We must be on the same cycle. I do feel a bit better today but I have been forcing myself to do things. I got two of my chairs all done and they turned out cute. I didn't buy enough vinyl and I ran out of staples so I will have to make a run after dinner tonight because I just want them all done so I can move on. I need to go clean up the kitchen just so I can mess it up again. Trying another new recipe tonight and hopefully it will be a good one and I need to make a salad too. Amanda I have discovered also likes broccoli. I steamed some the other night and she went crazy on it and when I was grocery shopping yesterday, I got too close to their lunch time and she robbed the bag with the broccoli in it and was starting to munch on it. If only I could get Joshua as enthused about the healthy options. He did take raisins today for his snack at school though which surprised me. Ok off to clear some space so I can start on dinner here. Will check in later.
Melissa

PS.
Glad you are back Caldwell and had a great time plus a pound gone! I know what you mean about poptarts. If a serving is one then it should be in a bag all by itself because you don't want the other one to get stale right?
Melissa

Welcome back Cadwell :wave: things have been kinda quiet so you didn't miss much the past day or two. YAY on the pound! Bet it was that day of hiking, that sounds like so much fun.

Melissa, glad you got something done despite feeling out of it. I wish I could say the same, but I feel like all I've done today is clean up messes and sort out screaming children as they fought over one thing after another. Allie refused to nap, and she kept Tyler awake, so they were just rotten :( I'm exhausted and wanting to not do my exercise tonight, but I think after awhile of just sitting here relaxing I should feel okay.

Theresa

Yep I just got done cleaning lipstick and eye liner off the bathroom wall and odessa is soaking. I am really ready to kill children at this very moment. Josh came home and has been a colosal jackass since he walked in the door. He threw his dinner in the sink and said he wasn't going to eat that garbage. Doesn't hurt me a bit-I am not the one who is going to be hungry later. I am ready to go live in the bubble now.
melissa

Melissa and Theresa - I am there with you today- all i feel I've done is snap at kids, fuss at hubby, clean up messes - cook and reclean.
Tuesday night was bad- jocie went to bed at 8:00 as normal and by 11:30 she was up- and back up about every 1/2 hours for the whole night. Normally she will just turn on her tv and fall right back to sleep- but no- I was up almost all night. so Wednesday i was in a daze- hubby stayed home with her - he has so many personal days left and if he doesn't take them by dec. he loses them. and i was so tired weds. i was over tired and I ate too much - then i was miserable and even moire grumpy . then i couldn't sleep last night and today just was so ick. I am just tired. I took tylenol p.m. so maybe i can relax and sleep- this happens to me every 6-8 weeks i have rotten insomnia for 2-3 days and then it goes away. I don't like to take pills but there are times that i just want to crash.
I don't care about exercise or eating right -BLAH I guess i should have some cheese with my whine.... all i need is some sleep and a couple days off. I think I will weigh myself in the morning and see if the scale moved-maybe i can get back on track. I know trying now will only make me mad at myself if I fail.
Sorry about the selfish post. I am just icky, grumpy and feeling sorry for myself. Thank you for putting up with me- poptarts and :lol: all
:grouphug:

I think we are all going through the same thing right now. Right now I could give a fat rat's butt about anything. Kids are all yelling, screaming, crying making mondo messes or fighting and all I can think of sitting in the closet with hohos and ben and jerrys or a carton of camels and fifth of jack daniels and hope no one even tries looking for me.
Melissa

hang in there melissa. you do so great with everything i can't believe it. some days i want to get a closet with b&j, cigs, and booze over nothing ;) if i had had a kid throw his dinner in the sink i would be on the phone with the military school within five minutes :lol: you're doing great.
things could have been better today food-wise. i had cheese dip, chips, and wine tonight instead of dinner. oh well, it could have been in addition to dinner. things could be worse.

Melissa, scootch over and share the hohos, I'm hiding out with ya! That is so how I felt the last few days. I am hoping for a better day today, even though the scale is still at 248. I told hubby maybe I need to buy a new one, this one is stuck :lol: I'm hoping to have a better day today, but so far no go. Allie was fussy and acting like she was going to throw up this AM :( She didn't throw up and said her belly didn't hurt, so I sent her to school and hopefuly they won't be calling for me to come get her as she pukes all over the classroom. I seriously think she's okay, but we'll see.

Even though I cleaned all day yesterday, the house is still a mess. TOYS EVERYWHERE!!!! I just gave a bunch away to someone on freecycle, but apparently I should have given her more. I am going to send out a NO TOYS WHATSOEVER order to all my family for christmas. We normally get bombarded with them, but I can't take anymore. It's amazing, but I have never bought them toys, except a couple baby dolls for Allie, because my family seems to know how to buy nothing else.

Cadwell, you had the chips as dinner so I think you'll be fine. Gone are the days you'd have done that along with a full dinner, and probably every bite on the plate even though your stuffed. You're doing great, girl!

Sandi, hope ya get some sleep soon. Tylenol PM usually knocks me out good, so hope it worked for you.

