ok wow. sick for days. staring at a wall like a zombie sick, not the coughing head cold sick. better today, at least at work, still feel like yuck.

got the treadmill belt adjusted. I think. I'll find out this weekend when I actually use it.

I have a question. Has anyone here just gotten totally, completely, utterly TIRED of food? Tired of thinking about it, tired of eating it, tired of buying it, tired, tired, tired. Tired of trying to think of something good and inexpensive and healthy. Tired of the same stuff over and over. Tired of trying to think of new stuff. Tired of being responsible for feeding three other people. I say we go back to eating leaves. *small huff*

Chachee - It was your birthday and I missed it?? ack! *warm hug!* Happy Birthday!!! (a little late)

This has to be really quick, I'm supposed to be leaving work so I can (WHEE) go to the store. *scowl* It looks like the barn owner with whom I am boarding is going to come down to the price I want and cover the round bales. This is an amazing and wonderful thing, it means I don't have to move the horses.

I am hoping to feel well enough this weekend to start walking on the treadmill again. I promised myself I wouldn't push it very hard at all, just get my body back in the habit of moving.

More later.. or maybe tomorrow. Sooooo far behind at work! :(

Hi Everyone

Raven I sure hope that you are feeling better. Yes to answer your question, I am at that point about food. Mark has been cooking because I can't even come up with ideas anymore. That will be one goal that I will look at once we move. Using the crockpot more.

Jolly when you are at the page that shows all the forum titles, scroll down to the very bottom and it shows birthdays. It didn't show Chachee's though.

Happy how did it go with the real estate agent?

Chachee how is your little guy feeling? Better I hope. When does hubby come back?

Linda I am so sorry that I forgot to say hi to you last time. How is everything going?

Sassy...come on back and say hi.

Tracy come tell us how you are doing.

Hippy hello to you also.

Red hope you can log on soon also.

Hope everyone has a great day.

Hi everyone

Quiet weekend here.

Went out and looked at the new place so that we can measure for curtains, and paint colors and stuff. 7 more days and then we can move. I am fairly excited.

Well I hope that everyone has a great weekend.

Kathy

Hi all. I have been very busy getting ready for my vacation this week. I have to get refocused on my eating. I have been still letting things get to me, and eating too much. Too many bouts of acid reflux. Well, I am going to enjoy this vacation. Relax. And come back recharged and ready to go.

I hope all is well with everyone, and we have a great week.

Hey ladies -

Ok. It's a conspiracy. I know it. I hopped on my treadmill yesterday morning and wouldn't you know it, the belt is slipping. Needs to be retensioned badly. Of course I didn't have time to fight with it yesterday morning so I promised myself I'd do it last night. Did I? Noooooooooo. Did I wake up this morning in time to do it? NOooooooooo. I'm tired of fighting even more than my own lack of motivation. These stupid little teensy weensy speed bumps are enough to completely stop me in my tracks. It's HORRIBLE!! ARGH! Oh, and then I need another adapter jack because the one I have for the headphones is - for some flipping reason - only carrying one channel. So I only hear music in one ear. I can't cope. *twitch* Every time I solve a little problem and think "hey, I'm ready to go, yay!" *splat* I trip over another problem and land on my face. *fume*

Yes, I'm venting.

OTOH, I had a most fantastic horse weekend. Good training with Shadow not to clobber me in the head whilst hoof trimming, though it took much time and work on our part, but we made serious inroads in getting her to stand nice and quiet for having her feet done. And my Arashi was golden Sunday night for our ride. Our barnowner decided to drop the price and cover the round bales, so we can afford to stay. This is a very wonderful thing.

Now .. tonight... do I go work with horses? Or go home to adjust the treadmill (and ultimately end up sitting in front of the computer playing City of Heros instead)? Decisions, decisions.

Food is getting better. I've been pretty good at cutting out the "obligatory" desserts and after lunch treats. I'm starting to get water in again. I'm feeling much better, and things like thanksgiving seem like minor blips on the radar compared to fighting with things that need to be bought or fixed before I can get back to working out on the treadmill. *sigh* I'm getting there... I am.

Sorry I've been MIA. Lots of things going on. I'll explain later...

Chach

Another quick fly by....

