Well, I did a short treadmill and some weights today. Have to work back up to heavier treadmill. I can walk a distance in the neighborhood, but it is hard for me to do on the treadmill until I work up to it. I just did 1/4 mile and then 10 reps on the weights of about 7 exercises so that is getting that started again. I was just so tired this morning so I didn't get out to walk. I was up going to the bathroom 4 times last night so by 5 AM I was wrung out and stayed in bed until 7 AM or so.
I am doing well on food again and the lbs will be coming off within a week or so and that will make me happy. Actually, giving up soda and taking in more water with my diuretic has already made me lose lbs but it isn't far to count that I don't think!
You know I have been looking at emotional eating and I don't really do that. About the only thing I do like that is eat if I am bored so I am trying to keep myself busy during the day. If I am sad, mad, etc, I CLEAN!

It may still be screwed up, but better to have an overly clean house than to be eating!

I do have a lot of issues but they don't make me eat. I do know that like a lot of other fat women, I have a fear of being small I think. It is absolutely crazy and nuts but I know buried back in my brain is this rotten voice saying, "If you are small, then maybe you will become a big flirt, etc." My God! I absolutely adore my husband, think he is gorgeous, sexy and the best thing that ever happened to me, but I know that is one of the things I have to deal with. Unlike many of you, I have been a big girl my whole life. I don't necessarily mean, fat, but I have always been sort of a botticelli in my younger days. I mean, I weighed 185 lbs when I got married. I weighed 145 lbs when I was in 7th grade with big boobs, but I was amazingly naive so I didn't have boyfriends and anyone who showed an interest got the cold shoulder. With that being said, I think that the fact I have no reference with which to gage myself being small makes those thoughts lie there in my brain. It is something I have been working on for a long time and have to continue to do so. One BIG emotional issue I have is being deserving. I have to really get after myself about that one and you would think with a husband like mine, I wouldn't have that issue, but I do. I had a mother who criticized and never complimented, who basically threw away the two oldest because one was short and fat and the other tall and big with her favorites being her baby boy and her sweet skinny dd. So I have to talk to myself about everyone deserves to be happy and healthy and that things said in the past don't matter in the present or future.
Enough about me. I am just proud that I have friends like you guys. I am amazed at your progress and so very proud of you all!
Have a great day
Faye
