hi....everyone im new here ...and i already love this website its great.......wish to speak to lots of you out there., and im really glad to see im not the only one that falls off the wagon of dieting... especially under stress! As soon as those wheels start to buckle ..thats it im eating like there is no 2morrow.....please say hi to me soon........im from sydney australia....would love to talk to others from same place .....or any where else in the world...........bye for now chubby!!

Good morning all! I don't have much time. I'm on the computer at the library. I only get one hour. :(

I have good news!! I am down two more pounds! I am now at 223.5 pounds!! I am so happy about it!
I still don't have a job. This week is a holding week for unemployment so I can't earn anything this week. If I'm still unemployed next week, I can get some money. The bad thing is that I'll only get $154 a week for unemployment. YUCK!! I've got to really look at my budget again to see where I stand with that. I must have a plan!! On a good note, my daughter is on spring break next week so it would really be nice to be able to spend that week with her. As of now it looks like I will!! :) I'm going to go home and clean and figure out the bills and budget!!

I hope you all are doing well!! Have a wonderful day!! I'll try to post tomorrow.

Stephanie
234/223.5/125
SW/ CW / GW

Happy Monday Ladies
 

Oh well...onward with the day. I went to the gym on friday...it was a good work out...the tops of my stomach abs are still sore...so I couldt really work them out...again!! I can do some exercises but not that one machine that originally hurt my abs...I did do the rest of my body....and that went well. Mario picked me up at the gym...he had a contract job to go look at..he will be rennovating a dance studio down town...its like a 3 week job...so after his welding job...he will be going there week nights to do that...so I wont be seeing him as much once that job starts… Anyway, I got to see him plenty this weekend...Saturday I went over to his house...we went to the movies...Saw Constantine...and I ate Pizza Hut...EEEK...but it was tasty...I worked out Sunday at the gym ....so hopefully it balanced it all out. Mario came over to my house after my work out and I set up my new computer....my internet provider has to send me out a new modem that is compatible with my new puter ..so no internet at home for a week until they send me my modem....

I visited with my Momma on Saturday and I also met with my good friend on Sunday. She told me that she and her husband just bought a new fourplex...four units...and they need rennovation work...so she asked if Mario would be interested in doing that....so looks like he has more work coming his way...after the dance studio is done...the kitchen and bathrooms need redoing...So I told Mario about it...and he will take a look at that job too.

I go to the gym tonight...looking forward to that...should be a good workout..I think I will focus more on cardio tonight ...do at least 20-30 minutes of the bike.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: ham sandwich
dinner: oven baked trout with carrots and snow peas
snack: yogurt, fruit smoothie, pear, and plum
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: gym

Welcome chubbyaussiegal ...tells us more about yourself...we want details please!! LOL

Hey Stephanie..you lost your job!! I must of missed that post...sorry to hear that your unemployment is so little..hopefully you will find a job soon that suits your needs and is more in tune with what you want to do.

Cjunk...I had no more pie this weekend...but I did have ice cream, and millefeuille pastry....two reeeses cups...individual size...Gosh...I am out of control....just typing it down here has freaked me out...I must have a clean evening tonight. Hey...you are gonna get married in a tropical setting...I was think I would like a hawaiian wedding myself. Hey when are you coming to Montreal to see your sister...we should really meet...how long have we been online buddies..I dont even know your real name...I'm Mariette by the way.

Have a great day

Cyan

I worked out last night at the gym....did 20 minutes of the bike and 40 minutes of weights...its funny how the time flies while lifting weights..I always had it in my mind that it would be boring but its actually rather fun. The scary part is that I am up to 155 this morning up from my previous low of 152 pounds...so that is scary...I am hoping its my body adjusting to the weight lifting....but I have been eating more...like about 200 to 300 calories more per day...I have to cut back on that....its the deserts...those are putting me over. Also last night...My Dad brought home a big mac...yes I ate it...ack!! I told him to not do that because I cant eat those for a little while until I start losing again....lets see if he gets it.

I also have my period so I am hoping I am holding on to some water weight...fingers crossed. Funny, I start working out really hard and I am gaining weight instead of losing it...very frustrating but I wont give up..I will keep at it...my clothes arent tighter so thats great!!

Mario is picking me up after work today...I cant wait to see him...poor fellow..he is going through a rough patch...he is quiting smoking and its very hard on him right now...he has been smoking since he was 16 years old Thats like over 20 years of smoking...anyway...he’s working on quiting and the cravings and physical addiction is of the nicotine is very hard on his body...I am hoping he can do it...I am not a smoker so I dont know how hard it is but I have heard that it is very tough.

I guess I can relate to him in some ways. I have an addiction to food...and I know how hard it is for me to control my food intake and not eat whatever I want...like last night after the gym...my friend wanted to go have a chai latte...so we went to Santropol http://www.santropol.com/ very funky cafe restaurant...been going there most of my life...check it out...neat website..anyway...they were out of chai latte...so instead of being tempted to order one of their delicious sandwiches...and they are soooooooo good...or one of their heavenly deserts...we left...Yep...didnt order anything...I went home...so I was very happy I was strong enough to turn down their delicious yet calorie laden food.