Son starts preschool next month in the local Christian schools. We thought it would be over a year, due to the placement on the waiting list, but he got moved up. Very good!!

My grandmother is very ill and may not make it very much longer. Her iron count is down to 8. When it reaches zero, you cease to exist. She has extremely low blood pressure and appears to have some internal bleeding.

Hubby got home from Hawaii. No presents yet.

Oh, and I'm doing okay on the diet and exercise. Still haven't heard anything on the jobs, so I am guessing I didn't get either one. Oh well.

I'll write more when I have time.

Chach

Chachee - Congrats on the school thing.. I really hope your son likes it. Sounds like you're buried under wayyyy too much right now. I'm not used to seeing you chopping things off like that. I hope you're ok. *warm hug*

I'm doing better. I got the treadmill belt re-tensioned and then re-aligned again. That took pretty much all the time this morning that I would normally use for working out. So tomorrow, hopefully, I'll be able to actually WORK OUT.

Last night, I took myself to the stables and did round pen work with Eve, and rode my little Arashi again. :D Good fun!! And good for me, mentally and physically.

Tonight more horse time, then hopefully to the mall to pick up contacts for V and a new stereo jack for me!

Food is still sucko. *blink* One thing at a time.

Hi Ladies,

Okay, I have more time now...

Raven: Yep, I'm alright. Not 100% okay, but alright. No news on my grandmother yet, but we should hear something today. My son will be attending Anchorage Christian Schools, the one at Prevo's church. I don't particularly care for him, but you can't beat his school. I was working out on my treadmill this morning and it just stopped, the belt that is. I think the motor got overheated, but I'm going to double check it tomorrow. Gosh, don't need something else going wrong.. :)

Hubby brought me back a Thomas Kincaide music box. It's numbered and signed, and it's gorgeous. Such a thoughtful gift. Plus, he brought back bags of onion and garlic macadamia nuts. Yummy!

My mental state is cloudy right now, but I am working out of it. I'm sad because my son is growing up and going to school. And that he's leaving where he is at right now, because the babysitter is incredible. But, we all grow up and I'm so lucky to be able to afford to send him to such a great school.

No news on my grandmother. Now don't think I'm horrible for saying this, but I'm not really affected by her illness. She has been truly horrible and evil to my parents the last two years, and that is after she moved in with them. When someone messes with my family, then I come out fighting. My parents were kind enough to let her in, and her nasty self made them have problems in their marriage. So, am I sad she is ill? Um, yes, because I hate that anyone gets sick. I'm also sad because my mom may lose her mom, but the fact remains she is a very mean and nasty person. If she passes on, I'll mourn the loss of a relative, but I can't say that I'll be sad. Is that horrible? Just the way I am. Yes, I do hold grudges, especially when someone messes with my parents.

We found out last night that our neighbor, who is very close with my son, is in the hospital. She's had emergency surgery for a blocked artery. Her daughter and I had a good talk and she thinks she'll come home today or tomorrow. I usually don't got a day without talking with her a couple times a day, so when I didn't see her for two days, I knew something was wrong. If you all could keep her in your prayers, I'd appreciate it.

Day off tomorrow, and I am going to the fabric store and stocking up! I plan on sewing this weekend. It's a wonderful stress reliever! (Kinda sounds like I need it, huh?)

Alright, time for work. Oh, yippy skippy!

Happy Wednesday! Enjoy your day off tomorrow, if you get one!

Chach

Hey Chach - Looks like it's just you and me here. :)

Nothing against your choice on schools and all, but .. Prevo is creepy. I really, really don't like that man. But like I said, I hope your kiddo is happy with his new school, that's what is the most important thing. I hope I didn't transfer my bad treadmill karma to you. :( The music box sounds so pretty! I love music boxes. There used to be a store here that sold ONLY music boxes, all different kinds.. they were amazing and lovely. What a sweet gift. :) I don't think what you're saying about your grandmother is horrible, Chach. No more horrible than me saying I wish my father would pass away. It hurts me to say that, but in so many ways he died a year ago, and he isn't "living" he's just prolonging his dying. I can really understand you being protective of your parents, and it's very hard to tolerate someone being mean to them. *warm hug* I hope your neighbor is home soon, and gets better very quickly! You do sound stressed, yes. More than usual. I hope you have a great weekend sewing and doing all your amazing things.

