Sandy, I understand about not wanting to be on antidepressants. The simple fact is, that they alter chemicals in your body which affect your mood and state of mind. Having a bad reaction to something which has such a powerful effect on your body is a terrifying thing. I know people who say that antidepressants saved them, and others who were almost destroyed by the terrible side effects. My thought is, unless you really NEED them, DON'T take them. Don't let anyone pressure you into taking them.
I am morbidly obese and almost every doctor I've seen assumes I have an eating disorder and I need drugs to correct that. They tell me I am depressed. One even said "you're depressed and just don't know it." That's stupid. I pulled myself out of a years long suicidal depression as a teen. I know what depression is. I am not depressed. I don't have an eating disorder. I just made bad food choices and led a sedentary life style. Through my own will power I decided to change my life and lose weight and I have! I've lost 34 lbs in 6 weeks. You can do it too. It is just a matter of finding the eating plan that works for you. ALL bodies are NOT the same. Some people do really well on Adkins. Others do not. Also, YOUR body changes too. Just because it worked for you before, doesn't mean it always will. You have to listen to your body and let it tell you what it needs.
Go to
www.room42.com and enter your info. It will tell you what you can take in to lose weight.
www.fitday.com will help you calculate your foods. Eat resonably. Cut back on processed foods and eat more whole foods. Control portion sizes, but don't starve yourself. Cut out soda. Drink LOTS of water. Most importantly EXERCIZE. These things will help you to be HEALTHY. Tailor it to your needs. When you are eating healthy, drinking water, and exercizing you will lose weight. It won't happen overnight. There are no quick fixes to safe healthy weight loss. You can do it though! I weighed 377 when I started and I am doing it. I'm conviced that if I can, ANYONE can. All it takes is desire and determination and I believe you have all of that you need. You don't need drugs to get there.