For me..its one temptation at a time...that is how I deal with it...If I mess up...I get back up...keep at it...I have been working on my sabotaging ways...trying to stop that behaviour...its hard...but its ongoing...and I will conquer it..I have too.

So I can understand how hard it must be for Mario. But if he wants it bad enough..he will do it. And it sure does look like he is trying and wants it.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: frozen meal...lasagna
dinner: finally that oven baked trout with asparagus and rice
snack: pear, and fruit smoothie
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: Mario is over tonight

Have a great day everyone

Cyan

Hello Everyone,

Just a quick post from work.

Welcome chubby! Also a hello to Stephanie. Some plusses do come out of not being at work--like being able to spend time with your kids. Good luck on finding a new job. I hope you find one soon!

Hello Cyan, I think we have known each other for a few years now. Strange to hear your real name but it is an awesome name. Mine is Christine, but most friends call me Chris and you are welcome to. I should be going to Montreal sometime in April and will let you know as soon as I do!! I am going to Quebec soon but that's a little out of your way.

I went rock climbing yesterday. Scheduled to go again later this week as well. Eating not spectacular but not bad.

Talk to you all soon,

Cjunk

I have to go pick up my new modem at the post office today...they delivered it to my house yesterday at around 11 am but my Dad didnt get the door.... So I couldnt install it last night..but boy am I rushing over to the post office today and picking it up. Then I will go home, change quickly and go to the gym...then later tonight I will take a look at my modem and possibly install it if it doesnt look too hard to do...hopefully it wont be.

Mario picked my up last night at work...I just got off the phone with him just now and drum roll please....he has been smoke free for over 24 hours!!! Poor fellow...he is having a hard time but he says he can do it...here’s to him going day two without smoking...Send lots of good energy his way...thank you.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: peanut butter sandwich
lunch: leftover trout, one boiled potato, one boiled egg
dinner: tuna sandwich with green salad
snack: yogurt, fruit smoothie and banana
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: gym tonight

Have a great day

Cyan

Its my little fur bucket’s birthday today...Molly is four years old...she is so cute...a traditional ruddy colored abyssinian feline...that she is...very dainty...tappered paws and tail...the perfect halloween cat....she is very sweet and shy....has very loving eyes...I am so happy she is in my life. Happy Birthday dear Molly...hope your feline day today is full of fun things to do as you play around the house waiting for me to come home. She has an older brother ...Cyan...he takes very good care of her....His birthday is next tuesday...March 22...he will be 5 years old...and he is a wild ruddy colored abyssinian...big cougar like cat...strong paws and broad shoulders.

Anyway....I went to the gym last night...work out went well....I could finally work out my abs...so they are finally healed..but I was extra careful wit them...didnt use heavy weights at all and made sure my form was correct. Looks like I did it right because I am not in pain this morning.

Mario is still smoke free....I spoke with him last night and he said he gave away the rest of his cigarettes he had at home because it was to tempting to smoke them...I am going to Costco this weekened and buying him industrial amounts of sugar free bumblegum...his favorite. This way he can eat those as often as he likes and not fear running out of the gum. I wont see him till Saturday afternoon...I have my last class tonight...he has hockey...then Friday after the gym I am going over to Ivano’s house for his first dinner party...he has invited a small group over for indian food..hmmmm cant wait. I know he will do a great job...he is so maticulous at everything he does.

I installed my modem last night and it was easy as pie....so that means I am back on line!!

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: small bagel with cream cheese and smoked trout
dinner: not sure yet
snack: bolthouse green goodness juice, yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: either cycling or walking

Have a super duper day

I am hoping the feelings of will follow after writing down Happy Monday...ACK!! who am I kidding...Monday mornings are always tough...I did manage to pass by the post office this morning and drop off my old modem..sent it back to my ISP.

Anyway, went to the gym on friday and Sunday...so its all good. Dinner at Ivano’s house was great...Mario and Ivano both hit it off nicely...conversation was natural and flowed easily....Mario always surprises me with his wit, intelligence and social abilities...he keeps telling me its hard for him..that he is not a good conversationalist and them...bam....he does such a great job and it seems so effortless.

On Saturday, we drove over to my accountants house which also happens to be a friend of mine...its like over an hour away and when we got there...she was trashed...seriously...totally drunk! She live with her boyfriend and they had gone over to a neighbors house and they were both drunk when we got there for 4 pm!!! It was quite the spectacle..anyway, needless to say, I didnt get my taxes done that day...instead we hung out a bit and her boyfriend made lasagna...in his drunken stupor...we really wanted to leave but felt obliged to stay...anyway, it was rather interesting to say the least...she kept apologizing...I told her it was fine...Mario felt kinda awkward cause her boyfriend kept plying him with beer and hard liquor and Mario had to keep saying no thank you....very stressful for him...he did drink 3 corona’s for the 4-5 hours we were there...and he had a spliting headache afterward!! Anyway, Mario is on day 7 of no smoking and still going strong although he just told me this morning he had a weak moment last night...after soccer he said he had a hard time sleeping and thankfully there were no cigarettes in the house...his brother is quitting too....see how the ripple effect works...just takes one person to start it...anyway, his brother is supporting him as well in terms of encouraging him not to smoke...looks like they are helping each other with this...always good to have support.