Theresa

Yesterday was a bad day for me too. Maybe there is something in the air that's getting to all of us. I had 3 grilled cheese sandwiches and 8 crackers with cheese. I think it started because I left the house in the morning without eating breakfast. Then I went shopping, hopng to get a nice pair of black pants, and none of the 16s closed. I want to look nice tomorrow and I will have to go back to my elastic waist old stuff. I had been hoping and I was disappointed, so I went back to old behavior and ate.
Today will be better.
Let's all pull together as we always do.
Laura

I am holding out that today will be better for me too. I am sooooo puffy and swollen and I feel like the staypuff marshmallow girl! Time to get off the stick and stay OP completely otherwise I am really going to undo everything I have done and I am back to feeling icky and the like. I know part of it is TOM but I also know that if I would just stay OP, I wouldn't feel so awful.

My chairs will be finished today. We didn't figure out right and I was short so Mom ran and got the rest for me. I was going to go last night but she heard how the kids were in the background and said she would go for me which I was eternally grateful for. Kewl I just got an email that memolink has mailed me a 15.00 gift card for wallyworld. Not sure why, but I will take it LOL. I did break down and get Odessa a new coat and it is just precious. I got her princesses and it matches her backpack I got her for her birthday. I too have the no more toys deal here. They can have clothes or movies or gift cards to mcdonalds but the toy thing is out of control here too. I got rid of like 8 bags a few weeks ago and I still have two tubs full of stuff. The only thing I want to get Amanda are some blocks and that is only because she keeps emptying out the cans from the cupboards and stacks them.

I am going to get busy around here and I will check in later. I am determined today!
Melissa

Back OP and feeling much better today. Next friday is last WI of the month and I am determined to lose, even if just 1 pound. Last 2 months I have only lost on the last WI, so maybe it is just my pattern :?: My one and only goal for next month will be to stay OP every single week, not just get serious at the end when I freak. That's a big goal, so I won't need more of them!

Did anyone watch Oprah a couple days ago where they did that heart scan that shows it in 3D? It was so motivational for me. Ever since that, when I look at something fatty I think of my heart, my little arteries, and if they are clogged, have calcium, or pinched off :^: It has kept me straight and I'll have to keep thinking about that.

Theresa

I started and tried to watch but the kids were bonko so I missed it. I have heard before that more women die from heart problems than men do. I am going to make staying OP my goal next month too. I have to find a way to combat this TOM crap. I lose my mind every month for about a week and then I start and am ickified and that is just too much time each month to lose ground on.

You know how it is when you get something new and then everything else looks bad so you find yourself cleaning up all around the new item?? Well that is what has happened now that I finished my dining table. So now I am cleaning out cupboards, doing the murphy oil soap thing and got liner for the shelves. I just need to put the last coat on the table legs and it is a finished project! Slowly but surely it is coming together. I just want to stay focused and be the size I was created to be! Focus and refocus no matter how many times it takes.
melissa

My son and DIL said they would come for dinner tonight, so I shopped for a nice supper this morning and I made a chicken, spinach souffle, fresh corn and roasted veggies and he just emailed that they are not coming cause they are fighteing (for a change.) So I am tired and worried about them. and I feel wasted and I definately was not OP today. That's 2 days in a row- not terrible, but definately not a weight loss day.
I need to get back OP, now.
Laura

Wow lots of up ands down this month. I am back from my workshop and visiting my family. I had fun, ate to much, spent to much, and didnt work out enough, oh well, I knew it was going to be like that. Its hard whaen you are a way form home, I did go to Curves once while I was there. I was very happy wiht my wiegh in even though I only lost another pound, I can really tell with the clothes. I did buy a yoga book with a dvd, with the spend to mich part, so am looking foward to trying that, just to stretch and appear thinner. I have saved up $50.00 for my treadmill, but em thinking of an ellptical or a gazelle cause they are cheaper, any suggestions, or your fav,do doem kind of survey, let me know. Epplitic is only $250. Gazelle is $150. treadmill $500. so the others seem more reasonable for this time of year. I could always buy one of those and save up for a treadmill come spring. well I have to go unpack and do laundry and all the fun stuff after not being home for a week. take care and catch up later on tommorow.

It is so hard to have adult children. I think we worry more when they grow up than when they are small and always in our sight. I had about 4 days OP and am just now back up today and it is amazing how much better I feel mentally. I think it is because I know I am doing the right thing.

Well cps called me and said they had the information on my ex that I requested like weeks ago. I will go pick it up Monday morning on my way to see my son's shrink aka my shrink too. I just caught him in a lie because on the day of court, he told me the call was on me not him. If that were the case, they would have told me on the phone that there was no information. I also find it interesting that I haven't had any surprise visits from anyone in that agency. Glad they didn't come today because it has been one of those days but the table is completely done and I got one cupboard washed, cleaned out, and papered. Turned out pretty nice. Now a whole bunch more to go lol.

We all need to refocus it looks like and evaluate why we are feeling the way we are. Mine I know is stress related and TOM related. I automatically stress more right before as the levels are really high. Life is going to happen but wouldn't it be nicer to deal with it healthy and at our right weight than carrying around the extra pounds? I know I want to.
Melissa