As usual I must complain about it being monday...and monday morning at that!! Oh its soooo hard getting up...I so love to sleep in on monday mornings. Ok..its out of my system.

I did ok with the food intake over the weekend...saturday I had a big breakfast...a small lunch...sandwich and then my big sushi date...the food was great but the guy...he was heavenly.

Sunday food was a big breakfast..eggs and stuff and then dinner...roast beef, potato, ..its all good...and I had a slice of cheese cake. I did cycle yesterday for 9 kms...30 minutes..so I think I cycled off the cake.

I am still walking on cloud 9...I am looking forward to seeing him this afternoon..he is supposed to come work at the offices this evening and finish up the offices in the back. It really turns me on seeing him use those power tools....oh boy..I think I have been hit with cupid's arrow!!

Oh speaking of cupid...my friend called me sunday morning to invite me to a dinner party for feb 12...she said I can bring a date...woohoo...I will ask but let him know he doesnt have to come if he is not ready...these are my childhood friends and I dont want to rush him or anything...so I am cool if he doesnt want to go...definitely understand...but it will be nice if he does come....I have known some of these friends since elementary school. I will ask him tonight if he wants to go if the situation presents itself.

ok I gotta go before I dream about him all day long...I have tons of stuff to do here at work

have a great day

Cyan

Wooo Hooo I weighed in this morning at 153.5!!!

I also want to say a warm thank you for all the wonderful posts I have received here..you ladies rock!! It so much fun sharing my thoughts here on this journal aside from helping me lose weight and work things out, its awesome the amount of support that is given here. Ok ok...enough mushy stuff

Oh..one more mushy thing...I saw my cutie pie yesterday.....he was all smiles...it was briefly cause I am at work and am rather shy...but anyway, he called me last night at home and we spoke on the phone for two hours..that was nice. I invited him to my dinner party but told him he was not pressured to come since we are still getting to know each other. This dinner party is in two weeks and they are with childhood friends of mine. Anyway, he said he would let me know. We have our second date this saturday...looking forward to it...I think it should be great. He is very open with his feelings and says stuff like..I have been thinking about you a lot and I like you more each time I see you...its all wonderful stuff.

Ok Ok...I am moving on...I cycled last night for 2o or so minutes..did 6km...food intake was very good...no snacking on belgian cookies ..oh I did have a small slice of cheese cake...with dinner...but that was it.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: frozen lasagna
dinner: tuna sandwich with green salad
snack: fruit smoothie and an orange
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: cycling and maybe pilates

Have a great day

Cyan

I am taking a trip to San Fran soon..like in 21/2 weeks..I cant wait to take a break away from work...it will be nice to just not do much of anything...looking forward to it.

I was bad yesterday..I didnt exercise at all...I was very lazy and even went to bed early...by 9pm I was in my bed and by 10...asleep. Guess I must of needed it. It felt good to just do nothing. ahhhhh

I saw my cutiepie yesterday...briefly...it was nice...I think he gets cuter everytime I see him...we spoke briefly..like how was work and all..he looked a little tired...he said he tossed and turned all night...I hope he was able to sleep last night. I get to see him again today ..so that is great..tomorrow I rush off to class and he has hockey..so he wont come tomorrow. Anway..looking forward to date number 2 this saturday.

I have to vacuum my hallway tonight...its full of tiny rocks from winter..my Dad brings them in from the outside. They stick to the soles of his boots..argh!!