Anyway, my workout last night was fun cause Ivano came with me and Lisa and kept us company while we pumped iron, cycled, ran and did our thing...before I knew it, it was 1.15 minutes later. We then went back to my house and had Chai tea and watch a little tv. I was in bed and sleeping my 10.30pm. Out like a light...I slept over at Mario’s on Saturday night and his bed is way too soft...my lower back was killing me when I got up and I found it hard to get a restful sleep. So come Sunday night...I was tired and oh my bed is so comfortable.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: turkey sandwich on french bread with hummus and cheddar cheese
dinner: same thing..I am going straigth to see my Mom and then to the gym
snack: bolthouse green goodness fruit smoothie, 6 grain yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: gym workout.

Have a great day

Cyan

I had a very busy day yesterday...In the morning I hauled back my old modem to the post office...two post offices..the first one was closed.
On the way home last nigt, I passed by the SAQ ...Societe des Alcool du Quebec...its the government liquor store ...anyway, I bought two bottles of white wine...one italian and the other portuguese....I will use on of them for my mussels recipe for Good Friday dinner.

I then lugged both those bottles with my lunch bag and bag to visit my Mom....I was so happy to see her and her me...but when it was time for me to leave she sat on the chair and peed right there...I was devistated...I felt so bad...I had a hard time finding anyone to help me change her...everybody disappears around dinner time...finally I tracked down a helper who gave me attitude...but I told her she had no choice but to help me change my mother...she was completely urinated...soaked through..urine on the floor ...on her chair and in her slippers....I finally got her washed up and I noticed her brown slippers were missing...I asked the lady if she knew where they were and right away I got more attitude...I told her I didnt want to hear that she doesnt know...that she doesnt work on that floor...this is what I get all the time ....I asked for her name and at first she refused to tell me her name...I guess she is afraid I will get her in trouble...that place tires me out. The least she could of said was...I will check for you..I will find out or take note that your Mom’s slippers are missing.

Anyway, I hauled home a bag of urinated clothes to wash immediately upon getting home. I started the washing machine as soon as I got home...with extra detergent..I also let it soak for a good hour whilst I ate and then went to the gym to work out.

I ran on the treadmill for 20 minutes...first time...that really helped with the tension...then I did my usual weights. I also walked to and from the gym...my friend Lisa came back to my place and we heated up the roasted chicken and she made Salad while I showered. We ate, I finished washing my Mom’s clothes.

Then Mario called...he always puts a smile on my face...his voice comforts me...I cant wait to see him today...he is picking me up tonight. I am so looking forward to seeing him. He will be coming over for my good friday dinner...looks like Lisa and Ivano might come if they have no place to go. Sunday Easter will be spent with Mario’s family...brother and kids and bro’s GF...looking forward to that too.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: leftover roast chicken with carrots
dinner: thai green curry chicken with veggies
snack: bolhouse green goodness fruit smoothie, yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: Mario is coming over LOL

Ok have a good day

Cyan

But its really thursday cause friday is a holiday!!! Wooooooohoooooooooo I have lots to do for the weekend too...all good stuff. On thursday, Mario is picking me up at work and I am going to pick up the mussels for friday’s dinner just incase the stores are closed on Good Friday...dont know if they will be open and I dont want to take a chance. Anywho...I will pick up what I need thursday night. The mussels should be fresh for next day cooking...right? Hmmm will look into that.

Anyway, Mario picked me up last night at work and we had a wonderful dinner...I made thai green coconut curried chicken with veggies...turned out really good...spicey and coconutty...yum yum...I brought it in for lunch today....also some for my office pet Greg...who always enjoys my cooking so its nice to bring him some food ...especially when there are left overs that no one will eat at home...I dont like throwing away food.

Its gym time tonight...I am surprising myself with how much I am enjoying going there....for real..I find it destressing to go there and spend a good hour working out and hanging out with Lisa...she has been just wonderful with going with me all the time. She is tryingn to lose about 20-30 pounds and she is working very hard at it too. Lets just say that I am inspired and impressed by her motivation and dedication. You see...her Mom is dying from lung cancer ..so she is very stressed out too...and she suffers from schizophrenia...which is controlled by medication....if you meet her, you would never guess that she carries such a heavy load....she manages it so well. So I am so pleased that she comes with me to work out...I really enjoy her company especially when I see how hard she works at keeping her life together....she has taught me a lot by example.

Anyway, Meal Plan for today

Breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: coconut curry chicken
dinner: turkey breast sandwich with hummus
snack: strawberries, yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: gym tonight...cardio and weights

Have a super duper day

Cyan

My weekend starts tomorrow I am so happy about that...looking forward to sleeping in a bit...relaxing in bed before getting up to start my day. Oh joy!!

On the bus ride in to work this morning there were a group of Cirque du Soleil performers..they were on their way to the Old Port of Montreal where the cirqus tent is up for the show they are having. The are all so thin, and strong bodied...their bodies are instruments of art....its was fascinating to see them move with grace and ease...they almost float. Sigh!! I have seen Varikai...and it just blew me away....the things they do with their bodies is out of this world.

