Good on you Kylie - making that first appointment is the hardest thing!

We had a fitness test at training this morning - the "beep test". Measures how long you can keep doing 20m sprints for, with the speed increasing each minute. I could only manage up to level 3 when I started training 3 months ago, and this morning I got level 6.2! That is a good improvement and shows I am actually objectively "fitter", not just feeling fitter.

And I was doing sprints on my injured foot, so I probably could have gone a few (very few!) more levels if I wasn't limping!

Righto thats it. With all you talking about gym and how good you feel, I fell motivated to move. Walking doesn't cut it anymore as I get bored so.... I am definately going to have a chat to our gym next week. We have 3 in town.... One that has "My poop don't stink" people, one attached to the aquatic centre (not too bad but intimidated as all the walls are glass even people walking past can see you) and Curves. I think I'll try the aquatic centre as they open early and close late though winter their times change. DH has been asking me what I want for mothers day, I said warm jimjams or a footcare poack. Maybe he can get me a gym membership.

Will keep you posted.

VONNI
PS - I rarely measure. I just 'feel' how my clothes are fitting.

Vonni-I joined Curves 2 years ago -I got results but found my local Curves's hours too restricting as I work full time - they had great tools for motivation (comps, quizzes, raffles for attending and working out)- I miss that but, I enjoy the variety available at my local aquatic centre - I can do aqua aerobics, laps, gym floor weights and cardio, pilates, as well as several other types of classes I havent tried yet - the variety is also motivating- hope you get a membership for mothers day then

Tonight is my aqua night - had a different teacher from the usual and I am soooo grateful - I went a lot of times during school holidays and had different teachers and I realise that the regular teacher doesnt push me as much as the others... I hope it becomes a permanent thing! I am not working tomorrow - my freezer is getting repaired under warranty and my son will be in daycare still - so if they come and go early enough I am going to drop my car in for a rego check and then go looking at the shops and pay bills child free- even doing housework child free is something to look forward too, get an early start to my usual weekend chores.

Morning!

All this talk of gyms and exersice is wearing me out!

But it is great to see so many of you sounding enthusiastic! Keep it up!

I've had a slack few days as far as diet/exercise goes. My enthusiasm for this journey is gone! I have lost a good deal of weight, I am a lot happier with my shape and size, I feel so much better for it. These last kilos feel more like a chore rather than something that I am going to benefit from. It's hard to explain, and I think until you get to such a point, it would be difficult to really understand where my mind is just now with this weight loss.

Or maybe I am trying to make excuses!

Fact is, I want to lose these last kilos! So I need to pull myself together and just get on with it!!

So...

...no more junk!

No more undereating!! (Which I have been doing a bit of recently?)

Lots of water!

Exercise!


I can do this...I am going to do it!!!

Did that sound convincing??


Ok! I gotta go to work! Have a good day ladies!!

Hi ladies

You're all sounding great - it's so nice to read such positivity!

I'm feeling so mixed up at the moment. Honestly don't know how I feel about having ended my relationship. Scared that I'll never meet anyone as good as him again - he was honestly perfect in every way, that just wasn't enough for me. Hating myself for hurting him. And now I have to wait until next Thursday to talke it through with my counsellor.

It's strange becuase he was the first person who helped me to realise that I am a good person and that I do deserve to be loved. I'm finally taking care of myself having stopped smoking and cut down on the drinking, the change in medication seems to be helping with weight loss and I feel great having taken up yoga. I just don't understand how being with such a wonderful man can not make me feel right.

I guess there's always something to battle through.

Lindor I know exactly what you mean about the 'mid-diet' motivation slump. It's happening to me too.

I'm almost at the half-way point and, as everyone knows, have been dithering around for the past five weeks. I've come to the conclusion that I'm at the point where I need to confront some of my emotional barriers if I'm going to be successful for the rest of this weight loss.