I will also cycle. My goal is to be a solid 150 maybe even 149...dare I say it for the end of February...wooohooo...heres to getting out of the 150’s by the end of february. I think I will jump for joy...I must stay on plan...I must not sabotage my efforts....So here’s to sticking to plan...staying on track.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: roast beef with roasted potatoes
dinner: not sure yet...maybe a frozen pizza
snack: fruit smoothie and yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: vacuum and cycling

Have a great Day

Cyan

Thank goodness..this week has been long. I wound up going home early..left at noon...Made it a personal day...went home...cleaned the floors...I had dust bunnies that wanted to be named...cat fur....argh...and the hallway leading into my house..was full a tiny rocks...from the outside...Dad brings them in on his boots...winter...sucks...anyway...I vacuumed and mopped the floors...phew...that was a good upper body workout. I then went and got my hair cut...that was nice...its started off with a 10 minute chair massage...the girl did my shoulders, back and even did a rub down of my legs Then I went downstairs and got yet another massage..this time it was the scalp with essential oils...and this girl rubbed my neck too and went all down my back..on my skin I thought maybe Mario had shown up and taken over… Finally I got my hair shampooed..more scalp massage...its a wonder I am still awake by the time the hair stylist takes over. So Edith...my hair stylist got busy doing her thing giving my mop of hair a nice sleek shape ..I kept the lenght...just had long layers ...jagged kind done with a razor put in...looks very sleek and modern...she then flat ironed it...to show off the cut...looks good. Too bad my Cutiepie wont see it today...hockey night for him and school for me. I didnt get to see him yesterday either cause I left early...but I did talk to him on the phone...so that was nice.

I cycled last night 6kms ..just over 20 minutes and did situps on the ball. Food was ok...I had one of those oven baked thin crust pizza’s...only 600 calories for the whole thing...very good...I made chicken alfredo for dinner...portion sizes applied here...but I was very full...oh ...I was baaaaaad
I finished off my newyork style cheesecake...that one piece was 430 calories… But at least its out of my fridge.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: two raisin bread toast, 2 pats of butter and portuguese style unriped white cheese..1 oz
lunch: leftovers...chicken alfredo --one cup
dinner: not sure yet...I have to get something at school..thank goodness there is a huge food court next door full of organic healthy choices
snack: fruit smoothie
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: just walking...I get home late..dont think I will exercise today

Have a great day

Cyan

Hey Cyan :wave:

It sounds like you are one busy women. Your hair cut sounds so cute! That's just the way I want mine done. I got a gift certificate ($150) for this local salon that is just fabulous, but i am saving it for June because we are going to Disney then. Can you post a picture of your new hair style? I would love to see it.

How's your Mother doing? You're so awesome to visit her as often as you do. One of my daycare parents (I have a home daycare) visits her grandmother very often, and although it's not exactly the same situation, she still enjoys the visits and the residents love seeing her 1 year old baby she brings.

I've been running on the tredmill just about everyday but last night I cut it short because of knee pain. It was weird. Maybe I'm putting too much stress on it. I'm going to try walking in a few minutes since my two kids have Gymnastics late this afternoon. I've been doing some weight traing but I HATE lifting weights. So boring and takes too much effort :yawn: .

The weird thing about cardio is that no matter how intense I make it, I can still concentrate. With weight training.....well.....I go into lala land and hurt myself.

Cyan...how tall are you? I'm 5'7 and can't remember what the 150's were like. Hey, I'm down 8 pounds. I'll take that. I have come to realize that this weight loss thing isn't going to hapen fast. I might as well just go with the flow. I try not to cheat too much but sometimes that NY cheese cake calls my name too. :)

Well I am off now to go and get the cardio out of the way. See you guys later.

Welcome Sandy..nice to have someone in here besides me...gets lonely. My Mom is doing as best she can...not much to say..its a horrible illness...she has some good days and bad ones...every visit I go home with urine soaked clothes to wash...its very upsetting...when she was at home with me...which was not so long ago..before dec 14..she was going to the bathroom on her own. So needless to say, I am working through feelings of guilt. But I move on and try to find happiness...to take back my life...I must say it is nice to be able to do things for myself ...like go out of dates...not worry that I have to be home at a certain time to give my Mom her meds...wash her...calm her down...Its bittersweet...but I am no spring chicken....34 ack and I dont want to be alone...I want to find a husband..someone to share my life..so I am glad I am going ahead with that ..that I am able to do that.