Anyway, I went to gym last night...proud to say that I ran again...on the treadmill for 20 minutes, then 15 minutes of the speed cylce and then about 50 minutes of weights....I must admit I am rather enjoying working out at the gym..I was there for a good hour and 20 minutes. My gym will be open friday and sunday so I will go those days too. Monday they close at 8pm so I dont know if I can make it for that day...we will see.

Mario is picking me up today...and he driving me to the grocery store after work .... This way I dont have to go home, get my car out of my driving way..which is so narrow..anyway, it helps me out a lot to have him pick me up and drive me...hugs to him for being so considerate. I need to pick up mussels and shrimp for Good Friday dinner tomorrow. Ivano is going over to his brothers house...so he wont be joing us ..I still have to find out if Lisa is coming. but she probably wont know till the last minute...sigh!! I guess I will have to buy extra food just in case she does show up.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: I have to buy it ...so most likely sushi or a sandwich with side salad
dinner: frozen pizza with caesar salad...light dressing of course.
snacks: strawberries and bolthouse berry boost smoothie, yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: dont think I will be getting any today.

Have a great day!

Cyan

ps where is everybody!!! I wonder if I should just quit this post...getting pretty lonely in here all by myself

Hello all. Sorry I have been MIA. I tend to get that way. It's usually a sign that I'm eating like a pig and sitting around watching TV. It's spring break here so the kids and I are all here hanging out. It's starting to get a little old. I had a job interview on Tuesday in the Labor and Delivery unit at one of the hospitals here. I am so hoping that they hire me. It's my dream job! I hate job interviews though. I start talking and talking...never knowing when to stop. I get so nervous. I hate it!!! Anyway, I hope to know more in a couple of weeks.

Well, I'm eating horribly, but I just bought Dr Phil's weightloss book. A friend told me I should read it. We'll see.

That's all for now!

Lisa

Happy Tuesday ...Yep..I cant come up with an interesting title today...really most days...anyway....I have a busy day but its all good.

I went to the gym last night...it went well..I didnt run...but cycled instead and then did weights. Food hasnt been the best..I have eating way too much chocolate...all that Easter chocolate is killing me...must be strong..say no to chocolate.

At least Mario didnt give me any chocolate..oh wait..he did..but a small easter egg...cream filled...from Laura Secord..it was gross ...I bit into it..too sweet...I threw it out...He agreed it sucked. He also gave me a pink easter bunny...stuffed toy...Now he is cute...you can bend his ears any which way. He is picking me up today after work and coming over for dinner and to hang out. I am looking forward to seeing him. He told me over the weekend that he is falling in love with me...Yep! he verbalized those words to me. I told him I was feeling the same way.

I have my gynie appointment thursday morning...ACK!! Not looking forward to that but one must not deglect your health..so my yearly exam is up and its time for a Pap smear and all that other poking around and stuff. I also made an appointment for my yearly checkup with my family doctor..this time I will have to do a complete blood work...check cholesterol, sugar, thyroid function, liver, std’s all that stuff...man oh man...that is hard.. I hate taking blood...at least Mario is coming too...he has an appointment for the same blood exams. At least that will only happen the end of May. Have some time to prepare for the blood test.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: french bread with hummus and a slice of ham
lunch: mussels afredo with linguini pasta
dinner: favabean stew with side order of spinach
snack: banana
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: maybe cycling if I get the chance otherwise its a night off

Have a great day

Cyan

Although its gray and somber out there...rain too...most of the night...oh well...my lymphnodes on my neck hurt...I may be getting sick but I think I have enough immunity wellness to fight it off...come on body..you can do this!! I didnt wind up going to the gym last night...it was raining cats and dogs...so Lisa who had come over for dinner ...we were going to walk up to the gym...anyway, we did an hour long accelerated body sculpting Pilates DVD instead!!! Ouch! let me tell you...that was tough...and I got a work out in ...Yay me.

Tonight I am supposed to go over to Mario’s place and then he is supposed to take me out for a sushi dinner!!! Looking forward to that...cant wait to see my cutiepie...but that means I wont be going to the gym tonight...I will cycle at home instead and get in at least 20 minutes on the bike ...I dont want to drive in traffic so I will wait till 6.30 pm to take the bridge over to his house which leaves me enough time to do some at home cycling. I will go to the gym on Saturday and Sunday so its all good.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: pork and clam stew
dinner: sushi!!!
snack: banana and pear
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: 20 minutes cycling at home

Have a super duper day

Cyan

Hello Cyan! I'm so glad to see you here. I do read although I don't aways have time to post. I usually have a baby in my lap or on the floor eating something like a penny or some paper. Anything that shouldn't be in in his mouth.

Please know, cyan, that you inspire me so much! I think of you and your weightloss success many times when I am discouraged. You help me know that it is possible. My problem is that I want immediate results. I'm inpatient. Then when I don't get the results fast enough, I get depressed and I eat and sabotage myself. I've been reading the Dr. Phil book. I haven't gotten very far because my time is limited, but I find it very good at helping me look inward and helping me make changes in my head before I can make changes in my weight.

Things with you and Mario seem to be going so well. I am so happy for you!

