good at is regurgitating a load of facts in exams, my self-esteem just kept dropping as I realised all these people could do that too but also managed to look like models and have some enthusiastic social life. I know I really shouldnt be hypocritical, judging people by how they look etc, but a lot of them seemed to know each other but no one talked to me, they justed seemed to stare . I really dont want to start uni now.

I have hardly eaten anything in the last two days, and what I did eat was mostly of limited nutritional value. Feeling flat, but hopefully tomorrow will be better. Sorry for the rant, I am in one of those 'no one understands/cares about me momemts', although I dont want anyones sympathy because I know a lot of people have it worse than I do. Im just not putting anything in perspective at the moment. [And we get petrol from caltex now, but the incident happened at a shell so Im glad we changed]

hey everyone

I was gone for what - 6 hours? And a page of posts arrived! Ok, where to start?

Ani: Thanks for the info about the resistance band...I might look into it, I could use it while doing other things at home by the sound of it. If you guys wanna pass comment on my food, go for it, I need all the help I can get! (note: carrot sticks became a coke and a hot cross bun - I stayed late at work ) Also, I work at woolies, so no worries there!

Lindor - think of it as a day off work, a roadtrip -and- free lunch! I'd be happy about it, especially as you get the company car!!

Vonni: AIESEC is a global student organisation that facilitates global exchange, leaderhip and personal development. (in a very small nutshell). Basically, we let you develop all these awesome skills, and then send you on a paid, working exchange to another country. I am the Director of the People Development portfolio, which means I'm responsible for HR, basically. Recruitment, Induction, Selection, session content, and making sure everyone is happy and challenged and all that good stuff. It's more complex than that - I could take all day! Suffice to day it is -the best- thing I've done for me. It opens your eyes to the whole world, not just your own bubble.

Cite: honey, don't let the 'skinnies' bring you down. you were there to be recognised for your acheivements, not your waist measurement. Bloody well done for getting that far!

Please, please please don't feel bad about uni. Trust me, everykind of person goes there, tall, short, big, little, tattooed, stoned or otherwise! PS: join AIESEC!! What uni are you going to? It's alot of fun, once you get used to the fact that the teacher isn't going to nag you about anything - you really have to do everything off your own bat.

I had a really crappy night at work, but I guess its not too much to worry about in the scheme of things. I work in the cash office some nights, and somethings went wrong, so I ended up staying until 11.30pm, instead of 10pm. I dont get paid the extra either, because it (theoretically) shouldn't take that long. Gah! I don't care. Everytime this happens, I think to myself - time to get a new job. Truth be told, I'm too gutless.

wow - hope you guys had nowhere to be before you started reading this!!

Kylie

Hey y'all

Damn, so much happens here in the time you're away, it's hard to catch up with everything!

I've been slacking for the last week but got back into it yesterday with some good food shopping and a damn hard workout at the gym.

Having moved into my flat, I'm probably going to have to give up my trainers which will be hard but I guess I can't have them forever. I'll try save money in the meantime though and hang on to them for as long as I can.

As for my weight, it's about the same. I'm sitting at around 96.2 as of last night but that means no gain and we like that

Morning girls,

Just had to pop in after my official weigh-in and say....I lost 1.5kgs this week!! Im now 115...still suck a high number when you think about it, but at least its 4 kgs less of me. Im thrilled that LiteNEasy has worked so well....its easy, its pretty yummy, and altho still a bit hard trying to juggle the meals around, etc, its way easier than having to cook in the kitchen all day. Im sure once exercise gets thrown into the mix, it will be even better!

Vonni, TOTALLY normal for your bub not to have crawled yet (but congrats that shes doing it now!!)...Carters cousin, who is only a week younger than him only started crawling at 12 1/2 months (shes a girl). Girls tend to do the physical "stuff" later than boys, but they advance faster with talking etc. Carter was crawling at 8 months and walking at 11....but he hardly says a word...only mama, dada, hello (more like "ow,oh"), and baba for bye-bye. I know some girls his age who are saying things like "love you"!!

Cite, so sorry to hear about your bad day as well! Hope today is much better for you!

Ani, I shop at Woolies anyway, so Im on board!

Lindor, think of today as a field trip!! You can be 5 again....

Kylie, hope you were able to sleep in a bit after such a late night last night...I went to bed around 11, but ended up reading until 1.30am! But, Im really used to surviving on 5 or 6 hours of sleep, so its nothing for me...haha.