Its been a long week although I hate wishing away my days...I want to appreciate each day and feel it...feel every hour ....but I am still learning to me mindful of time. I am always one to look forward and dream of the future...but I need to appreciate and look forward to the now too. Ugh I hope I am making sense.

Anyways, I didnt cycle last night...when I got home I was tired...but I did walk home from the subway...uphill ...in the cold...so I got a bit of cardio workout. I stayed on plan with the food...I had sushi for dinner...yum yum. I did very well ..no deserts of any kind not even those pesky belgian cookies.

I didnt see or speak to my Cutiepie...he is coming tonight so I am looking forward to seeing him at the end of my work day...I like his smile and dancing blue/green eyes. And of course..we have date number 2 tomorrow...so definitely looking forward to that!! woohoo.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: leftovers chicken alfredo (one cup)
dinner: homemade hamburger pattie with green salad
snack: fruit smoothie
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: cycling and floor exercises

Have a great day and weekend

Cyan

Thanks for the warm welcome cyan! What you said made alot of sense. And you know what? You are so smart to see how bright the future can be. I look at things like set-backs as a learning experience. I am one of those people who only learn by doing and by going through an experience.

You sound like you're a very brave woman and very compasioniate. Your day will come when you will be able to shine in your own glory.

You never did say if you could get a picture of your new hair cut though :) I can hardly wait until my spa day comes. I will not reward myself until I lose at least 40 pounds.

It's so weird seeing the weight come off too. I was looking at myself in the mirror this morning and I can't get over how much slimmer I look. My mother in law even said something the other day. My knee pain went away. Happy about that.

Here's my meal plan for today:

BF: 2 peices of toast; light butter (can' believe it's not butter) and SF jelly
am snack: Apple
Lunch: 1 cup homemade veggie soup DH made last night w/ 1 low-cal fudge bar
Dinner: DH is making pan-sheared salmon w/ sauteed squash & zuccinni (sp?)

Drinks: 1/2 cup milk for breakfast; and WATER, WATER, and more WATER
:dizzy:

Have an awesome weekend!

the date was FABULOUS!! He is soooo sweet, very honest with his feelings and finds me very hot...yay me!! As you well know..I find him very hot...and was so happy that I am as equally attracted to his personality...I think he might be a keeper. He is coming with me to a dinner date next saturday at a friend’s house...so I am looking forward to introducing him to my childhood friends...he is a bit nervous and when I invited him I told him I would like him to come with me but that it would be ok if he wasnt ready...he said he is nervous but wants to get to know me more so he will swallow his nerves...Oh boy...he is trying...which of course makes him even more appealing to me.

So thats the jist of it...it went well..I like him even more now...and am looking forward to our next date...too bad its a whole week away..but I’ll survive.

Food wise has been ok...I am still at 153.5...so hopefully next week I should be down another pound...I am extra motivated now to get these last 13 pounds off of me. Have a great rest of weekend

Meal plan for today
Brunch: 3 eggwhites(one of those a whole egg) banana, cheese 2oz, 2 whole wheat toast and 2 thin slices of ham, diet coke

Dinner: oven roasted chicken with red peppers and taboule

beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: pilates and cycling

Have a great day

Cyan

PS I will try to get a shot of my haircut..it kinda looks like the one that the redhead on csi Vegas has.

I hate mondays

Sorry for the negative attitude..I just dont like mondays...ack! I wish I wasnt at work...I just dont like Mondays..it means I have a whole week of work ahead...stress stress and more stress. Ok I had to get that off my chest...it was festering inside of me...I am releasing it ...breathing it out of me....ahhhhhhhhhh.

Well the weekend was great..I especially like saturday..for obvious reasons...the date was awesome...I am looking forward to our third date. I cant wait to get to know him better...I really like him a lot.

Foodwise was good..I ate lots of good food and did ok with portion control...I cooked a lot this weekend...meatloaf...roasted chicken...all turned out good. I exercised Saturday....with housework and on Sunday I cycled and did pilates.