Cjunk and the rest of you, hope you are doing well. Talk to you again later,

Lisa

ps
 

I did NOT get the job I interviewed for, but that's okay. Chalk it up to a learning experience. I have another interview tomorrow in Labor and Delivery at a different hospital. YIPEE!

Lisa

Good luck Lisa ...fingers crossed for you in regards to getting the new job!!
Thanks for the comment..I will try my best to keep posting. Good going on reading the Dr Phil book..if it helps...its all good.

Yes things are going wonderfully well with Mario and I...he makes me very happy...I love spending time with him and it only gets better!!

My Mom...she is in the early stages of kidney failure and has iron deficiency. It makes me sad to see how much she is suffering...I hate that illness and the fact that I dont have enough money to put her in a private care facility that would take much better care of her.

later

Cyan

Cyan, I am sorry to hear that your mother is getting sicker. Iron deficiency can be easily treated depending on the cause and her renal failure, though serious can be treated as well for some time. However, how she tolerates treatment, I guess, could be of concern. Hang in there for her. She needs you. You are her main advocate and voice. You obviously love her very much. Make sure most of all that any pain she is having is being treated. Pain is very real to the patient no matter their mental status. Pain can cause eradic behavior and irritability. Treat the pain and you can more easily assess her needs. I am hoping they are monitoring her input and output and restricting fluids if needed. If she is unable to make urine efficiently, she will swell up and then there will be cardiac problems on the way.

I am happy for you and Mario. He sounds so wonderful. It's so nice that you have someone to turn to for comfort who accepts you and loves you. You deserve that in your life with all that you do for others.

Well, it's late and I just got home from clinicals. I am so tired. The room is kind of tilted right now....I have got to go to bed!

Hope to talk to you soon! Hopefully we will meet up on IM at the same time one of these days!

Lisa

Hi Girls

I have noticed the few posts on this thread so I have decided to only journal from now on. my username on the journal is the same "CYAN" I hope to see you all there!

Good luck with your weight loss plan and life in general. Thank you so much for all of your support and kindness these past few years

hugs to everyone and see you on the journal boards

Cyan

Wow...is out site really going to end?? :?: I was hoping ya'll were doing better than me in finding time to get here and keeping the thread going. My life has been so hectic for the past year that I dont even have time for necessities most days much less things for my enjoyment. Cyan, I appreciate your steadfastness with coming here for the last several years. I'm sorry I wasnt able to do better. I miss everyone and think of all of you often. I've been dying to get back here!! Looks like everyone has just gotten extra busy these days. One positive note: I have walked 2 miles a day for 6 weeks now. Negative note: My eating is still awul and I havent lost even one lb doing the walking! :^: I just cant seem to get it under control. It's time for me to get in the shower to get ready for work so I better go for now. I'm going to keep checking here occasionally hoping to run into some of you again. By the way, I've never used the journals...not really even sure how to get there. I'll try to check that out soon.
I miss ya'll bunches!!!
MIKI

Miki

I saw your post! I'm still here. Yes, I'm busy but I'm still here! I graduated from nursing school last weekend! Can you believe I finally did it!!! I start my new job in the Emergency Department next Monday. YIPPEE> I'm so excited!

Food wise, I'm trying a new approach. It's a gradual change. I've been keeping myself busy so as not to get bored and eat. I've also been brushing my teeth after dinner and that keeps me from eating late into the night! I've also been keeping sweet things out of the house. Exercise and I have not found each other in a while...but ...babysteps...

I was so happy to hear from you ! I'll keep posting if you keep posting...and I bet if we try hard enough...cyan will come back and we can get some of the gang together. I post in the journal occasionally and I always check to see what Cyan's been up to. She's in love, you know! It's so nice. She's very happy, it seems.

Well, that is all!

Hope to hear from you again soon!

Lisa

Hi Lisa!! I was so glad to find a post from you! I just couldnt bear to think of the thread just ending. Even tho I find very little time to get in here, I like knowing it's here when I can.

Congrats on your graduation and new job!! I hope you love your new job. Be sure to let me know how your first week goes. I am going to try very hard to get in here more often...at least once a week. I really do miss everyone.

My sis and her two kids are here right now from Utah. That's a 24 hr drive from us. Her husband is in the military and they were transferred last summer. We've never been more than 2 hrs apart before so I'm thrilled they are here. They have to leave to go back Wednesday.

I've had tons of things going on the last year and one of these days when I have lots of time, I"ll fill you in on everything. As for now, I better run. School night and 10:30 pm and the kids are still up!

Thanks for the reply!
MIKI

Well, today was my first day and it was so boring!!!!!! Nothing but paperwork and computer stuff...blah blah blah.

I'm glad to see you back, Miki! I hope to hear what's been going on in your life! I just got home and I'm going to relax a while.

Talk to you soon!

Lisa

Hi Lisa...
Boring day huh...I bet that will change next Monday. Cant wait to hear how well you like your new job. Kinda sad today since my sis and the kids left out today to go back to Utah. :( My sisters and I are all very close and we hate having one so far away. I may fly out with my mom tho in September. I hope that works out. I didnt walk today but plan on it tomorrow. My sis who lives 2 miles away walks with me every morning at 6 but she couldnt make it today. We have only missed about 3 days in the last 6 weeks. If I could just get a handle on my eating!!! Well, I still have ironing etc to do before bedtime and Luke needs help studying for finals so I better go for now. If I dont get back here before then, have a great Memorial Day weekend!