Littlekiwi, sorry to hear about having to lose your trainers! Im jealous that you have them tho...at least youve been able to get experience with them and know how you should be working out. If I had the money, I would DEF get one - even if it was for one week!

Have a great day everyone....and I mean a GREAT day...its all what you make of it. Sometimes its a choice to be happy - it is for me anyway.

xxxx

Kylie, I'm with ya on the work longer paid not.

I work Big W mainly in courtesy desk. Tell me something - Why am I rostered till 9pm on Thursday nights when we are closing at 9, wait for all customers to finish before I can end of day my tills, lock down the smokes, take S&D out back, take all registers out and to cash office etc... We are NEVER able to do it all within a minute of store close. lol. Usually around 15min - half hour. Last week our counts were different and it took half hour to do it right (we both had a hard day lol) all over an elusive $20 note. After all the drama recounting time and time again I WAS THE ONE WHO WAS RIGHT

I think finally they got sick of my whinging though, and as well as sign off on Kronos clock I get the night manager to sign me off in the book now so I get paid for it.

I'd be saying something to your manager. How can they expect it to be done in a certain amount of time when some days things just don't add up, or they've counted incorrectly etc.... It's you who has to find it and fix it. Just tell em next time you don't care if it's not finalised, you're finishing at time you're supposed to if you're not getting paid over.

Gotta go shop, will post more tonight. Just had to sympathise with Kylie

VONNI

Cite, one of my favourite quotes, from Eleanor Roosevelt, is: Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent! I know it might sound a bit like a cliche - but it's true. Kylie's right - at Uni you'll meet a really diverse bunch of people, and those who are worth anything will like you for who you are.

Those slim/fashion conscious/brainy chicks who hang out in groups are not worth aspiring to be like. Often they're insecure and need each other's approval to feel OK about themselves. Congratulations to you to being in the top 800 students, and for getting an award - I think that's awesome!

Kylie, have you got your scales yet? Or are they on this week's shopping list?

WooHoo Britt! How exciting you've found a weight loss plan that works . I'm really happy to see you enthusiastic and achieving some great results.

Hey LittleKiwi I was wondering where you were. Good to hear from you.

Vonni, how's your walking and stuff going this week?

And where are Kathy and Barb?

I managed to eat around 1800 calories yesterday - not bad considering it was such a bad day. I also walked for an hour and drank 2 litres of water.

Today I'll walk again, and I'm also going to do my resistance band workout as well as my step ups and abdominal exercises. I would really like to get to 92kg by Monday - and the only way to make it there is to work at it!

I hope everyone has a fantastic day!


Ani

Hey Vonni

My problem is the other cashiers (to my knowledge) all finish on time, every night. I did charge late to begin with, but they wern't happy about it. We all know that wages are soooooo tight all the time, (says the multi-billion dollar comany) they really get annoyed when I spend over (by staying late). *sigh* If any of you want to get me a new, exciting job that goes around uni, feel free!!

Sorry to monopolise the conversation, girls, you won't hear anymore about woolies. (for now!)

Kylie

Ani my walking is going so so this week. I went for a walk along the river on Sunday evening it took just over half hour. DH phoned my mobile when I was almost back to car to "say hello" GRRRR. I told him I can't talk while walking and he got offended. Sheesh and they say women are touchy. Then he said well why not leave phone in car if I don't want to be phoned. I said I needed it to time my walk and so on it went all night.

So that saying, I missed Monday (tired & cranky) but walked 40 minutes yesterday uphill for part of the way.

Due to george deciding to visit with cramps in tow and tiredness because of iron def I did not walk today. But I feel like crap. I should have just gotten off my arse and started hightailing it up the highway. Tomorrow morn will walk Bree to school to make up for it.

I've been doing well with my eating though so thats a plus. Craved a bit of choc today but resisted .At least I'm not sticking calories in that I can't walk off. Although I had a toasted bacon and egg sandwich at the shops today I did ask for it to be done with as little oil as possible, and it was ok. Need to get more water into me though.

Enough of my whinging.

Lindor how did the meeting go today? Hope all went well and your lunch was ok. Cite, did you get that computer back up and running again? And how rude of the Premier to be a no show.

Britt I'm glad your meals are working for you. 1.5kg WOH! thats heaps Welcome back littlekiwi. How's your flat going?

I'm off now to have a cup of decaf tea (2SM, I refuse to give up my sugar) and do a crossword before bed.

TTFN
Vonni