A most uncomfortable thought

At the moment I am trying to look at very small goals and ignore the big picture. I figure that whatever it takes to move forward, I'm going to try it.

Are you exercising? Can you get inspired to change your diet?

Gen I'm really surprised that your PT has you doing beep tests when you have acute achilles tendonitis. As you know I have the same thing, and I have been forbidden from doing anything that involves stop/starting, stairs etc

LittleKiwi are you clear about why you ended this relationship? Is it really what you want to do?

Vanessa you're inspiring! You seem really focussed at the moment.

OK - if I'm going to drop 0.5kg this week I need to get off my bum and go for my walk. NOW!


Ani

Ah Lindor and Ani, come on now. You've done so well!! It does seem hard when you feel you've been good for aaaages on end and you're "only" halfway there, but just think of the differences you've already made! Every kilo off is one kg less stress on your heart and joints, and less fatigue!

Ani, PT gave me the choice, and my foot was strapped at the time, so it didn't feel bad. Also we did it on grass - the podiatrist just said don't do hill running, run on hard surfaces, or do anything that hurts too much. Do you know, I'm such a sieve brain that I don't think I did realise you had the same problem!! Went back to the podiatrist today and got my casts done for my orthotics. Don't get them for 2 weeks, but he's strapped me up again in the meantime - can't believe what a difference it makes!

I am so sorry I have been missing in action. Have just been busy with family. One wayward grandchild, that's one out of 27!! that's just come back for Nana to sort out, and 4 boys, and a girl still here at home . Ages 17 - 31 But Hey, but what can you do !!!! That's what home is for.The door goes round and round. What ever your posts are!!! I feel eveything that you have at one time or another.Be it from drinking too much (beers) to eating, not exercising, losing the plot, all these things make me feel like I am not alone, and a very normal person, and that today is just what I need.!!!! With tears in my eyes THANKS SO MUCH

Mary - I agree with you - no matter what the problems we are faced with -its good to know that this board is here and we can vent. Just knowing this makes all the other things going on in life just that little bit easier...

So Lindor and Ani - dont worry about how you are feeling just know that we are here for you, let it all out!

Here's how my day went - I got my rego check done today and my car failed - it needed 4 new tyres Money is really tight at the moment- and I dont have money for one tyre let alone 4... so I bit my bottom lip and rang my sister to seek some advice - I was thinking about doing the interest free thing, and she was at home and I wanted to check the internet and see which tyre companies offer interest free... well she did some searching and told me the name of a place and I started to drive there- well on the way she rang me back and offered to pay for them. I was crying as I drove to meet her at the bank. I am soooo grateful for her generousity, it has really helped me out.

Having felt soooo low and embarassed for asking for money - I cancelled my gym child care booking and just wanted to get home and curl up and cry... but after getting home I felt guilty for cancelling and after dinner I put some work out videos on - I did walk away the pounds and 10 minute abs... having worked out made me feel differently about the day - I was embarrassed and felt ashamed and sorry for myself that I havent got any money left in my account before my workout and now I feel so blessed that I have people in my life like my sister and this board that can help me through the rough patches. When I was feeling sorry for myself I indulged in a packet of M&M's and a Gloria Jeans iced white chocolate whilst waiting for the tyres to get fitted... I am going to think about today as the day that I realise there are other ways to cope with disappointments and look for support and comfort outside of food.

TGIF tomorrow - have a good day!

Thanks everyone for your encouragement - don't worry, I'm not going to give up

I'm going to have to try weight loss without exercise for a week or so. I STACKED it in the bathroom today… my right foot slid and jammed under the door, at the same time as all 88+kg of me landed on my left knee. Not nice!

I am bruised and sore and limping… and I imagine it would have looked very funny if anyone had seen it.

Bugger!

However I'll try to be good and eat right. I HATE not being able to exercise - when I'm not walking regularly I struggle to discipline myself to eat properly. And there's something in my head that believes it isn't possible to lose weight without exercise.

Oh well!