Miki

Well, tomorrow night is the big first day in the ER!! Not only is it a Saturday night, but it's a Saturday night on a Holiday Weekend!!! I'm getting started off with a bang! I'm actually very excited!

I just got my littlest one to bed. The other two are watching late night cartoons. It's Friday night so they can stay up as long as they want. It's my sneaky way to get them to sleep in on Saturday! hee hee hee.

I've been doing a lot of contemplating on my weight today. I saw my reflection in my sliding glass door while I was sitting out on our deck. I was kind of disgusted. I'm about 205 right now. I've been eating like a pig for about a week now. I'm really worried that once I'm working these late hours, I'll really start making bad food choices. So, I'm trying to figure out what it is I'm supposed to do. There's low carb which has worked for me before, there's counting calories, which I think will feel like I'm starving to death. There's exercise like crazy and eat what I fee like within reason. There's only eat salad and drink water, there's all the programs, like Slim Fast, Weight Watchers, LA Weightloss, Jenny Craig, ATkins, South Beach, etc, etc. I just don't know what to do. I am such an emotional eater. I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad, I eat when I'm angry, I eat when I'm stressed, I eat when I'm tired, I eat when I'm bored, I eat when I'm frustrated...it goes on and on. I am just lost.

Well, that's all for me today. I feel like I've sufficiently vented.

I hope Miki, that you're doing well. Maybe someone else will venture in here soon enough as well. I sure do miss everyone. I'm glad to see you and can't wait to hear everything that's been going on in your life. Tell me tell me tell me!!

I'll let you know how my first night at work goes! Wish me luck!

Lisa

Hey I just checked in here and much to my surprise...the thread is not completely dead..how cool. Quick note on what I have been up to...still trying to lose the last 15 pounds...since I started dating Mario and working out at the gym...I have had no weight loss. I am trying to figure how to start losing again. I learned how to not overeat when I was sad, upset, mad, angry etc but not when I am happy...so I have been happy lately and over eating..so no weight loss...basically if I wasnt doing all the workouts, I would of gained my weight back by now..so now I am teaching myself to not over eat when I am happy, celebrating, feeling good..I am also getting used to not keeping up with Mario when he eats..he eats faster that me, takes bigger bites etc...I wasnt even aware that my eating had sped up or that I was trying to keep up with him...I have learned a few tricks...instead of eating from the salad bowl,I will put my portion onto my plate, veggies etc..before I would put in on one plate and eat from there..and that is when I noticed I was eating faster to make sure I got to eat some food...yes how sad is that!!! Anyway, I also mentioned it to Mario that he eats too fast...he agrees..we had a good laugh about it when I told him I was trying to keep up with him...so now he is slowing down and I am putting my poritons on my plate or a seperate plate ..this way I can be more consious of how fast I eat. I would much rather enjoy the taste of the food instead of wolfing it down because I am afraid I wont get any otherwise...so embarassing to even write this down...oh well..gotta own up to this or else I wont change this behavior of mine.

Meal Plan for today

Breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk, banana-bran muffin..home made..low fat
lunch: sandwiches 2 small ones..using flax seed whole grain bread: one has salami and the other has ham
dinner: oven baked red snapper with asparagus
snack: apple
beverages: water, tea , diet cola

exercise: walked to work, will walk home, gym workout for an hour

have a good day.

Mikki nice to have you back

Lisa..congragts on getting your emergency RN job!! You must keep us posted on how it all goes.

Here to recommitting to restarting our weight loss plans

are you girls in?

hugs

Cyan

just wanted to check in and report on how AWESOME my new job is! I was so nervous before my first night in the ER...but then once I got there, everyone was SO NICE!!! I was immediately made to feel welcomed and everyone encouraged me and introduced themselves. My preceptor, Teena, is excellent. She is such a good teacher and she is willing to let me take the reigns and go for it! I've started IV's, I've admitted, I've discharged patients...I'm learning so much and I LOVE IT!!! The 7pm to 7am schedule is a bit daunting, but the time goes by so fast! I'm dog tired right now and my feet are killing me. I got home Sunday Morning and slept till about 3pm and then went back to work Sunday night. I got home this morning and only slept till about 1pm. I don't go back to work until Wednesday night. The hardest part is leaving the baby overnight. He's been with daddy these first two nights, so that's nice, but Wednesday night he's with my 16 year old sis-in-law who comes and stays the night. Last night...or this morning....I'm not sure LOL, my milk leaked through my shirt. That was kind of rough, but it dried and I wasn't too uncomfortable...I just missed my baby.

Okay, that's enough about that. All in all, I love my job, I love my new profession!

Food wise....Well, this schedule is rough. I'm going to have to work out the kinks. I'm formulating a plan in my brain.

Exercise...well....isn't running around like a mad woman for 12 hours a work out? I do sweat!
Cyan, I know exactly what you mean about eating with all of our emotions. I'm still working on that. But...knowing is half the battle!
Miki, hope you are well! Hope to hear from you soon!
Hope everyone has a great Memorial Day.