I feel bloated...PMS ..but I havent had it this bad in a long long time...everything hurts

My friend called me last night to invite me to a ski challet weekend...but the invite was too short notice...its for this weekend...so I had to decline..I think she had other people going but they cancelled out at the last minute..I hope she is able to get last minute replacements.

I am going with Lisa...my other friend to a gym tonight..its close by my home...and hers...she has been putting on weight...and I am looking for a new place to exercise..now that I can go to a gym because I dont have to be home on weeknights..I think I am ready to join a gym..I would like to use their nautilus machines...to strenghten my upper body. They also have yoga and aerobic classes there too..its all part of the club..we are going to see how much it costs to go there.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: leftover meatloaf with mashed potato and two jalapeno peppers
dinner: leftover chicken with plam hearts ( olive oil and balsamic vinager)
snack: protein smoothie
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: cycling

Have a great monday

Cyan
ps: how did your test go Lisa?

Good Monday morning guys!!!!

Yeah, Mondays are bummers for me too but I try to look at it like it's just one more day closer to the weekend :)

CYAN: What line of work are you in? I don't watch CSI or 24 or whatever you mentioned. I know...I am prude but wheny ou have two small kids, it's holy terror until bedtime. so...I don't know what hair style you're talking about exactly. Just whenever you can, I'd love to see it.

I had a hard time with portion control this weekend. We ate out ALL day Saturday (3 meals). We had coupons to use up for free meals :burger: . Yikes...We won't do that again for a while. But I did manage to still lose another pound. My goal is to be down to 190 by the end of this month. I figure by the end of August I should be 130. That's my goal anyway. I'll post progress pictures in another month.

Hey Gals,

It has been a while since I have posted and I spent some time reading through some of the posts to get up to speed and all I can say is WOO HOO Cyan!! Your new guy sounds like a real cutie!! Maybe he's getting no sleep because he is up all night tossing and turning thinking of you!!! Your diet and exercise plan sounds like it is going fabulously. I remember when you were worried you wouldn't make it off of 159!!! Your are rocking right now--keep up the great work!!

As for me--I have been the same as always. Gaining a pound here or there over the year and then getting a little chubbier as time goes by...I'm starting to look more and more like my mom. She is cute but a little pudgy. I think I need to incorporate some weight bearing exercises because I am losing my muscle to fat as I age and my metabolism ain't what it used to be so I am going to have to cut portion sizes whether I like it or not. If I don't I will just keep putting it on. I sometimes don't recognize my own face in the mirror because most of the weight is on either my face (or butt!!) and I want to recognize myself again. I am adjusting to a new job and I am downtown Toronto a lot which means more eating out at lunch. There are healthier options but I don't always choose them. So I need your support!!

Sandy welcome to the group! It is nice to hear from new contributors. You seem very focussed on your goals and it sounds as if you have had some successes as well. Congratulations!!

As for me, I need a good kick in the butt--I have been caving. I know what food choices are good and healthy. I know what exercise is good. I am just lazy and eat food that tastes good whether it is good for me or not. It is all within my control to choose.

Gotta go for now,

Cjunk

Happy Wednesday
 

I took the day off from work because I had to go see my Mom’s neurologist ...but first I went to visit my Mom...get her medicare cards...bring home her dirty clothes and of course...visit with her...she seemed very happy to see me and was having a quiet day. I cant wait till the weather warms up so that I can take her outside and for a car ride without worrying too much about it being too cold for her. I hate this illness...I truly do.

So I got home at around 3 pm...chilled for a bit...fixed an early dinner for myself...leftover roasted chicken with couscous salad...and the rest of the belgian cookies..thank goodness they are gone I watched Oprah...man...it was scary...her guests were obsessed with plastic surgery...couldnt believe that.