Ani

PS: Lindor - WHERE are you?

I am exercising a little lighter too the next few days - in April I tripped and fell landing on my knee - last night it was aching, and it has been 3 -4 weeks since I injured it... this morning I got up and did aqua aerobics - Iusually dont do this class on a saturday- the other participants were so slow when we had to jog around the edge of the pool and the pool was full. There was another new instructor and she didnt remind people of the etiquette - slow movers inside, fast movers outside ERRRR!

It is my primary school's(work) 50th birthday this weekend, so I am going to spend this afternoon at the school with my son - we are having an open day with memoribillia displayed for previous students to reminisence - there will also be a BBQ and the band playing. I will be patrolling my building... WHAT FUN!!!! I have been there 11 years this year - so it will be nice if some of the previous students come back and see me.

After starting the week well, I've gone over calories (by a LOT) for the past 2 days - biscuit binges!! Just reminds me why I shouldn't buy the crapola, as I'll eat them all at once. Some things don't change...

16kg to go!!! Why is this sooooo hard!!!

I am here, and I am getting more and more frustrated as I go from under eating to over eating again!!!

It's like I have lost all control over this.

But I won't go on about it.

Ani, I am laughing at the mental image I am getting from your description of your fall! I think I watch too many slap stick comedies!

I guess all you can do is rest it, but I can imagine that is hard to take when you walk so regularly and you have just managed to get yourself back into it again after the move. Keep up all the other exercises in the meantime

Thankyou all for you words of encouragement too. Like Ani, I am not about to give up. I have hit a massive bump in the road, but I WILL get over it.

My parents go away for three months from next week. And I am determined to make a huge dent in these last 16kgs before they return. See, my mother has been my biggest critic with regard to my weight, all my life. Although she has said a few times she is impressed with my weight loss so far, she is constantly reminding me that I still have a way to go! I'd like to shut her up...and the only way I can do that is to lose the weight! So that is my goal for the next three months!

For now though, I want to concentrate on saving myself from disappointment with Mondays weigh in! I am going to eat right, drink right and try some step-ups this weekend. At the very best, I want to remain at the 82.6kg I was at last Monday!

So, Vanessa is doing a school reunion this weekend (sounds kinda fun too!), I have no plans but like the idea of a book on the couch weekend again...what has everyone else go planned?

I have had a rotten few weeks. It sucks that I literally ate not much over a two week period, only ended up eating a small meal on 4 nights over the whole 14 days, I was too nauseous to eat anything, I would try to eat but get it to my mouth and would heave so gave up even trying........DIDN'T LOSE AN OUNCE. I was only managing to have about 600 mls of fluid a day and was feeling REALLY ill after each mouthful of water. Doesn't life suck?

I have had a really busy week this week, worked two days of 11.5 hours, and one day of 5 hours. I am on my feet ALL the time I work so I was aching by the end of Wednesday. My grandmother got sick so I spent 10 hours sitting in the hospital with her, they thought she had pneumonia but she doesn't....she is a mystery, they have her in hospital and she isn't happy, wanted to come home yesterday, and definitely today but they want her in until at least tomorrow. I am putting off going to see her as she won't be happy.

Nana's birthday is on Tuesday and her sister and her neice are coming over from Sydney on Monday. Nana will be 93, we will go out to lunch for her birthday.

I still haven't managed to lose anything more which is really starting to bug me now since I am being so good with what I eat and still not losing anything. Since it has been a hectic I haven't had a chance to do any exercise as such, I was too tired at the end of the three days of working I don't think I could have exercised even if I wanted to.

Oh well heres to a better week this week.

I hope you all are doing ok. I read some are stuck in a rutt but hopefully you will get past it.

Jennylee

I had a **** week. I just felt blah and was naughty here and there. I had a HUGE binge last night (kebab, 2min noodles and chocie) I had my weigh in today and thankfully still lost (.1kg, but still!) I've also lost 6cm in TWO weeks! Yay!