Lisa

Wow Lisa you sound so happy with your new job..how cool is that...good going on graduating and sticking to your guns. If you can make it through nursing school whilst pregnate and married with kids...you can lose this weight...yes you can Lisa...stick to your guns...get it done

have a great day

Cyan

Hi again! Cyan, so glad you dropped back in! I had dropped you a line in the journal place but didnt realize it was totally separate from here so it wouldnt let me post. I didnt have time at the moment to sign up but I planned on doing so later. Welcome back!

Lisa, your job sounds great. Except for missing the baby...I know that part has got to be tough. Lucky for you having family that can help out tho. Would be worse leaving him overnight with someone else in their home.

I have finally upped my 2 miles a day to 3 miles for the past week. My sis and I have been walking 8 weeks now..BUT I'm still terrible at the eating part! So frustrating that I cant seem to get myself on track with that. Seems pointless to walk 3 miles and not lose a lb(especially getting up at 5:30 am to do it) but then again what would I weigh if I didnt walk at all??

I was down to 189 a yr ago and am now at 210. :( I just cannot regain the rest!!! Drinking water is something else that I just have got to make myself start again regularly. That and coming here are the main two things that I did back then that I dont regularly do now. Going to work on all that.

Well better run. Luke, my 13 yr old, is having a sleep study done tonight...was sent by the ENT doc. It's from 9 pm til 5 a.m. and Phil is on call for work and cant stay with him so I get the pleasure of doing it. I have a feeling there wont be much rest for me. Anyway, I still have some things to do before we head to the hospital.

Great being here again!

Miki

Hey gals! I started to post earlier today, but the baby in my lap hit a key and deleted all of it!!

Good on you Miki for the exercise you are doing! It doesn't matter if you lose a pound or not. You are doing great things for your body! Especially your heart! Keep it up. The rest will come in time.

Cyan, so glad to have you here! I hope you are doing well. I think of you often and wonder how things are going with your new LOVE!!!!

The new job is still going GREAT!!! I love it. The only part that is hard is my darn FEET!! I have heel spurs on both feet. I got cortisone injections in both of them a week before I started the job. I went to the dr. yesterday because of a swollen painful area on the side of my heel. Lo and behold.. it's bursitis. Not much the dr could do but feel sorry for me and give me an anti-inflammatory to take once a day. I also have torn ligaments on the bottom of one foot from doing the stretches I'm supposed to do for the heel spurs. I've been icing them and trying to let them rest before I go back to work on Monday night. This is why I'm bad at exercising. My feet hurt VERY BAD!!!!! I try to keep up at work. I do okay, but I'm secretly suffering!

I'm trying a new approach to my weight loss. I'm simply cutting back. I'm going to try portion size and better healthier selections. I'm not restricting anything. I'm going to make different choices. Apple and peanut butter instead of a candy bar. Water instead of pop. whole grain cereal instead of cookie crisp. Whole wheat instead of white. Broccoli instead of fries. Salad instead of a Big Mac. Doesn't mean I can't have dessert once in a while like on Sundays when we have a big family meal at the mil's. As for exercise...I'm going to buy a bicycle this summer and the whole family is going to go biking. There are some great bike trails around our new house. My feet keep me from a lot of things I could do, but they'll soon be better.

That's all for me! Hope to hear from both of you again soon!

Lisa

Lisa....You always have such a positive outlook...even with hurting feet! I hope they do get better soon. When the feet hurt, nothing feels good huh? Maybe it wont take them long to get broken in. The family bike rides sound like fun.

Cyan....When are we going to get to see a pic of you and Mario? I'm really happy for you. He sounds like he just might be "the one." He definitely seems to be a great guy by your descriptions. I had to laugh at your post about eating fast to keep up and make sure you had time for the good stuff...sounded like me! lol

Ok girls...another Monday tomorrow...another new start...I hope. :dizzy: I am going to TRY really hard to drink that water and cut back on the food intake. Lisa, when I did so well before I did it the way you are talking about trying now. I never did restrict myself from any certain foods..just the portions. If I could just get back to that!

Well, I feel guilty being on here right now. Everyone else is out mowing etc....BUT I have decided I have just got to find time for this. I honestly think everyone here is such a help plus there's that accountability factor also. I have missed all that. I would love to come one day and find that all the other chicks have wandered back in also!

Anyway, really need to get off this computer and help out with the chores. Bedtime will be here before I know it. Everyone have a great week!

MIKI

Hey girls

Sounds like its buzzing in here again...good to see...Miki ..one step at a time...its good that you are walking...get into the routine of exercise again and then tackle the food...getting back on track is a process..dont rush it..before you know it...you will be eating the right foods and the right amounts and exercising and losing weight.

Hey Lisa..sorry to hear about your feet...I can understand..I suffer from painful bunions...had foot pain all of my life. But glad to hear that you love your new job..I am so proud of you...remember when you were telling us how hard school was...and wondering if you were going to graduate and find work...well...looks like it has all worked out. I think your new health plan is much better...sounds very wise not to exclude any foods and before you know it, you will start losing weight too.