I took a bath...that was nice to just relax..then I called Mario...and got directions to his house...Got to his house after 7pm and had a wonderful evening with him....He is soooooooooo HOTTTTTT and fun loving...and so much fun to be with. Oh...He wrote me my first poem...he was going to give it to me on Valentine’s day but felt that last night was appropriate...I was so touched....no one has ever written me a poem before...very romantic. He has finished his job here at my offices so I wont be seeing him at the end of my work day but it works out better for me anyway because now he has more free time in the evenings for me...I might see him on friday, then saturday is our dinner party and on sunday he asked if I wanted to go watch him play soccer...how cute is that...He is also an avid golf player so he wants me to try that out with him...I said I would like to do that...So it looks like things are coming along nicely for him and I...I can officially call him my boyfriend...Yep...after 5 long years of being alone..actually longer...I have found a partner that has a lot of potential...I really like him alot and we seem to have lots in common. I look forward to getting to know him more.

Oh...I joined the gym...I took a three month contract just to see how I take to it..I didnt want to pay for the whole year until I know for sure I will be going regularly..which I suspect I will be...but I like to be cautious..I asked if I could start March 1..I am going away on the 19th for a week so I dont want to pay for nothing. but I feel tempted to go next week...I guess we will see how that goes.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: individual quiche with couscous salad
dinner: shrimp and pinapple curry
snack: protein fruit smoothie and yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: cycling and pilates

Still at 153.5...but I have pms..so I know I am holding on to some water weight..would be nice to see 152.5 or even 152 soon!

Sandy..I am a webdesigner!

Hey Cjunk...ok girlfriend..here comes the cyberkick....POWWWWWWWWWW
Come on....you can do this....you know how to be healthy...you deserve this...no more junk...a challenge...for the remainder of the week and weekend...no junk food...no chocolates...fast food...chips...fat sodas...ok
? you can do it...clean your system out from the sugar fest and get your motivation back...YAY Cjunk can do this...yes you can.

Ok ...cyberkick and soap box speech is over.

Have a great day

Cyan

Hey girls. Sorry I have been MIA lately. As you know, school has started. I still have been lurking but usually with a baby in my lap, so I can't really type.

Sandy, I'm sorry I wasn't here to welcome you, but WELCOME!!!! Always glad to meet someone new. We are a wild bunch and there used to be much more of us, Taiwan, Reina Mia, MikiG, newinspiration, Lady, and more, but I'm blanking on their names...It's almost midnight and I'm very sick with a horrible cold and I've been up making homemade valentines for my daughter's 1st grade class. Why do I do these things to myself????

Cjunk, I guess Cyan's cyberkick was sufficient, so I will be kind and say hello. I think one of these days I going to have to make a trip to Canada and you and Cyan and I are going to have to get together. We've known each other on the computer for over 2 years!!!

Cyan!!! I am imagining you all aglow with this new love in your life. I'm so excited for you! I've been thinking about you and this Mario fellow! Sounds like things are heating up in the kitchen if you know what I mean. :o :lol:

Well, I'm going to hit the pillow. I am so tired. I don't know why I'm still awake. This cold makes my head feel like it's floating off of my body. EAting wise, today was an off day because I don't feel well, but other than that I'm doing okay.

See y'all later!

Lisa

I am looking forward to some rest and relaxation this evening...I hope I can get my car out...its under a blanket of snow and a very deep dune like blanket it is. Also, some idiot parked very close...actually encroaching on my driveway..so it makes it very challenging taking out my car...I hate rude people who have no respect for other people’s property...just yesterday morning this other woman parked her car completely obstructing my driveway..thank goodness I was home ...I asked her point blank if she did not see the two signs on my door saying no parking...all they could do was apologize ..boy did she look embarassed..but I really wanted to know is if she saw my very big no parking signs or if she didnt care and figured she can park there. I can never get them to answer me…

I think I am coming down with a cold...actually I know I am...I have a small cold starting...damn...I hate getting sick and right before a plane ride..I hope it clears up by next saturday.

I got home late last night...so no exercising...but I did do a lot of walking...and walked home from the metro..uphill...at a descent pace..so I think that counts for some exercising.

Well..Tom has arrived....I am looking forward to weighing in after it is gone to see how much weight I have lost..I am hoping to see 152 pounds!! Fingers crossed.