I actually worked out today! Amazing. Still no stereo adapter jack, but I just made do with listening to music without headphones. I didn't do much, only 25 minutes of a brisk walk, but it's a start. It occurred to me that my lack of motivation on working out really hit hard when two things happened. My horses went lame. (All three at the same time for different reasons. That is NOT supposed to happen!) And my treadmill belt tore. That was pretty much all it took to completely and totally derail me not only from working out, but eating right and everything else.

This year has been an interesting one, full of twists and turns and unexpected happenings. What bothers me is that I let all that influence my way of life to the point that I gained weight. Am I going to do that every time life gets lifey? Something to ponder.

I have enough time at this point to (I think) at least get back down to my lowest weight this year. At least that is what I'm going to aim for. I'm really hoping that the increased exercise will have a direct impact on my thought processes and will help me to change my food choices.

It's raining today, and it's cold (oooo cold - it's in the 40s - freezing!) so working with the horses is not going to happen. Tonight will be a good night to watch Shrek 2 with the kids.

Things are weird again with Richard. *sigh* People are weird.

Hello all (Raven)

Did a lot of shopping yesterday. Got all the fabric I'll probably need for the entire winter! :) They had a huge polar fleece sale, so I stocked up. Nothing like hitting a sale that is 50% off the sale prices.

I weighed in today, and am down to 225.5, which is a loss of 3.5 last week. Still up 11.5 from my lowest in July, but I am dealing with that.

Thanks for your understanding Raven about my grandma. Just one of those things. She goes in for an upper and lower GI Monday. We'll see how it goes.

Treadmill belt stopped again this morning. Grr....it's getting annoying now!

Happy Friday!

Chach

Well, looks like this thread is dying a slow and painful death. I'll probably just move on over to the journals again soon.

Chach - Have you figured out if the motor is going out on your treadmill? How long have you had it? Would it still be under warranty?

I just found out that my dearest friend in Alaska was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. It floored me, and I'm having a rough time right now. Laura and I met when I was pregnant with Valeska and she was pregnant with her daughter Rachel. We bothed worked for BP at the time, and V and R were born a week apart. They were like little twins, and grew up inseperable. Laura's mom isn't in the greatest health, and her dad is lost in his own vicious mental world. Her ex-husband is a total loser. She has Rachel (coming up on 16) and Robin (almost 14). She has fought so hard in her life, and it just breaks my heart. She deserves better than this. :( She's a tremendous woman, and doesn't even realize it. I'm just so heartbroken.

I know I'm pretty much talking to myself but...

Two miles this morning! I had to crow. I did intervals again. And I did 2 miles in 25 minutes. Not bad for starting over. I'll sit with that this week and see what happens.

More exercise over the weekend in the form of riding bareback (trying to work on that sitting trot thing) and rasping Arashi's hooves, which wore me out completely. That boy is getting some seriously hard hooves going on!

Food is total crap. Water... needs to improve starting today. Food needs to improve too. I think I'll start working on that as well. It's been too long.

I wonder why it is that my closest friend who has just been diagnosed with MS telling me "Marian, you better live while you can." to get my *** in gear. *heavy sigh*

Hey to Raven, since we are the only ones here lately.

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. That is heartbreaking and I totally feel for you. Really brings it to light that we must live each day as it's out last, huh? I'll keep her and you in my prayers.

Didn't do much this weekend, but did get caught up on the sewing and did some other craft stuff. Put up the sewing machine until after the holidays, so I can concentrate on other things.

I believe the treadmill motor is going bad, so I pulled out my receipt. I have a 90 day return policy for it, so I am just going to exchange it here locally. It was purchased September 24th. I'm well within my 90 days. Just a pain in the butt to get it back over there. Good thing I kept the box, huh?

Well, last full week without company. Hubby's family gets here next week for two weeks.

Happy Monday, and hope the others find their way back.

Chach

Hi Girls,
It's been nuts here. I'm barely home and when I am I have to rush out because someone is showing the house. Good news is that it's getting shown alot 2 to 3 times a day, bad news is that it's such a hassle picking up and leaving all the time. I hope to have a stretch of quiet time tonight to do a proper post. Take care chickies...