I have been reading You, the owners manual...very cool book. I too am working on portion control .... since dating Mario, my portions have gotten bigger..so I must cut back on those too...I have really lost any weight...still working on losing those last 12 pounds myself. sigh...so I better listen to myself and start putting into action my plan...which is simply to cut back on portions sizes and eat less deserts.

I will be taking pictures of Mario and myself soon..just havent gotten around to it..you know how that goes.

tonight is gym time...I have to renew my membership...ugh more money...I have been bleeding money lately.

Ok have a good day

Cyan

Hi ya'll!

Just a quick post to say hello. It's the weekend finally...hoorayyy!!! Hope everyone enjoys theirs. I am thrilled that the week is over. My sister and I did take a break this week and skipped 2 days of walking but we have rarely missed any for the last 9 weeks. And I actually think the scale showed a 3 lbs loss this week for a change. Not much considering 9 weeks of walking but at least it's a LOSS!!...right?? 'Bout time! Well, going to try to get some housework done tonight so I dont have to use up my entire weekend doing that so better go for now. I'll be back here soon!

Miki

Hi girls! I'm actually off work today. I think I mentioned the other day that Luke, my 13 yr old, had to have a sleep study done at the hospital. Well, we got the results of that on Friday and on Tuesday he had to have his tonsils and adenoids taken out. Phil and I were both off for the surgery, then he stayed home with him yesterday and it's my turn today. He has done amazingly well. Very minimal pain and was able to eat the very first night! I was dreading it so bad because Luke normally has zero pain tolerance. He hasnt complained at all!! He actually said his IV was the worst part.

Seems to be slowing down in here again. Just really hard to get in here without being able to do so at work. Lisa, how are things going with your new job? Still loving it? I hope so and I hope your feet have adjusted!

Cyan, I know you're busy..you actually have a job AND a social life..lol (I cant seem to find time for the social part...I guess 3FC IS my social life :lol: )Mario seems to have been just what the doctor ordered. Everytime you post, you seem happier than ever. That is so great.

I am still sticking with my morning walk....12 weeks now I think. But I still cant get ahold on my eating!! Seems that every Monday I have this new burst of "want-to" but it dwindles with each day of the week. I dont know what my problem is. So much of it is a mind thing. 2 yrs ago when I finally got into the right mindset, very rarely could anything cause me to get off-track. Now it seems very rarely can anything keep me ON track!

Oh by the way, yesterday was my 21st wedding anniversary. We've come a long way since this time last year, thank goodness. Been a tough week just because it brings back memories of what I was going through in my marriage exactly one year ago, but we are honestly working hard and doing well. Phil reminds me regularly that I am who he loves and he is where he wants to be and has no regrets of his decision to stay with me. I believe him but it's hard to keep those memories from trying to invade my mind sometimes. I'm not sure I'll ever completely heal from that hurt. It was worse than anything I've ever experienced in my entire life. On the positive side, tho, we made it through that...we ought to be able to make it through anything!

Well, I guess I"ll go for now. Hard to concentrate with Luke's LOUD snoring..lol The doc said that will last several days. Hope ya'll have a good rest of the week and a GREAT weekend! Be back soon.

MIKI

Hey Miki

Thanks for the great update..good to hear that you are doing well...Happy Anniversary..here's to 21 years of marriage!! Wow thats a long time...what a feat!!

I cant post for too long because I am at work and the boss is fluttery about..but I will try to get back this weekend and give you guys a propper update

until then
be safe, happy and healthy

love

Cyan

Howdy girls. great hearing from both of you. Work is still awesome. I just took my state boards yesterday. It was absolutely horrible. It took over 3 hours. I had the maximum 265 questions. Although it's not official, I'm sure I didn't pass. This may mean I don't have a job for the next 45 days until I take the test again which will cost $275. But I'm trying not to beat myself up over it. Such is life. I haven't stopped yet and I'm not going to stop now. This is my dream and while it may be harder for me than others, I can and will still do it.

THAT'S ALL FOR NOW...

Cyan.....congrats again!!

Lisa

Hi again

Lisa, it was nice talking to you this morning. Sorry your test was so tough...maybe you'll be surprise and find you passed it! But even if you didnt, you have the right attitude....dont give up...you've worked too hard for this.

Cyan, those "fluttering" bosses can be a pain cant they? That's why I cant get here at work. Never fails if I try to sign in, someone needs something or just shows up at my desk. I hope you have a nice weekend...with Mario I'm sure...right? Still anxious to see a pic of the two of you!

Well, better go. Need to take advantage of this time off with Luke to get some of this housework done before the weekend. Take care everyone.

Miki

Hello everyone!!!! I just wanted to share the good news! I passed my NCLEX and I am now officially a REGISTERED NURSE in the state of Kansas!!!!! YIPPEEEE!!!!!!!!! I was so surprised! I am so excited!!!
Finally, all my hard work has paid off.

Thank you all!!!!

Lisa

Lisa,
Congratulations!!!! :cp: I had a feeling you did better than you thought on that exam! That is wonderful news....way to go!

Miki

CONGRATS LISA!!! Welcome to the world of medecine!!