I didnt speak to my Cutiepie last night...so I am looking forward to seeing him tonight...but I am not sure if I have the energy to shovel my way out or if someone will be blocking me in. I might ask him to come get me cause otherwise..I will have to come home which is around 5.30...eat dinner...shower...then go out and shovel for atleast 30 minutes if not more...then I will be all sweaty and full of snow...not a good first impression when you are meeting his family. And I am coming down with a cold...so hmmmm...I think if he doesnt want to come get me...I will take tonight off for myself. I guess I will have to see how I am feeling later on today.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: shrimp, pineapple curry
dinner: dont know yet..most likely a hearty sandwich
snack: protein fruit smoothie
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: dont know yet.

Ok have a great weekend

Cyan

Hello Again,

Cyan, I didn't get your Cyberkick until today, so I think the strawberry tart I split with a friend for breakfast (yikes--see how bad I have gotten??), will have to be forgotten and I will start fresh as of now. Thanks for helping me get back on track. Your new guy sounds very cool and romantic as well. He must really like you if he is introducing you to his family. It takes a lot for guys to do that. And poetry writing ---that's another plus---and---getting you to come to his game means you will meet some of his friends---another plus!! So I think you can safely say that maybe he is as smitten with you as you are with him!! I am very happy for you.

Lisa, great to hear from you. Colds are the worst, especially because they take so much energy out of you and you end up still having to do work and or other obligations. How is your new home? I imagine that you are loving it!!

Sandy, I hope everything is going well for you. Lisa is right that we used to have so many people on this post and many of them I miss very dearly as we really spent a lot of time all getting to know one another.

I went indoor rock climbing on Friday night and yesterday did a bunch of shopping and went to my in-laws to-be's for dinner. Had a nice healthy meal and a small piece of dessert (banana bread) with coffee. May be doing some night skiing tonight depending on how much work I get done as I have some documentation to write before Monday. I have been fighting a cold off and on for the past week and I feel pretty drained today although I am doing okay. Spent about 2 hours yesterday and 2 hours today cleaning as the past 2 weeks at work have been so busy that I have been very lazy in that department so our place was a mess!! It's pretty spotless now and we did a thorough cleaning and all the laundry as well. I am just in the process of washing all the bed sheets etc. Boy did our place need all that attention!!

Found a new climbing gym in Toronto that looks better than the ones we have been going to and I am hoping to try it out sometime this week. I have been working downtown a lot and they just opened a little skating rink right across from my office building so I think I may bring some skates and go skating at lunchtime. I've been going out for lunch a lot when I work downtown, but most of my lunches have been very healthy because my favorite is sushi and so are my co-workers favorites. I also have a co-worker who has only eats veggies and there is a great vegetarian buffet just down the street.

So here is my problem:

1. I eat too much food in a day (more than what I need). Most of my problems are just before catching the train home as the station has tons of junk food places and I have been working late and been hungry for dinner. Last week I brought an energy protein bar and it took care of that problem, so I will have to do that again. I also tend to binge eat at night before bedtime when I don't even feel hungry. I think it is because I am not too tired and am forcing myself to bed because I know my mornings are early and if I don't go to bed early I feel exhausted the next day. So the food makes me more sleepy and helps me to sleep. Maybe I'll start taking a hot bath before bedtime instead!

2. I have been really bad with eating junk food lately. Mostly I have been eating lots of sweets. This is unlike me because usually I am not into sweets. However, I am starting to get sick of them, because I have overeaten them so I am hoping that this aversion combined with your cyber-kicks will help!!

Cyan, I think I am going to start doing what you do, which is map out the foods I eat (good and bad--no cheating!! In their entirety). I think you guys will be shocked to see the true quantity of the crap I am eating and know that I have to stop and maybe it will help me to map it out too!!

So the plan is that I will post tomorrow what I ate today. And then hopefully this will help me to plan my meals instead of just eating them.

Talk to you all soon,

Cjunk